dat parrot...has been my companion for the past 3 days...and will so be for another week...and...of course...its not real...its a toy...

these past 3 days at Toys'R'Us Paragon has been farely ok...one thing though...i'm actually one of the oldest there...and i'm onli 22...serious...the youngest punk is onli 15...oldest 19...and none of them expected mi to be over 20...

and becuz of dat...i aint on the same wavelength as them sometimes...but nevertheless...they seem a nice bunch of people...mostly :)

anyway...today's my last day at Paragon...after dat its back to OG Albert Complex...where i used to work...over there...i'm still the youngest punk...world of diff...

i guess at OG i'll see less jerks...becuz...at Paragon now...once in a while...an as*hole, usually a Army boi with the botak head...comes along and acts like he noes how to operate the parrot...while i stand at a corner...and using the control to make the parrot say things to make a fool out of him...dat guy'll be so pissed...he'll slap the parrot b4 walking off...talk abt hurting a guy's ego...

"i cant stand for 8 hrs a day straight like i could last time...wat happen???"

Worst experience ever..

juz a couple of hrs back...was the highly anticipated My Chemical Romance's concert in Singapore...sad to say...its gonna be one of the worst exp as an usher for mi...it was a case of Murphy's Law..."Whatever that can go wrong...will go wrong..."

having a overbearing, chauvinistic, egotistical and seriously overweight botak for an event organiser didnt help...as my temper reflected my boss's initally...bad...later followed a series of my "smart alec" moments...and voila...trouble for everyone...sigh...

seriously let boss down...and sorri to my 2 frens who had to have this concert as their first time exp...i'm so demoralised...even the job stint at hasbro aint working out for mi...i shld realli start flipping the classified pages now...

"The end of my stint as an usher?"

mugging...sure?

i'm actually realli mugging comfortably...lying on the living room's sofa, covered in blankets and cushioned by pillow and bolster...with the laptop in front of mi to go thru my softcopy notes...occasionally falling asleep...comfortable can???

Onli got past one paper and i'm thinking of wat to do already...

1. get a job...need some spare cash
2. lose weight...time to run again
3. acc sleeping beauty whenever i can...i realli realli miss her to bits~
4. shop for new clothes...but not b4 i lose weight...

"my dear sleeping beauty...pls let us meet soon...hehe"

study? wat study?

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! i got my psycho paper in less than 48 hrs...and i haven even got past my first chapter!!!! i'm soooooo dead!!!! pls hope and pray for mi dat i'll get past this first exam since my poly days :p

"should i drop my double major?"

yes...the depressed mi again...

true to word...i am indeed feeling a little downcast...my temper always gets the better of mi...and often the consequences are not something i would like face on my daily life...

example would be upsetting sleeping beauty becuz of my temper...sigh...every time i throw my temper...i regret it later...but i still do it...even now...sigh...i guess now no matter how many times i apologize wont do...but...nevertheless...sorry my sleeping beauty...hope you'll forgive mi...

"as i'm typing this...i'm watching meet joe black...this show juz always happens to be broadcasted at times when i'm good for a tear-jerker...and yes...i weep while watching this show...and its one of my fav...juz so u noe..."

the slackness has come~

one good reason/excuse for my lack updating is dat since my last outburst of anger and frustration...i have grown super lazy...not studying for my quizzes and procrastinating doing my portfolio and so on...

a psychological explanation would be that i was motivated by stress to work...and exerted an overloaded amount of energy...but the energy was exhausted and i finally gave in...hence...the slackness now...

bad news is...my portfolio is due in 4 days and i'm 4 reports short and i have to touch up on the current 4...i'm soooooooo dead......

"i got a feeling i'm going to be back to my old depressed self..."

out of steam and motivation~

i've lost all my motivation to do anything...my mid-term papers r finally back...although they aint too bad...it aint too good either...and the coming tests r onli harder...i juz wanna sleep...

why is it dat u guys like to compare results so much...juz becuz i got a little higher marks in earlier tests means i'm a smart ass? as if dats not enough...u wanna depend on mi to let u copy my ans, and later laugh at mi for getting lower grades than u? u despicable moronic arrogant biatch~

i swear the next person hu wans to compare grades with mi out of competition and not out of care will get his balls squeezed so tight all the little proteins inside called sperms will spurt out of his boner~

muz u guys be so competitive and realistic?

there are days when nothing u do can seem to go right...no matter what you do...this is one of those days...i do things without thinking and next moment i noe...i've upset people...sigh...tell mi wat can i do rite pls...

i felt soooooo bad...i went for a run...if onli i had run myself to the ground and stay there...leave my troubles behind...i'm truly sorri for being too insensitive...the run didnt work...i still feel lousy...

"maybe i should finally start on my Chivas...get myself damn wasted...juz cuz i feel sooooo lousy now...."

lucky boi

although last week has been quite a killer because of my 2 major mid-term papers Psycho and Comms, as well as handing in my first essay...not to 4get, i juz finished my maths mid-term today...

onli left English and Computer Science mid term on wed and 2nd part of Computer Science on fri...its relatively lite on mi this week...realli...though i have to catch up with my Comms portfolio and start on my 2nd essay's initial draft...sigh...no rest for the living...

y i gotta say i'm lucky...cuz i managed to get thru my 3 major papers knowing i wont perform miserably (unless i'm too confident..), managed to do well for my first essay...and still be in one piece...though i am running a fever now...

sigh...never ending tests and assignments...holidays never looked so worthwhile b4...

to my sleeping beauty...thanks for being there for the emo boi dat is mi :)

of changes in mi

since starting sch...i have honestly surprised myself...i have never been as hardworking my entire student life b4 as i am now...i willingly stay back in sch til nite juz to study...i drink essence of chicken, red bull, plus coffee with milk juz to stay awake thru the nite to revise, i can sit infront of the com for hrs, not playing games but typing, editing, re-doing my essay...i have lost my life...becuz...

in exchange, i have not stepped into the cinema since i started sch, i have not done any shopping for myself(wait a min...i seldom do anyway...), i'm more depressed than usual, i bite people more than i smile at them now, and i'm realli realli fat now (wait...no link...), ba!!~

and to top it off, its my mid-term exam, and i have to go injure myself on my RIGHT HAND!!! take a look...



looks more like a rotting wound than a cut...oh well...

