sigh...u noe...b4 i left for my china trip, i was with mi sec sch frens, overnite at one of their place...then we chat thru the nite lor as usual...then one of them hu had juz attended a seminar told mi to stand by this phrase...

"A man should know that he is powerful and can make things happen while a woman should know that she is beautiful and is worth being fought for..."

a veri powerful phrase if u ask mi...and for a while...motivated by it...along with the happy news of my driving...went to china smiling...enjoyed myself...blah blah blah...

then...when i came back...news flew to mi dat the gal i liked going out with another guy liao...at her workplace one...sigh...sigh...sigh...y mi neber ever given the opportunity? i dunno...i need to accept da fact...the hopeful best i'll ever get is being a gal's best gay pal...dats HOPEFUL best...sigh...this sux...maybe the sch reopen will be good for mi...

quite sad now...though quite used to it liao...may the new semester blow my head off...so i wont have to think ever again...

"a man should know that he is powerful...true...but i'm no man...i'm still a little boy...a little boy who'll never grow up to face the real world...thats me..."

hello ppl, its been sometime since mi updated liao~ reason is dat mi juz came back from China...now veri tired...(head feeling giddy liao), mi gonna try to post up some of mi better pix along with some narration of wat i went through for the past 8 days...let u guys see China, haha! not gonna even bother abt unpacking now, leave dat for tomoro! gonna pick up the new car tomoro too...the big spacewagon is gone, the new corolla altis is here, going down turf city to pick it up, dunno whether mi or father gonna drive, see him bah...end here liao...head reallli spinning now, gd nite!

if there is seriously one good thing dat has happened to mi this holiday...it is wat happened today......

I JUZ GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE!~

Wahahahahaha!!!!! cant describe the feeling man...its real good!~ now the next step is getting a job...gimme 5 years...i'll get my own car! muahahahahahaha!!!!

"i'm still the same old loser, only this time i can drive around legally!(evil laugh~)"
stinko

我知道我自己的缺点，我太痴情了
明明是有很多的机会给我放弃，可是我却偏偏不放
为什么呢，我自己也不清楚
不想放弃，而又不去镇区机会，一次又一次的机会，我都没好好的去利用
我看也应该是时候说拜拜了
希望这次我能说的到，做的到...

"天阿，如果你听得到我的话，请你帮帮我这个大忙..."
Stinko~

pretty sian nowadays...nothing to do...cant work(cuz of the China trip)...no money...yet always going out...spend money...ahhh!!!! also...i've always been a veri indecisive person...so i usually regret abt something after awhile...which makes it even more sian...sigh...nothing interesting is happening...to mi at least...leave out the China trip...cuz...i didnt want to go on my own willingness...

i see ppl always envying everyone else...sigh...dat includes mi of course...the thing with us humans r dat we r often blinded of our own blessings and instead envy the blessings and fortunes of others...sigh...dat includes mi too...sigh

mi gonna try to enjoy this trip...though i dun think i'll be buying too many stuff...cuz mi went for the trip briefing...and from wat i can see...more often than not, the products there are imitations...and more importantly not reliable...

this blog is getting more boring by the day...damn...

"all my life i have made many mistakes...and i regret all of them...the problem is i don't learn from them...i'm a poor learner"
Stinko, aspiring philosopher

last 2 days of activities have helped...realli...

friday nite, went fishing with mi sec sch frens, from 8 plus in the evening til abt 6 am next day, it was my first time, caught 3 fishes!! 2 seabass and another small flat fish which i released back to the pond(actually kicked it back into the pond! wahaha!), i think it was a good day to fish, dats y...anyway after dat straight away for my mother company's trip to malaysia, a whole day trip...means my sleep was forsaken...damn...

0830 - set off from SLF building towards tuas 2nd link
1100 - arrival at Cocob(somewhere small village)
went to visit the kelongs there and had seafood lunch...nothing great though, the kelong had more dead fishes than live ones...believe it...
1330 - set off for Desaru's fruit farm...on the opposite end of where we were...so 3 hrs of sleep for mi...
1630 - arrival of Desaru fruit farm
the farm was more of a honey farm...cuz 50% of the farm was concentrating on
honey cultivation(the plantation had 100 acres of land to work with...imagine...)
1800 - set off for Kota Tinggi village...another 1 hr of sleep for mi...
1900 - arrival at kota tinggi village
in my opinion...this was the best part of the whole trip...guess wat we were
there for? to watch fireflies! we sat a boat into the deeper parts of the
mangrove swamp/river to watch the flies...at first, there were onli a few lying
in the bushes...then as it got darker, there were more...damn beautiful...the
tour guide wasn't lying when he said we would be looking at christmas trees...
2030 - end of trip...went for dinner at yet again ANOTHER place....dunno where
2200 - finally finished dinner/supper and on the way home....FINALLY!
0030 - HOME! HOME! HOME!


even after reaching home didnt immediately sleep...had to bath first...then cleared my mail before finally going to sleep...dat was abt 3 plus liao...

all in all, had a good experience, the fishing and the fireflies! juz hope the next few days would be nice...

"if there is one thing that fishing has taught me, it is that you never know when will an opportunity come by, and even if it does...and u grab it...it might not stay in your hands...thats life"

Hmmm...dramatic U-turn...remember i said i suddenly feel good again? Cancel dat...sigh...once again back to me...the lonely moody mi...a frog should forget abt waiting for its kiss with a beautiful princess and concentrate more on filling its stomach...as fairy tale endings are juz dat...fairy tales...they dun come true...they juz dun...

世界末日

想笑　來偽裝掉下的眼淚
點點頭　承認自己會怕黑
我只求　能借一點的時間來陪
你卻連同情都不給

想哭　來試探自己麻痺了沒
全世界　好像只有我疲憊
無所謂　反正難過就敷衍
走一回　但願絕望和無奈遠走高飛

天灰灰　會不會　讓我忘了你是誰
夜越黑　夢違背　難追難回味
我的世界將被摧毀　也許事與願違

累不累　睡不睡　單影無人相依偎
夜越黑　夢違背　有誰肯安慰(難追難回味)
我的世界將被摧毀　或許頹廢也是另一種美


"Morale of the story...don't be too happy juz for a moment...as you know...the higher the expectation...the bigger the dissapointment...big lesson!"
Stinko signing off....

today(or shld i say yesterday) was good...i enjoyed it! first went out with mi sec sch frens, all the old classmates, had makan at NYDC, the cheese cake was good....then they went to watch harry potter while i went to find another grp of frens to watch the same show! LOL! no choice, they bought mi tix liao, so had to watch with them lor, hehe! after dat sent one of mi frens home first before going back to find mi sec sch ppl for late nite ktv at kbox cineleisure....nice....sang til 3 am...finally destination home after dat....not dat i'm tired but i think i'll onli wake up at arnd 3pm...dun ask mi why...i juz got a feeling i would...but dun worry...i'll still entertain ur calls and sms(provided i heard the phone ring)! i dunno how to explain this but...i think i'm on a new lease of life...supposedly good i think...cuz seriously speaking...i havent been hopeful or anything abt anythink significant happening but now...i think i got it...though i hope dat this feeling is not juz temporary...

"There are times you suddenly feel like everything is good again..."

PS:If u wanna watch Harry Potter...go onli if u didnt read the book...it'll be more mysterious and greater pleasure to watch...cuz...i read the book and...the movie's onli 2 hr 10 min...so quite a bit of content is gone...so...i didnt have dat shiok feeling after the show...hope u get wat i mean...LOL