its sat morning...its raining...i'm sleepy...and...i'm in sch...WHY???  to do my java enterprise prj thingie...the cinema booking thingie...hope i can find the motivation to do my stuff today...cuz...tomoro...i'm fully booked...sianz...

hope i dun get dehydration from tomoro's soccer game again...worrying thing is my body is still aching...something muz be wrong...after the soccer game going over to my fren's place to settle some of my frens' bday presents...then its steamboat buffet at marina south...muz tell myself to drink lots and lots of water...realli lots of water...

anyway...back to yesterday (friday), sorry to Crystal for driving too recklessly...with your car...so sorry~ still got lotsa things to sort out abt mi driving....

"careful the kurb~turn slowly~watch out for that car~go slow~dun exceed 90km/h~dun stay too near the car in front~BRAKE!!!~"
things you'll hear from my dad when i'm driving...

u noe...i still cant get over the fact dat this is an unfair world...dats sad! 

its the end of the week liao...supposed to be happy...but mi quite worried now...as i have to settle 3 people's bday presents(burn pocket...), do up a UI prototype for the cinema ticketing website(eat up time...)...and most worryingly...my finances...sigh...got an annuity plan dats eating up 40 bucks a month from my bank...and my bank is left with...39 bucks...sigh...things look pretty tough ahead man...wat to do...wat to do...wat to do...

recently...i realised something...some guys are looking at me differently...its like u can see in their expression dat they look at mi in another light or something...can see it especially in their eyes...wats the prob???  something weird with some part of mi???  my hair maybe??? it looks a little like the Beatles' times now...sigh...i realli sux...

"do not envy all that the bird sees...for ignorance is bliss"

seems like the toil of 2 soccer games in 3 days has taken over mi...
 
i'm now practically bed-ridden...cuz my whole body is aching...no joke...even tossing and turning on the bed is painful...ouch...so happen to be better now after the doc's medicine...
 
i'll see if i can attend tomoro's classes anot...as its java...my java is veri veri veri veri weak...so dun wanna miss it if possible...some more i think this lecturer teaching us java is good...he would thoroughly expain things to you...juz say for example...last week...he practically did out the whole practical while explaining in detail...one thing for use was that that effort didnt go to waste as i wasn't so lost for that practical...
 
but then again...whether i can attend his lessons anot is another thing...i realli feel like shit rite now...see bah...ouch...

sigh...

juz played vigourous indoor soccer on fri...gonna play vigourous field soccer later at abt 9.30 am...song boh! i can still feel my body aching from friday's game...how am i gonna survive the match later i wonder...sigh...this juz proves i'm too fat and unfit...sigh...

the work in sch is starting to pile up...yet mi still slacking...veri veri veri bad...gotta have to tell myself to buck up...if not realli have to play catch up all the time...sian man...

"the grass is always greener on the other side...how true"

u've heard of dumb blonde gals b4 rite? how abt dumb asian gals? well...i got 1 peeerfect example...TO VICTORIA KOH...DUMB BIMBO OF THE KOH FAMILY!!!~

do not come looking for mi always acting cute and asking for help with the internet connection...u wanna use it...jolly well go learn abt it and stop treating yourself like a f*cking 24 yr old baby hu noes nothing except opening ur mouth all the time...oh wait...U DUN KNOW ANYTHING!!! i rest my case...

"dumb b*tch..."

class starts at 9am...so here i am blogging away...

i dun think i'm suitable to drive...my concentration is juz never 100%...i have never ever drove in a car alone b4...and i dun think i am good enough to drive alone in the car...sigh...gonna tell mi father dat i'll not be taking over the chauffer duties...at least not in the near future...there have been a few close calls now...sigh...i sux at driving...

i actually aim to own a car in...say...5 to 7 yrs time??? earn enough to own an old second-hand car...a small and cheap car...so driving the car around would be much easier...and also...should i get a scratch or meet up with an accident...i wont be too heart-broken...cuz its gonna be an old second-hand...and also its my own car...so i can bear the consequences alone...

i juz realised dat this sem is gonna be quite similar to the last one...cuz i have onli 2 final papers, but i have plenty of projects...currently i think already 4...entrepreneurship...gonna be interesting...

rem i said that i went for a seminar during the weekend? yeah...its a good learning experience...made mi see some things i've never seen b4...gonna share some these during the next few blogs...

"Remember that you have to enjoy what you are doing...if not...its not a career...its juz a job...and you'll die earlier than you should..."

the first week of sch is gonna come to an end...sigh...mi realli scared of the java and project...we'll supposed to do a cinema ticket booking system!!! using JSP i think...sigh...anyway...gonna look forward to the weekends

i wont be around for the weekend...i'll be making a trip to KL and Malacca...for a seminar...something to psyche mi up...mentally...so dun bother trying to contact mi after sat afternoon til sunday evening maybe...

i think i promised to put up some of the pix i took in China...but up to now...hope and pray i can do dat soon...seriously...i gotta buck up...shldnt be lazy liao...

"Think of achieving a goal like a dog chasing after you...you never stop running until the dog stops the chase...same thing as achieving a goal...you should never stop trying until you have achieved it!"

its a funny thing...i got my allowance on monday, 50 bucks...then in sch, met a fren of mine...in need of cash...so lent him 50 bucks...empty liao, so bo pian...go ti ti ti another 50 bucks for myself...then...again lend ppl money for makan all these, then go for ktv(covered for 2 persons)...end up now no money...woah...sigh...money money money...i'm a real spendthrift...damn...

sch's started liao, seen afew new faces...and a few unfamiliar faces...hmmm...anyway...this sems gonna be bad...cuz there's gonna be java...sigh...and my supply chain management module lecturer has a prob with the world...its only tuesday and i'm hating sch liao...sigh...so sad...

if there is seriously 1 good wish that can be granted to mi rite now...i would wish to have laughing buddha's carefree and worry-less life...he is so forever so happy-go-lucky...without a care in the world...and always helping ppl in need...there was even this story about him...

Laughing buddha was walking along the street when a middle-aged looking man was standing anxiously by the roadside...holding his torn and tattered pants...

buddha : "whats troubling you my friend?"
the guy: "my wife's going to give birth and here i am stuck because of this pants"
buddha : "thats easy! take my pants, dun worry abt it!"
the guy: "woah! really? thanks!"

so they changed pants and the guy was off...while laughing buddha juz sat at the same spot smiling all day long...not paying any attention to the laughs and mockery of the passer-bys...

Such was the kindness of laughing buddha...woah...its gonna be 3 am liao...dunno y still not asleep...but will try to sleep now...gd nite...gd morning...whichever way u look at it...

"i believe in the estra-terrestial...wouldn't it be a waste of space if the whole universe only belonged to us?"

hmmm...juz finished watching "message in a bottle"...it was on channel 5...didnt know the story was written by Nicholas Sparks, the genius behind "a walk to remember"...think i'm gonna read the book "message in a bottle" now that i've caught the show...

one thing abt nicholas sparks's stories are dat they are always love stories and also they dun usually have a happy ending...why? to make the story more dramatic? believable? memorable? or on the whole, create a bigger impact? i dunno...

everytime i watched "a walk to remember", i would cry(seriously), i would also cry while reading the book...but for "message in a bottle", i didnt...maybe i was toooo tired to sobz any more...hope the book will be more of an impact...

school's gonna start in a few hours time...sigh...dunno is good or bad...but 1 thing i'm quite sure is that this will be the hardest sem...academically as well as morally(hope u get wat i mean...dunno how to put through words)...

"given the choice...i would rather much be fool...as i would then know how to appreciate the smaller things in life..."
Stinko...blabbering philospher