"I NEED MY LIFE BACK!!!"

shagged out...

after last week's double killer of having Comms and Psycho test on the same day...and mugging those days b4 dat...i practically did nothing over the weekend...partly wanting to take a break...partly cuz i couldnt find the motivation to do anything related to studies.

but...homework is homework so i dragged my sorry arse out of bed in the wee hours of 4 am the finish them up...now that i'm done...here i am filling space...think i shld go for a run? (ate too much...too much input...not enough output...)

"sleeping beauty came up with some ideas for my Comms project...sweet!"

Miracles do happen~

becuz i noe i will onli rot my arse away if i went home straight after sch, and becuz i got 2 major tests...ON THE SAME DAY!!! and becuz i haven started revising on anything yet...i decided to stay back after sch today to do some revision...

so i actually realli realli realli sat down for a full 2 and a half hrs in the library to do my psycho revision...so now i know the diff btwn a methodological behaviorist and a radical behaviorist...or do i? damn...

anyway...after i got home...as expected...i did rot for awhile...with late dinner of course...but a sudden urge of craziness came over mi...b4 i knew it...i was in running attire...

i gotta admire myself for the stupid things i do sometimes...juz 2 nites back i had already tortured myself with 10km...and lagging my usual time by 8 mins...getting a weird feeling in my right knee joint...yet...yet i still went for a run...

so i did run a little better...so the weird knee feeling wasnt too bad...so i did feel juz a tiny winny bitsy bit better...still...doesnt change the fact tat i was still 1 min over short of my usual timing...and i was actually crazy enough to run when i got a morning class tomoro...omg...i'm so not gonna be able to wake up later...

"methodological behaviorists, radical behaviorists, biological psychologists...next thing they'll throw psychiatrists and social psychologists in my face..."

long delayed...

after weeks of countless procrastination...i've finally gone for my regular 10km run...and high time too...the fats r realli starting to pile up...and though i still clocked slightly under an hour...i was 8 minutes off my normal time...bad...shows how bad i've become...

i think becuz its been too long since i worked out...towards the last stretch of the run i felt something weird in my right knee joint...it feels weird even now...lagi bad...shall have to take it even slower now...damn...

talking abt long delayed...i've got 3 weeks worth of communications portfolio to be done, 1 english journal, 1 english exercise, 1 psycho yest, 1 comms test, and the realli realli mentally draining comms presentation content to think abt...sigh...how la how...

"controversy aside regarding vanessa hudgens...i realli think she and sleeping beauty look alike..oh how sweet they look!"

emo boi alert...

juz compared to a couple of days ago when i was so delighted with finally taking my IC...i suddenly feel pretty sad now...oh well...

have u ever done so much for someone...but not get the recognition, and instead dat someone can mention abt other people instead...but come to think of it...u ain't supposed to even exist! no one noes u're with each other...its another guy they noe of...so wat u care for? well...dats the thing...why? why in the first place do so much? i guess i'm a sucker for all things dat torture mi in the end...

"i'm gonna have a nitemare of a maths quiz in a few of hrs...yet i've onli slept for say...3 hrs...and with mi feeling so lousy now? damn...bad feeling..."

MY PINK IC!!!!!!! MY PRECIOUS!!!

becuz i onli had 1 lesson today in the morning, i haven seen something which belongs dearly to mi for the past 2 yrs, and becuz i'm obliged to do so...i dragged my lazy arse back to camp to complete my medical check up and get my PINK IC!

BUT!!! becuz the NSF in army somehow have their intelligence level go down one notch...i had to go thru so much more trouble and throw so much more temper to get back my precious IC...

1 of the bothersome steps to my ORD was to have a dental checkup...but becuz i was too busy being involved in the army open house dat i had no time to go for it...hence...during one of the days when i was free from class to go back...the dental clerk...thru the phone tells mi

clerk: hello, mindef dental center
stinko: hi, can i ask if the dental officer is around today, i'd like to do my dental check up for ORD
clerk: when u ORD? how come so late then do? cannot, which unit u from? can onli do from 9am to 9.30am onwards
stinko: huh? onli 9 to 9.30? even if there aren't any other appts in the afternoon for the doc?
clerk: yes!
stinko: then if dats the case, i'll never get to ORD, cuz i cant make it in the morning...then if my OC and CO asks mi why i cant ORD? shall i quote watever u juz told mi?
clerk:...
stinko:...
clerk:2pm later ok for u?

now i thought dat would have been the end of such dumbness...i was soooooooo wrong...now after my dental, i had to take a blood test b4 i could see the doc...so 2.05pm(the dental took less than 5 mins...) i walked into the medical center...

stinko: hi, can i have my blood test for ORD FFI?
medic: oh, u can onli take ur blood test in the morning, between 9am to 11am
stinko: huh? how come?
medic: no how come, always been the case...(medic then walks away...)

i told sleeping beauty abt this and her reply? "then shoot the medic back say next time enemy attack tell them onli attack in the morning, cuz afternoon dun entertain anyone..."

