i have juz gone through one of the worst days of my life...serious...nothing ever went rite...too bloody pissed with myself!!!

dun tok to mi...

So blog, how's life? Its been a while now! Quite abit of stuff has happened...some good some bad...But...First and formost, a very Chinese Happy New Year to All! Muz be in an upbeat mood, smile smile! there are a few good things, this semester, i onli have 2 final papers, haha! other good things include mi getting my Freedom Gundam 1/60 , Blitz Gundam 1/100 and Gundam Astray Red Frame 1/144!!! not cheap though, got my young sis present too, an LOTR edition Risk board game! oh yar...mi mother actually got a PS2 and an Olympus digital cam with compliments from Orchard Hotel...things r certainly looking good...but nothing can remain perfect :)

on the eve of CNY, father, eldest uncle and myself went downstairs mi grandpa place coffee shop for "coffee"...i almost got myself drunk...mi uncle can realli hold liquor man...anyway, during dat conversation...mi found out abt alot of unpleasant things abt the whole family...politics and reasoning and such...sad man...fancy hearing such things on CNY eve...later 4th uncle joined us...the topic switched to eh...cars i think...then got the call from mother to go up for makan liao...

if there iz one wish i hope will be fulfilled would be to have lesser desires and greater contentment...i'm a little tired of my life realli...becoming quite of a chore...sad to say...i'm even feeling guilty sometimes of spending so much on my gundams...sigh...i can actually imagine myself going for monkhood...serious...

however...shld i continue to persue a normal life...i wanna make sure dat my parents will not need to continue working and toiling for their lives when they shld be enjoying life instead...i wanna make sure dat they do not face the same problems dat they are facing as children to their parents (get wat i mean???) juz wanna give them a peaceful life...they would be the ones who will hold me back from being an as*h*le!

if u guys notice...there iz 1 issue dat i have never ever discussed in this blog...dat matter iz abt gals...u guys shld noe i never have any luck with gals...dun think i'll ever have anyway......however, i wanna give my best wishes to those who r in a relationship (beng, crystal, ben, gera, meli, [doreen and max], emily, xin hui) and those in pursuit of their crush (lim...make up ur mind!), hehe! Gambattee min na san!

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, as someone famous once said that, it applies...it really does, just that often there many wolves in sheeps' clothings these days..."
Aspiring philosopher, Stinko

I juz realised that this blog has taken up business from my diary, as in my diary book! i hardly written anythin in there for countless months...sad...promise myself to write somethin in mi diary...(come to think of it, i hardly write anything in my diary...) A new semester has started, but i dun feel like studying...most worrying now iz my semester long project, haven thought of a feasiblr idea to work on...had 1 idea in mind, but was shot off by TC TAN ( aka Tok Co*k Tan). where have all my creative juices gone to? i used to have them...but dat was like more than a decade ago...i wanna go back to being a kid...how nice dat would be...sian boh!!!!!!

"Sometimes, whats meant to be will be, if not, don't force it...it'll create disaster, whether big or small"
Aspiring philosopher, Stinko

Happy New Year people, in fact...mi gotta go sch in a few hours time...so why the hell am i still awake??? now doing my last minute revision for mi final theory later...all the 11th hr studying...a glance of things to come...anyway, finished mi 2 gundams liao, freedom and justice gundam...damn they look good...changed a few other gundams' postures and placings around mi room...had nothing to do...my other 2 gundams which i intended to buy no stock! so fed up...sigh...juz hope and pray dat this sem will be better than the last 3... good luck and all the best to the coming new year!

"The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches...born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies...and the Dark Lord will mark him as his equal, but he will have power the Dark Lord knows not...and either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives...the one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord will be born as the seventh month dies..."
The prophecy refering to Harry Potter and Lord Voldermort