once again a trainee!

in abt 6 hrs from now i shall be leaving my current camp in pursuit of further knowledge to enhance myself! ok...so i'm forced to go on course to do wat i'm supposed to do...to be trained in the 120MM calibre artillary aka Mortar...

partly why i feel pretty reluctant to go for the course is due to the fact dat i've been a commander for too long to sudenly be a trainee again...i dun think i can ever take it again...yes...i'm too slack now can???

at least my men aint gonna be going on course with mi...or they'll be able to see mi in my ugliest, unprettiest, most miserable state...

on another note...i went down to the SOC ground half-heartedly as i wasn't exactly in the mood to clear it...BUT!!! luck had to be on my side and pass mio!!! so now i dun ever have to clear my SOC til i ORD!!! COOOOOL!!!

"i'm thinking of getting a tattoo...wat do u think?"

of knowing myself more...

revelations...things i've come to know...abt myself...

1. i'll usually be up for any crazy things(excluding interaction with girls)
2. i'll never be able to work up the guts to go up to girls...
3. i'll always cock up, say and do the wrong things at the wrong time...esp infront of gals!
4. i have super strange affinity with Karnomaly aka Taopok aka Ah Ong...i shan't explain...lest he murder mi later...
5. i'll never be able to curb dat impulsive buyer syndrome in mi...i actually signed up as a St James Powerstation member last nite...damn....ARGH!!!! there goes my ang bao $$$...

"to static idiot and juice boy...i'll make sure u regret not going to St Jams last nite...cuz despite my whining...i DID enjoy myself...dun believe ask Sad Boi!"

of being luckless with girls and loving my family~

these past few days have been pretty much of a taste of freedom for mi...cuz mum and dad has gone on holiday, tagging my younger sis along...leaving mi and elder sis around...and i'm sure if i realli like total freedom...

i tend to do realli stupid things when i get to totally make my own decisions...esp when it comes to making decisions involving girls...let mi prove my point...

i met up with my long-time childhood fren of almost 10 years...cuz she was hoping to have a listening ear in mi...i onli ended up agitating her and causing her to be realli pissed at mi..."there goes one fren"...i thought...

then i met up with an acquaintence i got to know not too long ago...it was rare dat she would ask mi out for a movie...so i thought maybe there was something going on...but NOOOOO!!! so happen dat her boyfriend was too tired to go out with her so she called mi out instead...i DIDNT EVEN KNOW SHE HAD A BOYFRIEND!!!

i also got the chance to meet up with "that special someone" after countless failed attempts to meet...all was well and fine until i had to end off with a bloody silly message which could effectively scare her away altogether...damn...

see! i dun have any luck or brains to deal with women...realli!!! tested, tried and proven! on another note, i was looking forword to picking up my family from the airport...i miss them...

i miss it when mother would be at home preparing herbal drinks for us, dad would be watching tv or fixing something in the house and younger sis would be on her games...i didnt like the emptiness when they weren't around...maybe i ain't ready for bachelorhood yet...

"now dat i've pissed off my childhood friend, scared away that special someone and lost hope with my recent acquaintence...i think its time i shld realli, slowly alter my preference on the male sexuality! maybe i'll have better luck with them!"

Happy CNY~

So much has happened since i booked out last thurs as i took off on fri...
(Warning - Long Post...read at own peril...)

1. catching up with mitch, my god sis
2. shopping with sad boi & static idiot
3. reunion dinner with family
4. sending off my parents and younger sis to the airport
5. traumatic experience with again sad boi and static idiot...
6. reunion dinner with extended family, mother's side...
7. reunion dinner with extended family, father's side...
8. mahjong session with extended family, father's side...
9. jogging in the middle of the nite!

1. catching up with mitch, my god sis
its been awhile since i caught up to my dearest closest female buddy...much less meet up with her...so when the chance came, we met up where she brought mi to eat some pretty good jap food~

2. shopping with sad boi & static idiot
its always enjoyable to shop with ur closest buddies cuz we can psycho each other to buy things! and make the other party regret later! so evil...shld have bought a pair of redwire levi's jeans though...realli like it...

3. reunion dinner with family
since we stopped hiring a maid...we the Koh family hasnt had many opportunities to sit down together as a family to have a meal...so on thur nite, my family waited for mi while i rushed my fat arse back home to have dinner...AS A FAMILY! i can say i loved it! while having dinner, we all joked and laughed and realli realli enjoyed each other's company!