becuz of dat i had to rush from class to the medical centre to have my blood test...(*^*&$^%&$**^&($&&*(&(*&%%%%$#*onli hope dat was the lsat i had to endure of idiotic encounters...but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! finally when i could have my appt with the doc to certify mi today

stinko: hi, i'm here for ORD FFI...
medic: ur from 5 SIR? i'm sorri...ur MO(Medical Officer) is not around, u'll have to come back another day
stinko: huh? dats bull crap man! ur telling mi dat if my dear MO doesnt come for 1 whole month then i cant ORD as well?
medic: yup, i cant help u...
stinko: i noe u cant..dats why ur a medic..so to say during wartime the onli person who can save 5 SIR personnal is our dear MO and not any other MO?
medic:...
stinko:...private XXX...u might not care abt mi...cuz i'm juz a small fry...but i can simply juz relay the conversation we juz had to my superiors...now it wont hurt mi...cuz i'm leaving soon...but u juz new here rite? how bad do u think ur life will suffer? should this incident go up to the top?
medic:...
stinko: some more ur a medic...aren't u supposed to care? not warm ur seat all day long saying "sorri, i cant help u!"??? now...i ask again...can i see the MO for my ORD FFI?
medic: i'll ask the mindef MO...

and VOILA! i got my signature and b4 i knew it..i had my pink IC in my hand!!! wahahaha! threatening people with higher authorities works everytime!!! oh yar...if i might add...the dental clerk looked nerdy, the first medic looked like he could break if the wind blew too strong...and the 2nd medic? qualified for the amatuer sumo wrestling contest...oh well...guess this post has been too long...

"My OC says i'm fat liao...i told him it justifies me as a ORD personnal...then i wave my pink IC in front of him ;P"

STUDY??? HUH???

since graduating from poly...i've hardly studied...not even when i was on course for my Mortar training...hmmm...and now...onli into my second week of studies, i have 3 tests already...WTF~

another prob iz my camp...one thing y i didnt sign on(at the back of my crazy mind...i did consider...)...was dat...there were too many redundant protocols and people were juz too rigid with them...becuz of all these...i have to make a number of trips make to camp juz for less than 10 mins of admin stuff...aiyoyo...where the hell is the efficiency and effectiveness in dat???????????????????????? juz hope i can get my pink IC on fri...if not have to wait til next week le!!!

"1 quiz down...2 to go!!! but i haven started!!! NOOOOOOO!"

much has happened...more to happen!

the posted clip above...was wat happened to mi during my mother's company's Family Day at Sentosa's Tanjong beach...dat was like 2 weeks ago...dun ask mi why i was doing it..."SABO-ED!!!!"

i've already started sch...can feel the stress coming in already...but the tot of having to book in one last time to finish off my NS makes mi wanna go back to class anytime!

recently, there have been a few issues on my mind...troubled...hmmm...gotta book in...for the last time!

"headache...big time..."

Anxiety over things

recently...i've had a little bit of fear and anxiety over my future...over alot of things actually...

1. i'm soooo looking forward to ORD...get out of camp...but worried abt lack of income...
2. scared of going back to studying...
3. scared of the distant future...career wise...

true...i can actually go into almost any field should i successfully complete this degree of mine...and along with my diploma...i believe i'm diversified enough to be considered employable...jack of all trades...master of none...sigh...some more with the lack of income...i gotta find a way to earn some pocket money for myself...and to spoil my sleeping beauty...

though with all these...i'm still glad i have someone to share my woes and happiness with...my sleeping beauty has been understanding enough to tolerate mi..and i realli enjoy the times we spent together...we actually played hide and seek inside a supermarket...believe it or not...

"i think b4 i ORD...i might juz lose my temper and give my understudies 1 times good wake up call and buy my men some prata for my last book in...weird rite?"

recent happenings...

lots have happened while i was too lazy, busy, or pissed to update...my bad~

i was supposed to work in SingFest for the 8th and 9th of aug...earning myself some dough so i could spoil my sleeping beauty better...its already bad enough i have to be working on her birthday...but do things go according to plan? NOOOOOOO!!!!

my OC has to be a S.O.B. and recall mi back cuz the battalion is on alert standby...now logic will ask...why do i need to be called back? i'm not involved in the standby, i no longer have any of my personal stores...i'm totally not ready with all the standby...the other ORD personnels who booked out did not book in...so why the hell did i? sigh...and so i had to forgo work and spend the whole of 9th aug in camp being a floating ghost...

i had to make it up to my sleeping beauty a couple of days later...managed to get her a pair of couple rings...brought her to a new dining experience...so that was a good thing i guess...

though last nite i sort of upset her...sigh...mi and my indecisiveness...onli hoping i can make it up to her...

i juz received my time table...bad...real bad...i have classes which are more than 4 hrs apart...can there are classes on thur and fri...which means i muz realli realli go find ways and means to excuse myself from camp to attend my classes....

"dark times lie ahead..."

Difference between doing ur job and bootlicking...

as i've been around in the company for a far longer time in the company...its onli natural dat i'm closer to my platoon commander, platoon sergeant and my men...compared to my understudies...but overtime we the older commanders thought they would slowly take over positions successfully...

alas...currently from the way i see it...it aint the case...my understudies dont understand the roles and sacrifices a commander has to make...onli whining their way thru everything and not doing anything...not bothering to get to know the men better...juz staying inside their bunk fixated on their PSP...sigh...

anyway...i believe some of them thinks i'm bootlicking my PC and PS too much as i spend too much time with them...and leaking info of them cutting corners and slacking...all i can say is despite mi being an ORD personnal...i still do make myself useful my helping my platoon...infact i daresay i have been more useful than my understudies during the last outfield exercise...

being a commander...its not juz giving commands and using eye power...its about doing with them as well...and getting to noe them personally...and providing welfare from them...to show them u care...so that when they noe u care for them...they will in return give their all to get the job done...

"if some people think i'm bootlicking..so be it...when the actual fact is dat i still do a better job..."

And so he lives~

Finally!!! i have finished reading the book...and thru certain blessings...i finished it in the comfort and privacy of my room cuz..........

some of u, some few of u guys might rem dat i'm a pretty sensitive person...and emotional at dat...when reading a touching story or watching a touching scene in a movie would make mi sob uncontrollably...yes...i'm dat weak...too much female hormones in mi i tell u...

anyway...i couldnt imagine if i was reading the book in my bunk...where all my rowdy and ill-disciplined understudies were...they would be first wondering y am i tearing...followed by spreading the news, then coming up with lame jokes and stories...and finally making fun of mi with those lame jokes...IF THEY DARE!~

by now anyone interested in Harry Potter would noe he survived...dun mean to be a spoiler but its even been published in the straits times...so dun blame mi...though i shant mention the rest unless u wan mi to spoil it for u...

