Exams are finally over...now i'll ave no excuse to do the many things i wanna do...format the com, clean up my room, do up my gundams, fix a pull-up bar...alot of things realli...sigh...

also...wanna sort out some of my thoughts, i believe i have to tell myself to move on...although i noe it take mi quite some time...a veeeery long time...its mi... always been the case...i seriously think its wasted dat i'm not a gal...cuz i think i'm mentally too feminine sometimes...oh god...

looking back...2004 hasn't exactly been the best yr...not for mi at least...but i'm glad i got through it...juz hope i can party my ass off come xmas and new year countdown...hehehehe!!!

Back to being serious...i think this blog of mine is gonna die soon...as mi always posting crappy stuff...who'll read abt mi anyway...so dun expect this blog to updated on a regular basis bah...maybe going back to the traditionl diary! hahaha...those i can easily write 2 full pages...dun ask mi how i do it...anyway...dats abt it...dun expect anything from this blog...

"Seek Solace...and maybe you'll seek nothing else...ever..."
Stinko...on a hint of monkhood~

the exams are here...but my heart is not...thinking of so many other things...seriously...i dun have the energy to carry on this last part of the marathon anymore...despite the fact that my poly exams will end in 2 weeks...sigh...wats into mi???

i'm pretty upset with myself actually...if onli my temperament can be better...i believe things wouldn't have turned out tis way...

"whatever i have used to think about myself and others can be thrown out of the window...as i'm not who i thought i was...i juz know that if there is any guy in the world who is contesting for gutless bastard/idiot/fool of the century...he's competing with me..."
Stinko

juz when you think that everything is going to be ok...it turns out to be not...sigh...my presentation today...real bad...i'm already on the border line case with the things that i'm doing...then my part has to cock up during the last min...sigh...juz hope things will start to pick up frm here...these past few weeks...infact...this whole sem has been pretty much on the down for mi...

after the presentation...went for a movie...the exorcist...not a bad show realli...took my first meal of the day before the movie(abt 6pm i think)...and now...back home and here...

if my determination serves mi well...i shld be in sch tomoro morning to do my studies le...cant afford to slack any longer...then again...my determination sucks

"The power of peer pressure and mockery of oneself can be overwhelming...so much that you see the rapid increase in depression cases...so please...know your limits and shut the fuck up when you have to..."

although i say there is a balance to everything...inculding us humans...i sometimes juz can't see it...the fairness in things...dun wanna say too much...juz let things pass by...juz disheartened...dats all...

let everything be over this wed...then its all up to myself do to wat i can for my final exams...

i know that there are many things that i dun deserve, but is friendship one of them? i treasure them...despite their shortcomings...who doesnt have weaknesses? but are ppl able to accept mine? from the looks of it...nope...nvm...

"when in doubt of your own existence, seek solitude"
Stinko...seeking solitude

Gundam Seed has another new series!! its Gundam Seed Destiny, juz watched the first episode, seems good, the new gundams look so cool!!! damn it...sure cant resist the temptation to bomb some of the new gundams...

got one last project to worry now...my EAI...the programming prj...after that its the exams...oh....

after mi exams its gonna be 1 week of holiday b4 my TEP (in-sch attachment) starts...hope to get to do something interesting...

"As Buddha says, Life is as good as a dream, after death, u will relise that you have juz passed a dream..."

did my Entrepreneurship presentation today...to real investors...not the lecturers themselves...woah!!! was pretty nervous before the presentation, but once it started...mi juz went with the flow...so it wasn't too bad...hehe...it was a good thing the investors were nice people too, there was this guy judge who was pretty quiet but was sharp in pointing out our contradictions(same applied for the other groups...), and another female investor who was pretty experienced...esp since she was a supplier of branded goods and i was supposed to buy and sell 2nd hand branded stuff...and the third judge was a godsend! she was sooooooooooooo pretty!!! aiyo!!! cannot stand it...i was sitting in front of her while wee beng was presenting his part...imagine...wahhhhh...can admire her beauty...ZZZzzzZZZzzz

all in all, things didnt go too badly, infact, at the later part of the presentation, during the Q and A section, i was quite comfortable...hehe...hope the results will good as well...mi realli spent some time on this prj...although i noe dat whatever you have forsaken and did for your cause, the fruits of labor will not necessarily reflect that equivalent amount...it might turn the other way round in fact...some people can simply not do anything and still earn some high returns while some others are slogging away only to have ikan bilis as their reward...its a sucky and sometimes true fact...life is ironic...

sigh...still gotta have to do my Internet Marketing prj and study for my JAVA test...life help mi...

"life sux, so do i, but i gotta live with it...cuz its MY life...not others..."
~Stinko~

life is something which is so fragile and brittle that almost anything can shatter it into many pieces...

there are so many people with so many different mindsets that, inevitably, some will collide with others...hence, misunderstandings, dislikes and hatreds develop...

there is a balance to everything, including the fortunes and fate of a man

shit happens, juz try to accept it...

to look for the things that u want...use your eyes, not your mouth....

silence is indeed golden, as anything wrong said can cause what is called the butterfly effect.

the butterfly effect, a chaos theory that says that anything as simple and insignificant as a buttfly's flap of the wings can cause a hurricane on the other side of the world...

ignorance is a bliss, provided you're in the right company...

people are sometimes blinded by their own misdoing...it happens...and they wont know it...so try to forget it...



wondering wats with all the sayings? dun bother, cuz i got no idea wats with it too...juz feel pretty out of life rite now...come to think of it...since when have i ever been INTO life??? hmmmz...good question...