signing off~

well...i'll be leaving for ROC(Republic of China aka Taiwan) in a couple of hrs time...got a sense of anxiety...even a tinge of fear...but i believe when i see the other guys at the airport...things shld get better(so my balls r shrinking as of now...got prob?)

actually got quite abit dat i wanted to blog abt...but always keep forgetting...i guess it'll depend on when i have more time bah

gotta go soon le, anyone last offer for mi to buy anything for u guys, juz msg mi, take care and good luck guys...wish mi a safe journey...

"I wonder how the stars in Taiwan is like?"
Stinko

So many things...

Juz in case ur wondering wats the song being played in the background is? it's "Far Away" by Nickelback...bloody good song~ if u cant hear it, its either ur not using internet explorer(maybe ur using Mozilla or Opera?) or...ur IE izzint up to date...so go do the rite thing!

March, April and May has a hell lot of birthdays...its getting a little overwhelming...makes mi all the more determind not to do anything abt mine(i dun have a choice actually, taiwan rem?)...

anyway...i'll decided dat come the Great Singapore Sale...i'm gonna spend quite abit on updating my wardrobe! i realli need to do something abt it as i dont see anything presentable dat i can wear anymore...wats more, i would have by then earnt myself a higher allowance of 200 bucks more! wahahahaha...anyone interested in going for a shopping spree can call mi along anytime!

i'll be flying off to Taiwan next weekend le...seems like everyone's looking forward to it...i guess i am too...not the exercises but the last 3-4 days where we get to be free and easy...imagine the things we can see and do! wahahaha, gonna bring my digital camera along...maybe even sneak it into our outfield exercises...can take pictures at our worst!

Anyone who wants to buy anything from taiwan pls leave a note behind in my comments so i can take note :) anything too big or too ex and u can 4get abt even hoping i'll get it for u though(unless ur a bloody ravishing beauty...i might consider)...

"Ur a disgrace to the Whozzy Core!!!"
Watever dat means...1SG Yeo

fate realli plays pranks on u!

"Any fool can accomplish failure...
But a fiasco...
A fiasco is a disaster of mythic proportions
A fiasco is a folktale told to others,
That makes other people feel more...alive
Because it didn't happen to them..."

couple of weeks back i was pretty looking forward to the weekend that has juz passed and the coming weekend...as i bookout earlier than usual(long weekend!!!)...i was esp cracking my head for next week as it would have been one of the best days of my life...what to do? where to go? where and what to eat?

anyway...doesn't matter now...got onli myself to blame...hence...since i had quite abit of free time...and my father decided to enrol himself in a hypnotherapy class, i became the family's temporary chauffer...i think it was a good chance for mi from stoning my time away...though i think the car needs a little servicing from the abuse it juz received...

from this free time, i got to play alittle with my new toy...and it juz came in time...realli~ an Ipod Nano...now i can drown myself in agony music in camp...

i dunno if its juz mi or heaven is realli playing pranks on mi...everything dat i come across has to refer to the topic of breaking up...

i switch on the tv and i see MTV asia playing the song "so sad",
i switch to HBO and the scene is exactly the part where a gal leaves a guy,
i turn on the radio and the song on is "superman"
i wanna call my fren out and the reply is "i'm so sorri...i'm still coping with my recent breakup..."

( -_-") uh-huh...

i rest my case...

"i'm still wearing this ring everywhere i go...and i dunno why..."
Stinko...on depression mode

So that's that then...

And so it comes to it that stinko the philosopher once again lives the true life of a real philosopher of being a lonesome and pathetic old man who onli knows how to blabber his time away :)

truth be told...i guess some of u might know wat has happened...while the rest of u will know sooner or later(go guess if u still dun...)i wont say i didnt see it coming...onli the time it came...oh well...

anyway(as i always like to start off, if u haven noticed)...some of my newly acquainted buddies from my platoon saw the unusual quiet mi stoning away...and dragged mi to Zouk...dat was last nite...i can tell u...i didnt stone there...got intro-ed to a new drink...B52...it was GOOOOD!

reached home onli at 4 plus in the morning, onli to catch 2 hrs of sleep b4 being sent to do chauffer work...think gonna try to catch a nap...