"i can smell it! so near yet so far!!! my ORD date!!!"

too much and too little of somethings

becuz i'm a ORD personnal in say...5 weeks time? i'm quite ready to relinquish most of my duties to my understudy...and rightly so too i guess...since he has been so slack and lazy...even more than mi...makes no sense rite?

but becuz i myself have sort of switched off...i haven been working out as much as i would have liked...which is a bad thing...veri bad...why? cuz it doesnt help dat i'm eating more nowadays...and to add on to the fact dat i have a naturally low metabolism rate...the circumference around my waist has gone up a few millimeters...which is bad..

and i haven been getting enough rest nor sleep too...for the past few weeks have been falling sick...dats bad...always nagging to my sleeping beauty abt taking care of herself when i aint doing a so fine job myself *sniff sniff...runny nose~

Too much of
1.eating
2.spending money
3.stoning

Too little of
1.exercising
2.maintaining the condition of my room
3.rest and sleep
4.imagination and inspiration

"i believe b4 the end of everything...i shall emerge a sad man once again...i always have been..."
Stinko's philosophical alter ego returns~

Too hyper? Too slack?

Juz when i recovered from last week's sick chicken period...i guess i overexerted myself over last weekend and fell sick again...WTF! this time it was worse...though i realli realli realli rested this time round...juz wanna quickly get back to my running...if i can make it in time i shall run 21km again this year...yes...i'm crazy...

sleeping beauty ain't exactly having it smooth at work these days too...its pretty sad

another reason why i would realli realli realli wanna keep up my running and training...Mummy's pulling the whole family to Sentosa for her company's cohesion...i GOTTA lose weight and tone up!!!!

juz when i tot i can almost switch off from NS...i have to be activated for the 3 days exercise from monday...and my boss dun wanna let mi go study...instead stay to help out with the Army Open House!!! ARGH...at least i'll be doing Urban Operations...should be fun...i hope...juz pray i dun miss much at sch for the first week...sigh....

"looks like i'm back to my veri veri veri whiny days again..."

fruitful weekend

i would say i had a veri veri veri good weekend...compared to last week when i was a bloody sick chicken...i got to spend QUALITY TIME with my frens, family and my sleeping beauty!!!

1. sitting in front of the sea, enjoying the nite breeze and scenery at the marina pier with my sleeping beauty is more than i can ask for...i LURVE times like these!!!

2. getting to meet up with my V6 poly gang, to see off brudder Wei to Aussie for his studies...to see the other guys doing so well...makes mi glad to know that they're good :)

3. To have a good dinner with dad when everyone else in the family having plans on their own, and instigating a family movie outing, and actually making it happen...is a good thing! (Many people might think otherwise...but i think Harry Potter's good...go catch it)

4. Catching up with the sec sch buddies thru ktv and tok cock session in the middle of the nite in the middle of nowhere juz brings back memories of the old days...

and now dat i have to book in again...i dun think i'll have such as good a weekend next week...i still dun understand why i still have to be involved in next week's battalion exercise??? my understudies are here, i'm not involved in their alert rate...still...sigh...all the no-brainers in army...

"now if onli i can kidnap my sleeping beauty home so i can spoil her silly..."

Sux to be sick...

as if my bodyache aint enough...i'm totally down with fever...the whole of sunday wasnt enough for mi to recover...BUT!!! becuz i didnt want people to think that i was malingering and becuz i wanted to save some money...i decided to book in last nite with the intention of visiting the Medical Officer early next morn...

i did get my medicine, after a long torturous wait...but i didnt get the medical status i was hoping for...i couldnt rest at home...no choice...can onli rest in bunk...and tahan my understudies' loud crazy shouting...sigh...

lets juz hope i can get over this "sick chicken" period of mine...argh..

"u noe wat i would realli like rite now? my sleeping beauty taking care of mi at home... ;P its a dream..."

The Silly things dat i do...

for the past few days...i've done some really silly things...realli..

1. during the block leave after coming back from Brunei, i was so bored staying at home dat i took an early train down to Orchard and patronised Borders...wanted to buy a book to read...ended up spending the whole day there, skipping lunch...and finishing the whole book i wanted to buy instead...crazy rite?

2. While still during the block leave...i knew i had to maintain my fitness...so i went for my regular 9km runs followed by some static exercises...but becuz i overestimated myself...i overstrained my body...by the end of the block leave...i had aching arms...

3. as if the aching arms didnt gimme enough warning...i continued training back in camp...by the end of the week...i could feel my whole body aching...bad...

4. if dat ain't stupid enough...i had to stay up all nite then to play 2 rounds of mahjong with Sad Boi and gang...bad move...i ended up totally a sick chicken on sat...

5. now dat its Sun...i still feel like crap...but i'm gonna have a day filled with activities again...omg...i'm realli gonna get myself killed someday...

"oh yeah...and i realised i have minor foot rot...since the brunei trip..along with my numb toe bitten from mutated red ants..."

future...bleak?

last nite...i was sitting outside my bunk with another 5 other guys...together with myself...we were the 6 outgoing personnal who would soon be ORD personnal! we were all in the mood...not wanting to do anything and eagerly awaiting the last 8 weeks to pass...

but while we were waiting for dat day to come...we discussed abt something pretty important...our future...to work or to study? i learnt quite abit of stuff dat nite...and b4 we know it...it was 2.45am...4 hrs from then would be our parade...crazy...

