finally!!! friday!!! wahahahah!!!! *bangs head* it hurts!!! i'm not dreaming!!!! wahahahaha!!!! finally i've lived past a third of my IPP...then suddenly i think of the other two thirds which is yet to come...anti-climax...sigh...dun think too much...try to enjoy my weekend!

later in the nite going to Lunix's place for overnite mahjong...i also dunno how i got dragged into it...ppl hu noe mi noe i'm not exactly enthu abt mahjong...i guess its juz to spent time with those good bastards! wahaha!!

this sunday is the 49th day since grandpa left us...so no one even think abt getting mi out...not at least in the morning :) i'll be paying my respects to him then...

this right ankle of mine is still not recovered...sigh...tried a brisk run to chase the lift this morning...*ouch*...looks like i'm destined to serve army for an extra 2 months...sob sob...

Do not be too worried that you'll fail...as long as you open you mouth and ask...help will come...you have to be a little thick-skinned, understand? :)

how i hope attachment would end rite now...

"Too much of anything is never a good thing...sigh..."

its sunday...but i'm feeling the monday blues already...sigh...sob sob...WHY!!! the situation at my IPP workplace now is pretty complicated and delicate...sob sob...sigh...and i'm too lazy-minded to go think of such things...doesnt help dat i'm the onli guy with 3 other gals along for my IPP...sigh...no one to realli tok to some more...and your msn keeps logging u off...oh how bleak things are looking...

gotta say, i enjoyed yest's dinner at marina south, it was for crys's("mother") bday, haha! almost the whole class was there, nice to see some old faces :) after the dinner went to river ang bao to KLKK(kia lai kia ke)...end up spending 10 bucks on rides...not exactly exhilerating...but the guys made it fun :) hope crystal had an enjoyable 20th bday to go by...

hmmmz...was juz browsing the mini cooper and bmw website...the mini cooper S has 163 horsepower inside its little engine...OMG...how fast dat car can go...ohhhhhh...try to imagine little speedy gonzales on a nitro-oxide turbo booster...WOAH!!!...wonder when i can drive such cars...i adore small cars...(doesnt hurt to dream, hehe!!!)...ur normal average 5 seater sedan cars u see on the road onli has abt btwn 70 to 90 horsepower juz for ur info...

sigh...shall go indulge myself in more anime before the suffering starts tomoro for the next 5 days...adious ppl!

"to adopt simplicity or luxury...selflessness or selfishness...ah...the problems of men...agree with me?"
your friendly neighborhood philosopher, Stinko

do u rem wat it felt like as a kid when u were so anticipating for something to happen, such as your most precious birthday present? or a trip to the zoo? then suddenly at the 11th hour something happens...and whatever you were looking forward to suddenly dissappears...do u rem the feeling? yeah, dats how i'm feeling now...

long story and cant be bothered to go into details...y shld i? in the first place, things like this shldn't have happened...catch no ball? let mi explain...

In the first place, no one told you to be a smart alec and start counting the eggs in the basket before they hatched...you onli have urself to blame for being an idiot...dats y u have people who are pessimists! they are realistic, logical thinking people!!!

Secondly, while u r here still in ur own lala land, the real world is constantly and mercilessly piling up work for u to suffer with, wake up as*h*le!!! or else ur gonna drown urself in a pile of real world deep shit!

Thirdly, bachelors are bachelors for a reason, they are smart people! the real world is already so full of shit, u wanna go make things worse by adding agony to suffering? wat a recipe!!!

anyway, i was referring to myself :) anyone reading this dun go thinking "is it mi?" dat kind of stuff :) dun worry, its not u! LOLz

once again i think i've further proved to myself that i cant make decisions at all, big ones, small ones, emotional ones, financial ones, academic ones...all in all, life decisions...i'll somehow always come to regret it sooner or later...

like to end it off for all couples out there, Happy Valentine's Day! while u guys r enjoying each other's company, i'll be recuperating some much needed rest for the already tiring week ahead...til then, bye bye ppl!

whenever in doubt...seek the meditation way...ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzz

the eve of chinese new yr eve...and i'm sick...how perfect...wat more can i ask for??? mi nose has been running for 2 days, esp today...and i've lost my appetite, though i suspect the appetite prob has something to do with the milo-coffee mixed drink i made at around 4 plus...too much of everything...coffee granules, milo powder and creamer powder...serves mi rite...rite? wat to do? mi eyes were almost bulging out from staring at the screen for more than 2 hrs of hardcore work...i daresay my eyes didnt leave the screen for dat 2 hrs++

and now becuz of the milo-coffee combo...mi havent had anything for dinner...in a way it lets mi eat less...so i guess its not too bad...though i'm sick...muz be careful not too pass the germs to u :)

today...mi LO(liaison officer) came...sigh...when he came to know abt the matter abt mi requesting for a change...he said should he have known earlier...he would not have allowed the change...sigh...first of all...if i were to stay on doing the debugging shit...not onli will i be doing OT everyday for no xtra pay...the company will also suffer by not having system delivered on time! WE ARE ON A DAMN TIGHT SCHEDULE DUDE!!!

Now dat i'm into preparing the training material thingie...mi so much happier...rather than being depressed everytime i step into the office...at least with time...i can complete the training materials...but the programming stuff...gimme 3 months and i doubt i'll be able to produce the goods...sigh...if onli my LO knew what degree of difficulty they threw to mi...the debuggin problem which they asked mi to solve? its rite now in process of debugging from the NCS ppl in Su Zhou...yes China!!! sigh...

since its over...suan le...concentrate on my job now bah...mi gonna be bringing the training materials documentation home to do during the CNY period...gonna take the 2 days to try and finish up the job...relieve a little of the immense pressure she's been going through...boss...mi willing to OT with u everyday!!! (as long as its not coding...)

this post is pretty long huh...i'll end off here then...lastly...HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

"as long as i know my feelings are reciprocated...u know dat i'll always be there"

yesterday was the 2nd of feb...not gonna forget this day...hehe...someone somewhere will noe why :)

sad to say...dats the onli realli happy thing dats made mi smile these few days...sigh...my job at NCS is realli gonna kill mi...i'm a business student maintaining and debugging a website using struts and weblogic as the server...er...anyone heard of all these names b4? neither have i...so imagine mi being lost and helpless for the past 4 days...have to OT for the past 3 nites some more...sigh...

luckily mi OIC is a damn nice person...today took the opportunity to explain to her the situation...and she gladly obliged my request...phew...mi gonna hand over the stuff to another nyp gal, xiaotian(IT track) either tomoro or mon...and mi can then focus on wat i'm better at...english! or rather business stuff...lol...

my OIC has juz saved mi from the verge of breaking down...saved my life man...u'll be surprised how demoralising it is to spend hrs in front of the com to debug a program and end up having everything suddenly go down the drain...

i swear dat i'll give my OIC a big fat nice treat at the end of my attachment there :) hope tomoro's a better day bah :)

"some things you'll juz never ever forget, right? *winkz*"

today...is my second day of work at NCS...sigh...and i'm already dreading it...I GOTTA DO PROGRAMMING!!! i didnt choose business track for nothing man!!! sigh...gotta do JSP...and...struts...god!!!!! my OIC worked late yest, so she's not gonna start work dat early...dats y u can see mi blogging rite now...mi OIC's a nice person though...hope she'll gimme some slack...i'll have to tell her dat i'm business track...and programming's not my forte...if not i'll seriously fail this IPP man...sigh...wish mi luck...i need it...

life is gonna be pretty hard to get through for these 3 months...starting counting down...

"Life is an irony...it normally doesn't go the way u want it to...sigh"
Stinko...ever your philosopher