gonna be 6 pm liao...sch's gonna end for the day...dats a good thing...i dun wanna stay in sch...all i can find here is loneliness and dumb compromising...there are so many of u who will onli look mi up when u need the help dat i need...where r u when i need u guys? i dun wanna be ur lackeys man...fuck off...there's no point in even telling u ppl off...u guys wont even listen to wat i say...so wats the use??? i'm juz ur dumb follower...

i dun wanna go home either...y? let mi ask u? wats the diff when u go home onli to find ur room being occupied always by others other than urself, and there is no way you can voice urself out or tempers will flare...life realli sux at this point...

i'm so glad dat another long weekend is coming...not to forget my appointment in SGH tomoro...i dun have to go to sch...nor will i have to be home onli to be restricted from my own private space...its no longer private anyway...everytime i sit infront of my desk i see something extra, a hairband, a book, used tissue, scrap paper...u name it lah...i'm fucking sick of it liao...

things happening around the famili is not helping matters...its sad to say but i fear for my famili's future...

"Man came into this world alone...and shall leave the world alone...so let it be that he lives in this world alone..."

Morning ppl *yawnz* , how's ur X'Mas and Boxing Day? *yawn* ???

rem i talked abt having 2 bbqs in a row...yeah...theres still more to come...
on the nite of the 2nd bbq, mi onli slept at abt 4am...onli to wake up at 8am to prepare for a soccer game...wah...wait...still more...

after the game headed for home onli to have time to bathe then visit Grandpa in Tampines before going down to orchard for Han's early bday outing...watched "kung fu hustle"...for pure slapstick and no brainer comedy laughter...effects r realli good though...followed by dinner at NYDC, the one outside Heeren...ppl, dun go there...sux big time...NYDC already doesn't have much variety to start with, then dat branch didnt have most of the ice cream and drinks...the attitudes of the waiters and waiteresses suxed, disorganised and the food didnt taste as good as the NYDC in Wheelock Place...sigh...quite a dissapointment realli...

however, on the overall, managed to meet up with many of my old frens, so it was good :) it was realli nice to see dat many of them found their happiness :)

to MY and Kelly, Ah Wei and SY Da Sao, Cong and ur Bear...congrats on ur new found happiness...

eh...and to my other frens hu have been together since who noes when...stay happy always~ (eg. ah jiao and Cutie Tay, ZC and PY Da Sao, DT and Cindy, Hanz and Manda, Beng and FengYing, Rick and Crys...juz to name a few...sorri if i 4got any couples, forgive moi...haha)

hmmm...all i'm looking forward to now is the gathering of 4E5 PPL on the 31 dec at pasir ris i think(ANOTHER BBQ! -_-")...and SHE's concert, hehee...so until next time...cya guys ;)


"Sleeping actually burns calories...so sleep ppl! SLEEP!~"

Merry Christmas to all!!! how's everyone's x'mas? good i hope :) i had quite a nice one actually, spent x'mas eve with ZC, Banny and gang for bbq, then went for KTV from 1 am to 5 am at party world in orchard...hmmm...dunno if u went down orchard...but it was realli quite havoc...with practically almost everyone equipped with foam spray cans in their hands...spraying at each other...and at strangers...there were so many cases of 1 guy being gang-banged sprayed by a grp...things looked fun enough :) though not neccesarily safe, hehe :)

reached home at 5.45am...headed for bed almost straight...onli to wake up at abt 12...i expected myself to wake up at 3pm...anyway, gonna leave at abt 4 to meet NSL and Cong at khatib to do some shopping for ANOTHER bbq! this time at Seet Wei's place...hmmm...hope father and mother not too upset...coz...i'm not gonna be home...again...and...i still have yet again ANOTHER bbq on 31st Dec...sigh...told u i'll be busy...

oh yar, last nite, there was a gift exchange session...and noe wat i got? a furry mose-like ball...er...called mari mari mo...crazy gift from "da sao"(ZC's gf)..."take good care and provide love for Mari Mari Mo and give it to your loved one!" direct translation from the instructions!!! the ball is now 12mm big...and u wanna noe its growth rate? 5mm a year!!!! realli gonna wonder how this mari mari mo of mine will turn out...will i even have the patience and determination to take constant care of it(u have to do things like change water, use ur fingers to reshape it...things like dat...)??? the guys told mi to give it a name...so called it "xiao mao mo"...as in small hairball...wat a present...

gonna try to rest more b4 i get sick...rest rest rest rest!!!! once again, Merry X'mas to all! enjoy urselves! and be nice!