"Life can be so unpredictable...don't you think so?"

of new beginnings and coming endings...

while i'm realli looking forward to my ORD...when i can quite consider myself a free man...from all the green uniform and regimentation...it marks the end of a major step in my life...but the beginning of another...and i'm apprehensive...

come late august...i shall be pursuing further studies in SIM...Double Major in Communications and Psychology...true...its my interest...but the complexity of the course and the 2 semesters of chinese module...might get the better of mi...

fortunately...i have my sleeping beauty...realli glad she's around :) when she told mi dat i could look to her for help and we could even study together...u dun know how happy i was to hear dat :P

and talking abt my sleeping beauty, ever since she came back into my life...i've always had someone to look to...and someone i can pamper, someone to call my own :) to my sleeping beauty...if ur reading this...thanks for tolerating my temper and jealousy :P (i shall leave the mushy part out...)

and my biggest fear realli is the distant future...being a working adult...dunno why but have been thinking abt it for a while now...whether i can get to do something dat i like as a job...earn well...support my family(dat'll include sleeping beauty and her family too :P)...ohhhhh

"i think i'm thinking too much...pre-psychology student syndrome? thinking too much again..."

glad to be back...

So brunei has been an experience for mi...lotsa of things have happened...some good...some not good...but all memorable...imagine i never had to spend a nite in a swamp juz cuz i got lost of a couple of hrs...

anyway...didnt lose any weight as i'd have hoped...but never the less...shall try to work out on my own...in fact went for a nite run last nite :P shall go to the gym tomoro morn...

i really feel like sharing my exp on brunei...but laziness always gets the better of mi..and there are too many and too long to type anyway...but i do wanna blog...

recently, came across the topics of relationships...i've come to the point of questioning the point of a relationship in the first place...after wat has happened before and wat seems like happening...i dunno...trust...people advocate this all the time but does everyone give and provide the trust? LOL, i would like to think...

as negative as i might sound...i assure u dat i'm fine...realli...infact glad for one of my frens...winged feet he's nicknamed himself...he found his better half and is having a honeymoon in Tioman rite now...

Winged Feet is a real trash talker but he can talk sense when he wants to...and he did put some sense into mi once in a while...and he recommended the book "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"...i realli wanna read dat book too!!! shall steal the book from him once he's done with it...

"i realli missed my family and my sleeping beauty while i was away...so much that i acutally shed tears after talking to father on the phone...believe it...i'm a emo freak...sigh..."

and again i fly

once again, apologies for the lack of updates...being lazy, no time, got time also give my sleeping beauty, got time also meet my buddies, got time also take care of my terrapins(yes, they do take up my time...)!!!

i'll be flying off to brunei in abt say...24 hrs maybe? most prob i'll get lost for a long while in the thick thick rainforest of Brunei...get bitten by some undiscovered weird insect...have a snake crawl up my clothing while i'm sleeping...or even whoah surprise! be a mosquito feeding target...

so while i'm away...dun miss mi, be good! and pray i'll come back in one piece! dun bother asking mi to get souvenirs...the onli thing i'll bring back is brunei mud and stones...and to my sleeping beauty...MUACKZ!!!

"so i'm mushy...sue mi!"

being a pet owner...

i recently finally got my present from Mother(Crystal)...she told mi it would be something unexpected...and yup...it was realli unexpected...she had gotten mi a pair of terrapins...WOAH! i'm daddy now!

i used to have a pair of terrapins when i was a young brat...the amphibians gave up on mi after less than 2 months...lets juz hope this time round i'm a little lesser of a brat and take care of these 2 well enough eh?

on another note...i'm 2 weeks away from brunei...although its slowly itching closer...my initial anxiety is wearing out...maybe deep deep down in my heart i juz wanna quickly get it over and done with...or die trying! ;P

"anyone got any suggestions with naming the terrapins?"

of being shagged out

i have juz burnt last weekend becuz...

1. a big bunch of officer cadets(small fry!) had to go thru a test of ranging mortar bombs
2. my men have not had the chance to go thru a mortar live firing b4
3. no other unit wanted to accept the shit of taking up the task

so...mi and my men had to fire over 1000 bombs over 2 days and a nite...now firing dat many bombs ain't too much of a prob...but having to fire over the bloody hot sun especially around the 12-3pm timing is realli a killer!

some of my men fainted of heat exhaustion...one of them was sent home even...why wasn't i one of them...damn...anyway, glad its over now...but the repercussions of firing so many bombs seems to be taking its effect...

i can feel the heat within my body...gotta drink more herbal tea...thanks to Mummy for preparing that...and...my ever present backache has juz escalated to a body ache...ouch...

"someone pls recommend mi a good masseur..."

Of getting wasted and being happy abt it...

so it was my birthday yest! and how wasted i was...all thanks to my buddy ryan and brudder leon...they were the main culprits in causing mi to puke not once, not twice but thrice...including the last one at home when i couldnt make it in time to lift up the toilet bowl cover...i shant explain the details..........

u see...i decided to have a sort of a gathering at St James...and calling all my different grp of frens...turned out to be a little mistake as...i aint such a good host, i aint such a good drinker, and ultimately becuz of dat...i couldnt last til the end of the nite...i'm quite proud i lasted til 3 u noe...

i woke up this morn in my boxers and....with my mother in my room using the computer...weird...but i didnt get a hangover...thank goodness for that...oh well...alls well and ends well...

Thanks to everyone who came last nite and thanks to everyone hu rem my birthday! i realli enjoyed the nite despite puking and feeling like my world is spinning for half the nite...guess it pays back last yr's disappointment eh?

"so now i'm officially 22...damn i'm getting old...and to my sleeping beauty, 3 months aint a long time away :)"

of ending my stay and losing money...

next week shall mark the end of my stay at Khatib camp when i finish up my course with a 1 and a half day course of learning the 81mm mortar(as if the 120mm wasn't enough...), i muz say i'll miss khatib camp for despite being so far away from home...the amount of freedom i get is so much more than in 5 SIR...

