Of life and Death...

So life goes on as usual...though not for some...there have been cases of perfectly healthy men dying in their sleep for the past couple of weeks...i dunno abt u but somehow i find it ironic but Death Note seems too much of a coincidence to appear at this time as well...

while others lose their llife unwillingly...some wanna give it up...sigh...i've juz had a call last nite from camp...the reason...one of my recruits had juz attempted suicide...sometimes i wonder izzit cuz of the bunkmates cum a**holes hu keep making fun of him or failure on my part as a commander dat he has to resort to such things...

as for mi...i have thought of death b4...its actually a very very very very very convenient way of relieving urself from all burdens ;P but dat would mean u aint got enough BALLS and GUTS to face life's probs as a man...and anyway...i dun think i'm facing any life-threatening problems....yet...

to be honest...moi feeling pretty down lately...but was enthu yest when "that special someone" decided to meet up last nite...alas...it wasnt meant to be and from a state of joy turned to deeper sorrow :P

"i now honestly think dat i'm not mature enough to handle another r/s le..."

Its Mama's day~

Nov 18 marked the day when Mama annouced her arrival on earth~ HER BIRTHDAY! i decided dat i shld not not spend the day with anyone else other than my family :)

on my initiation, i managed to pull my family out to have a good dinner followed by a little shopping at Vivo...i tell u, its good to go out with the family...for many reasons...

like for one, even though we got stuck in the jam en route to Vivo...we toked alot in the car...although half the conversation was abt which way to go and asking mi to keep my cool...

for another...i get to do abit of shopping, without forking out the money for it...not dat i wanna take advantage but...if i thought i was a spendthrift, then my mother would be the grand mistress of spendthrift...the 2 shirts dat she bought for mi is testament to it...she even chose the shirts lor!

"i see my blog now and i see all the depressing posts...where was the time when i could blog everyday abt crappy and nonsensical stuff? in an atttempt to tickle afew funny bones? hmmm...."

I'm not a soldier~

Finally after burning last weekend and a whole week in Tekong...i'm now back in the comfort of my own home...i muz say...after being in the comfort zone for so long...going outfield with the recruits took abit of getting used to on my side...

i have to admit...i'm a veri soft guy...physically and mentally...among the commanders, i'm physically the weakest...i think more than half of the recruits have better fitness than mi now...i try to do something abt it...but most of the time laziness gets in the way...so...it shows i'm not a soldier...

When i was a trainee...all i did was follow orders...unless i was so unlucky to be arrowed to take up IC roles(which most of the time i get and i dunno why...), now dat i have to be responsible for myself and the men under mi rite now...i'm showing my pissed off look almost everyday and biting anyone who got in my way...i noe this is gonna get mi into trouble...cuz i have on a few occasions almost wanted to shoot back at my officers like i have done to my peers and my recruits...it shows i'm not a soldier...

maybe i shld really get myself into trouble...then they'll demote mi and throw me to somewhere else...then i'll have my wanted vocation of being a driver!!!

"something tells mi something big is gonna happen to mi...i feel an anxiety...something...most likely bad...IS gonna happen..."

time is a luxury to mi...

Honestly...i feel realli bad for not updating my blog...cuz...since i had changed a new webc counter...i didnt realise i still do get visits...thank u ppl...its onli dat...as the title suggests...time is realli not on my side...

The main event of last week was the Live Firing for the recruits...where they would for the first time in their lives fire live rounds dat kill...and i dun understand why i so happen to be the CDS(Company Duty Sergeant) once again for the first day...and the sure cock up role of Detailing cum Dispatching IC...sigh...becuz of commitments like these...no wonder i fell sick...i didnt sleep for more than 3 hrs every nite for last week!

while the whole of last week was a killer for mi in camp and i didnt even spend more than 5 hrs at home the whole weekend...i dun think i'll have the chance to blog anymore this week...for the next 2 weeks in fact...as i'll be going back to the birthplace of my army and suffering...pulau tekong...reason? to give the recruits a taste of jungle warfare...

gimme a choice though and i wont hesitate to throw them into the jungle and let them suffer...but can i? NOOOOOOOooooooo!!! apparently these guys r gonna have a better field camp than us...times have changed...realli...

"Despite the hectic schedule...and tiring tasks...my wandering mind once again bothered on the thinking of wat if something major happened to mi and i would relieved of everything...hmmm...."