"how do you perceive happiness?
a begger percieves happiness as a stable shelter and 3 meals a day
a rich man perceives happiness as being the king of the world
a kind man perceives happiness as World Peace
a sadistic man perceives happiness as none of us would imagine
but a man who doesn't have a perception of happiness...is not living life...he is just simply ageing to death..."
juz some crap frm Stinko :)

didnt go to sch today(wed)...reason...went to ENT Centre(Ear Nose Throat) for my sinus prob...hmm...seems more serious than everybody thought...dr's diagnosis, a veri veri sensitive nose, a poly-something infection...and a abnormally narrow passage on the left nostril...verdict...might require operation...sian tiao...gotta go back next week to see the results of the CT scan...sigh...

anyway, my time in EM has ended(thank god!)...the SBM pageant and other events seem to be stressing out the EM ppl...poor guys...mi leh? slacking thru ARDC...seriously nothing to do...gotta find some entertainment to do during my time there man...juz like wat julian's doing...he brought along "winter sonata" vcd to watch...power...

year end period liao...gonna be quite busy...with plans for christmas and new yr...good too...wont have too much free time on my hand to think of things...i think too much sometimes...which is bad...sigh...luckily i got many guys around to be there...thanx guys...frens forever!!!

eh...xin hui ah...i believe u were rite in calling mi stupid for wat i intended to do...maybe dat woke mi up a little...maybe the guys from my DBI class will noe too...the foolish things dat i've done for gals...so maybe its time to wake up bah...after 3 yrs of bachelorhood, i think i can deal with it for the rest of my life bah :) look on the other point of view...i'll be able to be 24/7 on-call for my frens when they need mi :)

"life is a cruel thing...to appreciate 1 moment of joy and bliss...it'll take 10 moments of equal suffering to fully understand and appreciate..."
ever ur fav philosopher...Stinko

wah...look at the time!!! and i'm not even home...aiyo...tell u wat happened...

lets go back to awt happened yesterday...or in this case, the day before...mi went for soccer...juz 10 mins into the game and i injured my leg...a sprain from the ankle down to the foot...but still carried on playing for the next 45 mins...big mistake...end up cannot even walk home...had to take a cab...mi father saw mi limping and this was how the conversation went...

father "sprained again ah?"
stinko "er...yeah..."
father "how? u kicked the ball? somebody kicked u? or u fell down?"
stinko "er...all 3 happened..."
father "HUH!!!"

try to imagine the look on his face...anyway...had to rub my leg and had some heat treatment...helped real lots...and father was nagging away "tomoro dun go sch ah! go see doc ah! understand? dun go sch ah!" imagine u have to hear dat over and over again! but i understand his concern...THANX FATHER!!!

so mi skipped sch and saw the doc...got an x-ray...no fracture...in fact...rite now...the leg seems pretty fine...give it another 48 hrs...and it shld be fine....

and now...gonna explain how come i'm still not asleep...well...i was supposed to sleep at around 11pm liao...happily tucked into bed...then suddenly the phone rings and mi old sec sch buddies jio mi out of dreamland to one of our guy's place...so go lor...despite the foot...sigh...the bonds btwn brothers(feels so gay...)!!!

pia cab down liao...then have the usual alchohol + crap chat...had a bit too much of Chivas...vomitted diner...plus the hangover...but nows still ok...recovering...we're still toking crap til now...duno when it'll stop!! but i gotta admit...its been awhile since we had such gathering...and i pretty much every moment of it...these guys are the best man!!! frens 4ever!!!

sigh...gotta end here liao...lets juz hope i dun get sick from all these late nites and alchohol overdose...not good for the body...

"the wonders of friendship...does wonders...its wonderful...don't you think?"
Stinko...momentarily forgetting the worries on his mind...

there are many times when i've thought of something and wanted to put it down on this blog...but at the end of the day...my short term memory loss kicks in...wat to do???

this is gonna be my last week of TEP with the EM guys le...gonna miss them man...sigh...juz when things start to get realli nice...things have to change...hope my next TEP stopover gonna be a realli slack one...dun wanna move my ass too much liao...pretty exhausted from EM le...if possible, gonna have an outing with the EM guys on fri...

the other sian thing abt leaving is all the documentations i have to do...sian...peer appraisal form...peer evaluation...summary report...aiyo...sian tiao!!!

lastly...this matter has been bugging mi for the past couple of days...shld i realli be so foolish as to go ahead with my plan? i mean...all the guys in EM can talk to her normally as frens like buddy buddy like dat...and she'll smile back to them as well...as for mi...its always straight simple one-liners...sigh...her frens all noe abt the other part-time actor guy...logically...i shld not go any deeper to prevent the sadness dats already setting in...then again...i'm not a veri logical person...and still want to go ahead with the plan...sigh...i'm a contradicting bastard...agree(i'm sure most of u do)???


"The meaning of Foolish is defined as "Lacking or exhibiting a lack of good sense or judgment or Resulting from stupidity or misinformation; unwise"...example...stinko"
Ever the same fool, Stinko

And here is the end of the X'mas fair!!! waahahhaaha!!! so happy!!! though Monday might be alittle tiring as well...stock counting...documentations and stuff...aiya...monday then settle...

tell u something veri funny today...i was helping Anthony(the rocker DJ for the event) with setting up the PA system...we were missing a part for the connection from the cd player to the amplifier...so we were searching for it up down high low...no luck...so wat happened was i told him "bro...give it a try with this connection...if it doesnt work...i'll borrow mi fren's car to get u to AMK to get the stuff..." so we hoped, prayed...and tried...then...there was MUSIC!!! Anthony and I was like giving the !!!STUNNED!!! look...u shld have seen our expressions! (Iswari saw it...she laughed her ass off...) so it was a nice start off for day 2 of the fair actually...