2 nites back...my old time neighbour called mi up to have a game of mahjong...now that is fine...but this old time neighbour of mine had a fren who didnt know the meaning of irritating...cuz for the first half of the game, she was losing money...and she was blaming mi for it...every min! i dunno how i managed to maintain the smile on my face cuz in the second half, her irritating cries made mi lose 70 bucks to her...and she was still nagging mi to let her win more...

honestly....if it was a guy...i would have squeezed his balls a long time ago...)*&%&%#*@($&(*^*&#Q$)(#Q+!!!

"sleeping beauty says i drive too fast...can't blame that the car is powerful...no???"

my mother tongue...their foreign language...

i have juz received a letter from SIM...i have been accepted into UB's(University of Buffulo...yes...weird...i noe...) double major in communication and psychology...initially...i was realli happy...they actually accepted a flop like mi ;P but....after reading the letter again...i read something else...

"As you have not met the foreign language requirement, you will be taking 2 semesters of Chinese language."

my heart dropped...i slouched into my couch...i stared blankly at the floor...u get the idea...how shall i ever enjoy my much anticipated uni life now??? how la how???

"i juz recently went back to camp and my OC's immediate response...AH FAT!!!"

turned good boy!

this is the expression on my face nowadays...why? a few reasons really :)

1. although i'm still at khatib camp, i'm no longer a trainee...so...i have the freedom to book out every nite...nice! like this i got the opportunity to meet my sleeping beauty eh???

2. playing more of an instructor role now, guiding my detachment of guys in mastering the mortar gives mi the pride of a commander(sounds drama and emo...BUT REALLI!)...and i'm actually not shy to say my detachment happens to be one of the strongest ;P proud of them...realli...

3. i've juz gotten my first birthday present! lets juz say my sleeping beauty likes to pamper mi as well! wahahahaha (Yes, i'm on cloud no. 9...envy mi!)

4. i've finally managed to configure my PSP properly to play games, watch movies and listen to music! NICE!


"now all dats missing is a honeymoon trip with my sleeping beauty!"

Of enjoying the Arts and getting bombed!

pardon mi for the lack of updates...despite the lengthy break...u see..becuz my good friday last week was eaten up for my live firing of my Mortar cannon...

i used to get a kick out of firing live 5.56mm rounds from my rifle...but having juz fired a number of bombs from the mortar...i can say there's nothing quite like it!!! ever felt the type of shockwave that will push u back by force...thats what i felt whenever every round was fired...and you know wats the best part? my head is no more then a feet from the bomb...

anyway...b4 that...i had the opportunity to watch "The Phantom of the Opera" at the Esplanade...1 word...NICE!!! u might not believe it...but it was my first time going into the Esplanade theatre, and first time actually attending a play ;P i'm glad my first experience is a good one...

yest i accompanied my father to the hospital for his post-op appointment...here's wat happened...

"eh, Sean ah...that time Vick(my elder sis) and you went clubbing together rite?"
"yar, y?"
"she said she was going to intro one of her frens to u, did she?"
"did she? all her frens older than mi leh...u dun mind meh?"
"no lah...i mean juz make frens also can~"
"uh-huh...whatever la ah..."

even up to now my dear father is more anxious than mi on this matter...i think he's afriad i'll go gay...thing is...he didnt know i'm alittle on the homophobic side...REALLI!!!

"i'm starting to dig some of the songs from Phantom...music of the night anyone?"

of climbing mini-hills and paying my respects

apart from being April Fool's day today...its also "ching ming jie", and being the onli fighting fit male of the Koh family...i had no choice but to climb the mini-hill at sungei kadut to pay my respects to my great-grandparents...

the interesting part of the day wasn't the praying but rather the journey...u see...as i wasnt familiar with the place...my uncle tagged along in my car...and i got sooooo enlightened, or rather entertained actually...

reason i say iz cuz...my uncle likes to engage in conversations...but in my case...the conversation was quite one-sided..we talked abt cars...politics...family...it was nice...realli...if onli i can engage him in a conversation the next time round...with a beer bottle in his hand!

"so ends another weekend...so fast...yet with no regrets...rite my sleeping beauty???"

fortune told!

i recently had my fortune told by my elder sister's colleague's mother....complicated huh? anyway...here is wat i've been told...

1. i'm born under the year of the wooden ox...hence, i lack the water element and scared of the fire element...

2. i should avoid eating Mac's...as Mac has a strong fire element...dun ask mi why...she juz said avoid Mac...KFC is fine though...

3. i shld drink water from the Four Seas Dragon King's water...i ask "so muz go to the different parts of the world to drink water ah?" she says..."no...buy evian and china brand water..."

4. when eating chicken...i shld abstain from eating the skin...i shld eat more expensive stuff...like shark's fin...good for my future...wah...and..avoid eating the last piece of food on the plate...signifies poverty...but i'm a glutton...how???

5. i shld wear blue clothing...as i lack water...i'm starting to wear my blue underwear more often...lucky my Homer Simpson boxers is blue too! (thanks Mitch!!!)

i think...if i follow all these...along with some of the fengshui pratices which i believe in...i might realli make it BIG in the future...hur hur hur!!!

"but...say so many things...how come no say anything abt improving my luck with girls? how lah? how???"

of being a victim of consequences and catching up with old frens

while i was happily rotting at home on a fri day nite...still absorbing the happy fact dat i'm finally out of the dreadful hell of place called khatib camp...i get a phone call...a num dat ain't recognised...