"i might not sound sad or act like it...but i think this scar will take a long while to recover...maybe it'll be good to use this time to reflect how much of a bastard i was..."
Philosopher de xtrodina're~

PS:oh yeah...this yr's bday supposed to be us year 85 babies' big day rite? hence the grandeur of some of our bday parties...but pls dun expect mi to hold any k? not in the mood...and i'll be in the middle of a taiwan forest when i turn 21 this yr anyway...so no point...i still veri much welcome gifts though...many many come come!

Living like a dead man...

These past couple of weeks is tough...not juz physically tough but mentally and emotionally tough as well...wont go into too much details but...as my heading says...i'm pretty much a dead man rotting his time away on earth without a purpose in life...

wait...something juz came into my mind...i wanna ask...why are there ppl in these world who wan to break other couple's up when they r happy together? its juz not right? why the hell r there ppl like dat in this world? sigh...

realli not gonna be an easy time for mi...coming week is supposed to be special...dunno how special will dat be in time to come...realli hope for miracles to happen...i reali do...

A philosopher spacing out...

recently i dunno why but i tend to think alot...not dat i dun think or wonder enough but...i have been wondering and thinking more lately...on a few issues...

Army...this issue suddenly came to my mind recently...all these 6 months ++ i have been in the army serving my NS...without actually really sitting down and wondering how i'm taking all these...as in some people think its a total waste of time, whereas some people think it makes a man out of a boy...some even sign on for the money or the career and interest...but...i dunno whats my stand on serving the army!!!

sometimes i think its fun...sometimes i think its nice...sometimes i think its good and useful...but sometimes i also think its useless! sometimes i think its redundant and retarded...waste of time that sort of crap...

in actual fact...i think its this type of fickle-mindedness dats frustrating mi...which causes my temper to blow hot and cold at an instant...its not good i tell u...its not good...i predict i'll actually die of a heart attack from being angry with something as harmless as someone doing something dat pisses mi off...its dat bad...

another issue...its related to wat my Sir told mi recently..."everyone has problems...its only how u control it and not vent it out on your man dat matters...thats what makes a good leader..." it totally makes sense...and i totally agree...but i cant help but think i'm gonna be the kind of f**ked up sergeant dat will be cause my man to suffer big time as long as i'm in PMS mode...dats bad...real bad...

the thing is dat as i mentioned earlier on...i have a temper dat blows hot and cold so damn bloody easy dat i dun think u can noe when i'm happy and when i'm not...(hint:it doesnt mean i'm happy when i'm happy)...many things i have hidden from others...leaving no close buddies esp at ASLC...i can onli smile and pretend nothing has happened...when more often then not i'm sad and hope to tok to someone...though there's no one...so i can onli lie on my bed spacing out once again...thinking too much while the other guys at my front, rear, left and right r on the phone chatting happily away...

i dun wanna say i'm complaining...but everyone leads a different lifestyle...noe wat i mean...i'm trying to tell myself dat..."everyone lives differently...no point comparing...no point comparing..." so yeah...

maybe u could say that everything happens for a reason, and that there's usually a blessing in disguise...cuz this last few bookouts i had more time on my hand...and so i try to spend more time with...my father...i 4got dat he's 61 this yr...yet he's still running around doing errands all day long under my mum's instructions...i think as a son i can onli acc him on his missions and make the most out of it...i hate to admit it but i dont think i have much time left to spend with him...after my grandpa passed away abt a year back...i've come to realise dat life is realli too short to waste...i wanna spend the most of my time i can with him...when he asks mi to go for a drink...i'll drop watever i'm doing and happily oblige...come to think of it...its times like these with my dad that i feel good... :)

oh my...i think i've made this post too long...oh well...juz wanna end off with telling my significant half something...

Dear...i love u :)