same couldn't be exactly said for packing up time...too many phone calls and things to do...mi ended up blasting my mouth off at one of the guys on the phone...sorri Chong Yew...u've been a great help, sorri for the blast to ur ear...

oh yar...mi got something from the fair for her...though its not gonna be the onli thing...gotta save up realli....to get wat i intend to get for her...oh...going after gals is such a drainer...monetary-wise...

come to think of it...i've spent a good deal of money over gals i liked(but no reciprocations of course)...let mi see...almost 500 maybe??? dats abt half my salary earned over the 3 months i worked...sigh...some ppl are "penny-wise, pound-foolish" and some are "penny-foolish, pound-wise"...i truly believe i'm the foolish of both kinds...

"wat i got to knew today had caused mi much sadness...yet still i'm gonna go ahead with the plan...y? cuz i'm foolish :)"
Ever ur fave philosopher...Stinko

sigh...today is the first day of the X'mas fair...and...as expected...Murphy's Law applies~there were cock ups....

First of all, the examination tables needed...i took the wrong ones...i took those 20 yr old tables instead of the new ones...i was like "OH MY F**K!!!" i'm realli sorri to the guys hu had to bear the consequences of my one mistake...from the bottom of my heart...please accept my sincere apologies...

secondly...the PA system had to cock up...i think the system was not totally up until abt 10 plus 11...it was nobody's fault....realli...good thing is it worked...

although there were some other smaller things...day 1 of this fair could be considered a relative success! hehe...and where credit is due...the WHOLE team of EM-RS deserves it!!! (with a FEW exceptions of course...)

lets juz hope tomoro will be a better day...but with this batch of guys around...i dun think i'll have to worry much! thanx guyz...(i'm beginning to feel i'm a little too gay here...)

anyway...i've decided...she's gonna get something from mi for X'mas...and she's gonna get it way b4 X'mas itself...wish mi luck guys...i realli need it...

"when a guy lacks the confidence he needs...luck matters alot..."
Ever your philosopher...Stinko

Finally, i have some free time...sigh...its been realli busy for mi...sigh...hope i realli get a good grade for this stopover...if not...i dunno wats fairness...

i've been so busy dat i dun have time to do wat i realli aimed to do...make an impression...but then again...wat WILL i do if i had the time??? u guys noe lah...how i sux at this type of stuff.....(you noe wat i'm toking abt rite?)...somebody...anybody...pls HELP MI!!!

rem my last post i said something abt a sign? well...tell u something probably dat make u wanna go punch mi in the face.........i dunno wat sign to look out for...wahahha...quick...punch mi in the face...i deserve it...

anyway, the fair is tomoro...hope things dun cock up...u noe Murphy's Law?...yeah...i'm afraid of dat......

"Anything that can go wrong...will go wrong..."
Murphy's Law

hehe...its 3 am monday...i gotta be in sch in another 5 and a half hrs...and here i am still not asleep...sigh...

sigh...i think i noe my competition liao...sigh...its not good at all...this guy is a real charmer...

-damn handsome looking...
-into his 3rd friendster a/c
-seems to be a real good sweet talker...(probably rich too...juz a guess...)
-aspiring actor...(he does look familiar, come to think of it...)
-tis guy seems to be good at everything...

come on ppl...u noe mi...

-i'm no charming guy...i have looks only a cow would love...
-eh...friendster a/c still on the first one...and not yet hit 200(by the way, each a/c accomodates 500 friends...so u do the math...)
-maybe i can talk trash to other ppl...girls even!!! but i'm always so quiet infront of dat person!!!!
-i admit i used to dream of being an international star...wahaha
-ppl hu noe mi...noe i can do no shit...sigh...

oh my...sigh...talk abt overcoming the odds...if onli she would give mi a sign! any sign...and i'll go for it!!! if not...i'll juz be dat...quiet guy in front of her...dats pathetic...who asked mi to be a gutless spine?

u noe...something funny happened today...or rather last nite...i was with this fren of mine...we were chatting at some place near dhoby ghaut...all of a sudden a dead bird juz dropped right in front of mi...i was like..."wat the f**k!?!?!?!" ok...so it was abt 5 metres away from mi...but can u imagine??? a dead bird falling rite in front of u...god dats scary...dun think i can play money on chinese new year liao...the ironic world...sigh...

"tell mi...how often have you heard a princess choosing a frog over a charming prince?"
Stinko...sad and confused...

sigh...i think i'm gonna fall sick...too many late nites and early mornings...dats y mi slept early last nite...11pm...dats early rite? normally it would have been around 2 am...i'm so glad dat the group that i'm in is a capable grp...wahahaha!!! can let mi slack some more! although there are many projects and deadlines to meet...with the many new documentations that come along with it...somehow...i suddenly think its gonna be alrite...i hope...

another thing which makes mi look forward to going to sch now is also because of my grp...hehe...particularly 1 person...hehehe...lets see how things will go...

"i think i noe how alice felt when she was in wonderland...real lost..."
Stinko