"Hello?"
"Hi Joanna! This is Alan, from last week at St James..remember?"
"no..."
"are you having sore throat? you sound different!"
"maybe dats cuz i'm not Joanna?"
"huh?"
"yes.........wrong number......"
*click* engaged tone............


sooooooo typical of men rite? lucky i'm not so much of a sweet talker or thick-skinned player wannabe...if not i think i would have ended up in his situation as well...getting numbers from gals when it aint theirs at all...who suffer? people like mi...number kanna given to some guy also dunno (why cant it be given to a girl instead???) :P

on another note...last nite...i planned to open my Johnnie Walker at St James as it was onli going to be valid til nxt week...so i thought my close buddies from camp would have been nice...but heaven smiled on mi!

first my sec sch fren asked where to go tonite...and i told her where i was going...next moment i know...i was on my way to pick her up...

then Crystal aka "Mother" asks wats the age limit at St James...next moment i know...i'm looking for her and her fren in Powerhouse...pls tell mi heaven is pampering mi! and i tell u...sooooooooo long no see them le...all of them now beauty queen liao...REALLI!!!

"my johnnie walker ain't finished yet...any takers?"

rough journey....

since the lunar new year...things haven been exactly going smooth for the Koh family...esp in the last couple of weeks which i didnt update...sigh...

rite now...the time is 6 am in the morning...i haven slept the whole...and juz an hour ago i had my sobbing sister on my shoulder(the onli other time i had another sobbing head on my shoulder was...my younger sis...bad...), if i hadn't pick her up from St James...i seriously do not know wat would have happened...to my dear sis...if u r reading this...please...please...do not show other people dat u r weak...don't make a fool of yourself...be strong...i can be there for u when u need mi...but dun expect mi to go kind on u...its for your own good girl...

other then sis...my dad's getting his share of misfortune as well...earlier this year he was diagnosed with myopia on both eyes...it might be juz a day surgery...but he's not younger anymore...and the fact dat i can't take leave juz cuz i'm on course...to know dat i cant take care of him on the day of his op realli pisses mi off...to add on to dat...he juz sprained his leg last week while at the memorial hall of our ancestors...icing on the cake? the car gives some problems and dad has to send for servicing...upon collecting the car...he has to encounter an accident...sigh...why...why...why...?

i've never been spared from misfortunes...but this couple of weeks re-define misfortune...first i have to be posted to a far far away camp for the next 10 weeks, get a sprained ankle myself during last friday's run...i cant stop from putting on MORE weight...and also having beat the red light...sigh...and with dad's own brush with the traffic law...we realli seem in a very difficult situation...

"everything seems so down rite now.........maybe except for my sleeping beauty eh?"

once again a trainee!

in abt 6 hrs from now i shall be leaving my current camp in pursuit of further knowledge to enhance myself! ok...so i'm forced to go on course to do wat i'm supposed to do...to be trained in the 120MM calibre artillary aka Mortar...

partly why i feel pretty reluctant to go for the course is due to the fact dat i've been a commander for too long to sudenly be a trainee again...i dun think i can ever take it again...yes...i'm too slack now can???

at least my men aint gonna be going on course with mi...or they'll be able to see mi in my ugliest, unprettiest, most miserable state...

on another note...i went down to the SOC ground half-heartedly as i wasn't exactly in the mood to clear it...BUT!!! luck had to be on my side and pass mio!!! so now i dun ever have to clear my SOC til i ORD!!! COOOOOL!!!

"i'm thinking of getting a tattoo...wat do u think?"

of knowing myself more...

revelations...things i've come to know...abt myself...

1. i'll usually be up for any crazy things(excluding interaction with girls)
2. i'll never be able to work up the guts to go up to girls...
3. i'll always cock up, say and do the wrong things at the wrong time...esp infront of gals!
4. i have super strange affinity with Karnomaly aka Taopok aka Ah Ong...i shan't explain...lest he murder mi later...
5. i'll never be able to curb dat impulsive buyer syndrome in mi...i actually signed up as a St James Powerstation member last nite...damn....ARGH!!!! there goes my ang bao $$$...

"to static idiot and juice boy...i'll make sure u regret not going to St Jams last nite...cuz despite my whining...i DID enjoy myself...dun believe ask Sad Boi!"

of being luckless with girls and loving my family~

these past few days have been pretty much of a taste of freedom for mi...cuz mum and dad has gone on holiday, tagging my younger sis along...leaving mi and elder sis around...and i'm sure if i realli like total freedom...

i tend to do realli stupid things when i get to totally make my own decisions...esp when it comes to making decisions involving girls...let mi prove my point...

i met up with my long-time childhood fren of almost 10 years...cuz she was hoping to have a listening ear in mi...i onli ended up agitating her and causing her to be realli pissed at mi..."there goes one fren"...i thought...

then i met up with an acquaintence i got to know not too long ago...it was rare dat she would ask mi out for a movie...so i thought maybe there was something going on...but NOOOOO!!! so happen dat her boyfriend was too tired to go out with her so she called mi out instead...i DIDNT EVEN KNOW SHE HAD A BOYFRIEND!!!

i also got the chance to meet up with "that special someone" after countless failed attempts to meet...all was well and fine until i had to end off with a bloody silly message which could effectively scare her away altogether...damn...

see! i dun have any luck or brains to deal with women...realli!!! tested, tried and proven! on another note, i was looking forword to picking up my family from the airport...i miss them...

i miss it when mother would be at home preparing herbal drinks for us, dad would be watching tv or fixing something in the house and younger sis would be on her games...i didnt like the emptiness when they weren't around...maybe i ain't ready for bachelorhood yet...

"now dat i've pissed off my childhood friend, scared away that special someone and lost hope with my recent acquaintence...i think its time i shld realli, slowly alter my preference on the male sexuality! maybe i'll have better luck with them!"

Happy CNY~

So much has happened since i booked out last thurs as i took off on fri...
(Warning - Long Post...read at own peril...)

1. catching up with mitch, my god sis
2. shopping with sad boi & static idiot
3. reunion dinner with family
4. sending off my parents and younger sis to the airport
5. traumatic experience with again sad boi and static idiot...
6. reunion dinner with extended family, mother's side...
7. reunion dinner with extended family, father's side...
8. mahjong session with extended family, father's side...
9. jogging in the middle of the nite!