4. sending off my parents and younger sis to the airport
something i've always dreamed of...to have the house...AND CAR!!! to myself...papa and mama went on holiday, bringing along younger sis...hehe!

5. traumatic experience with again sad boi and static idiot
its realli too traumatic...shant talk abt it...and dun ask mi!

6. reunion dinner with extended family, mother's side
grandma usually cooks up some pretty good dishes, dat nite aint no exception :)

7. reunion dinner with extended family, father's side
most of the dishes were sort of either cooked by one of the relatives or came from m uncle's stall...but the standard was pretty good...realli!

8. mahjong session with extended family, father's side
becuz of my itchy mouth, i suggested to my uncle that maybe we shld open table for a game of mahjong on CNY day 1, my uncle decided dat might as well start tonite! but...i ended as the onli player winning money...i feel so guilty...realli!!!

9. jogging in the middle of the nite!
becuz i feel so guilty of winning, and becuz i know i'm gonna put on the pounds this few days, i was crazy enough to go running in the middle of the nite at 2am...ran abt 8-10 km...feels good...shld do nite running more often...

"Happy Chinese Year to all, esp to the piggies!"

time to reflect...and change!

the whole of last week had been mentally tiring...being involved in the live firing for the men ain't easy...and it realli doesnt help when Mr Static Idiot has left us, attaining is ORD status...and my poly frens adding on to my misery by telling mi how relax their lives r rite now, compared to mine...sigh...

it realli sort of makes u wonder...is there fairness? My mother tells mi no...no such thing...father tells mi yes...becuz he believes in karma...i personally believe in the latter...as i can be pretty philosophical if i want to...REALLI!

so i think to myself...maybe i'm realli having some serious issues to deal with myself...like stop being such a bastard, controlling my temper, stop being so critical of others, not complain so much, not bear so much hatred...hmmmm...

"maybe i shld convert to vegetarian and read scriptures like the buddha within the company, sgt Seah...i realli think i should..."

i'm sweating...but i aint LOSING!!!!!

sigh...i've tried to realli realli go workout whenever i can le, esp in camp...yet...yet...yet...i still put on the pounds!!! argh...its realli frustrating u noe...

i read somewhere dat having 5 small meals a day instead of 3 heavy meals is better as it works up ur metabolism so u burn more of watever u eat...i tried dat...but i onli grew more sideways....ta ma de...

so i resorted to exercising more on my own...izzit cuz i dun put in enough? cuz i still dun see my body fats disappearing...damn...

maybe its realli fated dat i have genes dat causes my metabolism rate to burn at snail pace, maybe its realli fated dat i feel like i have worked out to the max when its actually nothing????

"next thing u noe...i'll go to jean yip in an attempt to be the next Olinda Chu!"

Common Face~

i honestly think dat i have a common face...sort of like the default choice...cuz...when i was in tekong as a recruit, i had a look-a-like buddy...then when i was in SISPEC, i also had a look-a-like buddy...now dat i'm in 5 SIR, there's also close fren of mine who once again, look-a-like!!!

now i dunno if dats a good thing or not...cuz almost everywhere i go...either people will call mi by the wrong name or they'll always say "u look veri familiar"...i dun mind if i get called like dat by a chio bu...but NOOOOOOOO! its usually some old fart or someone i usually rather punch in the face hu'll call mi...aiyo....

onli thing dat sort of cheered mi up abit came yesterday...while i was having lunch...when the cookhouse auntie decided to sit beside mi and say "xiao di, disturb u for awhile...u ah, like mi like dat...got round face! but good! u know why? cuz men with round face make good husband! see! my brother also round face...such a good husband! " i could onli blush and nod my head in agreement......

"i think i dun have the looks to get chio bu's attention...instead...i always seem to be unwillingly chatting with the cookhouse aunties...maybe i should be a auntie killer like that korean actor!"

Oh! New Discovery!

I juz realised that i have another source to blog should i realli want to...should i realli feel the need to...all thanz to Jeremiah from S Club...

i'm rite now in someone else's office...and i like it cuz i can chat with Mia in peace instead of my own noisy office...sigh...i bet my own office is in a mess rite now...real mess...

"i suspect i'm going to be a very pissed off person when i get back..."