1. catching up with mitch, my god sis
its been awhile since i caught up to my dearest closest female buddy...much less meet up with her...so when the chance came, we met up where she brought mi to eat some pretty good jap food~

2. shopping with sad boi & static idiot
its always enjoyable to shop with ur closest buddies cuz we can psycho each other to buy things! and make the other party regret later! so evil...shld have bought a pair of redwire levi's jeans though...realli like it...

3. reunion dinner with family
since we stopped hiring a maid...we the Koh family hasnt had many opportunities to sit down together as a family to have a meal...so on thur nite, my family waited for mi while i rushed my fat arse back home to have dinner...AS A FAMILY! i can say i loved it! while having dinner, we all joked and laughed and realli realli enjoyed each other's company!

4. sending off my parents and younger sis to the airport
something i've always dreamed of...to have the house...AND CAR!!! to myself...papa and mama went on holiday, bringing along younger sis...hehe!

5. traumatic experience with again sad boi and static idiot
its realli too traumatic...shant talk abt it...and dun ask mi!

6. reunion dinner with extended family, mother's side
grandma usually cooks up some pretty good dishes, dat nite aint no exception :)

7. reunion dinner with extended family, father's side
most of the dishes were sort of either cooked by one of the relatives or came from m uncle's stall...but the standard was pretty good...realli!

8. mahjong session with extended family, father's side
becuz of my itchy mouth, i suggested to my uncle that maybe we shld open table for a game of mahjong on CNY day 1, my uncle decided dat might as well start tonite! but...i ended as the onli player winning money...i feel so guilty...realli!!!

9. jogging in the middle of the nite!
becuz i feel so guilty of winning, and becuz i know i'm gonna put on the pounds this few days, i was crazy enough to go running in the middle of the nite at 2am...ran abt 8-10 km...feels good...shld do nite running more often...

"Happy Chinese Year to all, esp to the piggies!"

time to reflect...and change!

the whole of last week had been mentally tiring...being involved in the live firing for the men ain't easy...and it realli doesnt help when Mr Static Idiot has left us, attaining is ORD status...and my poly frens adding on to my misery by telling mi how relax their lives r rite now, compared to mine...sigh...

it realli sort of makes u wonder...is there fairness? My mother tells mi no...no such thing...father tells mi yes...becuz he believes in karma...i personally believe in the latter...as i can be pretty philosophical if i want to...REALLI!

so i think to myself...maybe i'm realli having some serious issues to deal with myself...like stop being such a bastard, controlling my temper, stop being so critical of others, not complain so much, not bear so much hatred...hmmmm...

"maybe i shld convert to vegetarian and read scriptures like the buddha within the company, sgt Seah...i realli think i should..."

i'm sweating...but i aint LOSING!!!!!

sigh...i've tried to realli realli go workout whenever i can le, esp in camp...yet...yet...yet...i still put on the pounds!!! argh...its realli frustrating u noe...

i read somewhere dat having 5 small meals a day instead of 3 heavy meals is better as it works up ur metabolism so u burn more of watever u eat...i tried dat...but i onli grew more sideways....ta ma de...

so i resorted to exercising more on my own...izzit cuz i dun put in enough? cuz i still dun see my body fats disappearing...damn...

maybe its realli fated dat i have genes dat causes my metabolism rate to burn at snail pace, maybe its realli fated dat i feel like i have worked out to the max when its actually nothing????

"next thing u noe...i'll go to jean yip in an attempt to be the next Olinda Chu!"

Common Face~

i honestly think dat i have a common face...sort of like the default choice...cuz...when i was in tekong as a recruit, i had a look-a-like buddy...then when i was in SISPEC, i also had a look-a-like buddy...now dat i'm in 5 SIR, there's also close fren of mine who once again, look-a-like!!!

now i dunno if dats a good thing or not...cuz almost everywhere i go...either people will call mi by the wrong name or they'll always say "u look veri familiar"...i dun mind if i get called like dat by a chio bu...but NOOOOOOOO! its usually some old fart or someone i usually rather punch in the face hu'll call mi...aiyo....

onli thing dat sort of cheered mi up abit came yesterday...while i was having lunch...when the cookhouse auntie decided to sit beside mi and say "xiao di, disturb u for awhile...u ah, like mi like dat...got round face! but good! u know why? cuz men with round face make good husband! see! my brother also round face...such a good husband! " i could onli blush and nod my head in agreement......

"i think i dun have the looks to get chio bu's attention...instead...i always seem to be unwillingly chatting with the cookhouse aunties...maybe i should be a auntie killer like that korean actor!"

Oh! New Discovery!

I juz realised that i have another source to blog should i realli want to...should i realli feel the need to...all thanz to Jeremiah from S Club...

i'm rite now in someone else's office...and i like it cuz i can chat with Mia in peace instead of my own noisy office...sigh...i bet my own office is in a mess rite now...real mess...

"i suspect i'm going to be a very pissed off person when i get back..."

SHE's the one!

becuz i'm penny-wise but pound foolish...becuz i'm too fickle-minded and becuz i like them...i agreed when a fren of mine asked to mi go see the SHE concert...most ex tixs no less! but after last nite, i have totally no regrets...why??? the seats my fren managed to get were the premier seats at row 4!!! HOW RARE IZ DAT???? i was juz like 15m away from the stage? i was so close dat Ella could notice mi jumping up and down like a crazy ass and acknowledge mi not once but twice :P

ok, so i'm ashamed dat i was acting like a typical teenage screaming fan...but all in the name of fun, laughter, peace and joy rite? anyway...after the concert we walked from indoor stadium all the way to the makan sutra place at esplanade...long walk...

today...i'll be at another concert...its Hoobastank! i didnt even noe they were coming...i'll working as an usher though...at least i get to earn some pocket money...the onli sian thing is dat i'll be booking in tonite...sigh...

"last yr at this time...i was in Chinatown with that special someone enjoying the fireworks...those were the days..."