Tuesday, December 21, 2010

of weddings and best men...



and so finally my dear friend of more than a decade has wed his beau...and while being one of the five brothers for the wedding is no joke...i guess i could say i realli enjoyed the experience :)

the preparations the nite b4..the lack of sleep becuz of that...the moving off of the wedding convoy...the arrival...the battle negotiations with the sadists beautiful bridesmaids, who made us drink super concentrated lime juice in baby milk bottles, eat cakes with curry powder, wasabe and belachan chilli, raw strips of bitter gourd, and finally wear disposable lady underwear bearing the bride's name...how cool is that? then again..i dun think my stomach is ever gonna feel normal ever again....

travelling back and forth from the bride's and groom place was more exciting then i tot...when we brothers decided to surprise the wedding couple by having a photo shoot in the middle of the highway...the last minute trips and errands we had to do...oh the adrenaline...heh...

to the wedding dinner...i've never had a busier dinner in my life b4...but then again...i think it was all worth it, when i saw the groom give his heartfelt speech..see the bride's tears of joy roll down her face...i think it is times like this that make all the preparations and hard work worth it :)

i thoroughly enjoyed the experience...and wish my brother Ming Yan and wife Kelly to have a blissful marriage, have children soon (there are 5 godfathers waiting...), and live happily ever after!

wait til i get to upload the video and photo montage of the wedding!!!!

Saturday, December 04, 2010

A "new" PC! and a walkathon to follow!



after months of deliberating...and resisting of temptation, i finally decided to install my Windows 7 Ultimate on my 3 yrs old laptop! though i got lotsa new installations to do...i kinda like it...faster...less rubbish in the harddisk...its like a fresh start! hopefully it can still support my games though, not that i play much...heh...

On another note...in a few hrs time...i'm going on a suicide mission of doing my first ever 42km marathon...worse still i haven trained....AT ALL!!! i guess i can crawl on the up slopes and flats...while roll down on the down slopes...

"if ur looking for mi at the marathon...look to the grounds...i should be lying around...somewhere..."

Monday, November 15, 2010

blood galore~

becuz yest was my blood donation drive event...i had to work on a Sunday...then again...in my line of work...working on a weekend is nothing new already...so i'm pretty used to it...onli that yest...i decided to donate too...

i finally had my virgin experience of donating blood...and it had to be when my mother decided to come to my work place to donate too, when i had my colleagues there too, when i had my grassroot leaders there too...happening i say...

when it was my turn to donate...i had a few of them standing beside mi...with all of them unanimously deciding that i should be donating 2 bags instead...1 needle stuck up each arm...if it means i could take a week's MC......BRING IT ON!!!!!

"oh yeah...i had my company's appreciation dinner the nite b4...good...not great...heh"

Thursday, November 04, 2010

jaywalking~



been wanting to blog abt this for awhile now...heh...everytime i walk to my workplace...i usually jaywalk across the only road i have to cross...and i usually jaywalk right in front of a police station...heh...the irony...

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Blurred~



half the time i look like that while in office...why? because its either i get called from boss or colleagues or phone calls...mostly not good...heh...and my usual reply to them? huh..orh...okie...

slightly more than a month into the job...still got tons to learn...and still gotta juggle with the workload...and the motivation to clear it...and go work out...cant rem when was the last time i went for a good long job...sigh...

Whats more...other than piling up of current work...seems like boss is onli gonna throw mi more...might be leeched in to go for a retreat in Vietnam..will be arrowed to be in a CNY 2011 dinner committee..already arrowed to take care of a committee's accounts...including issuing cheques and such...oh my...i realli hope i dun cock up big time....

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

of work and more work...



this is how i usually end up at the end of a working day..regardless of whether its morning or afternoon shift...simply becuz there are too many things to learn and do...oh well..gotta learn to take it in my stride...i must...

and now that i'm working...working out is a serious issue as i cant seem to motivate myself anymore...and i seriously do not want to paste Ryan Reynolds or hugh jackman as my wallpaper to motivate mi...do i realli have to??????

"pass to Sean!"
the most frequent phrase i've heard for the past few days...

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Now the real work begins!



2nd day at work i already feel like i've known so many things...yet onli at the same time feel that there's still so much to learn..paradox..heh...but seriously, i gotta quickly pick things up, open myself up to communicating well with others, and be a FREAKING hell lot more organised! only 2nd day at work and i already 4got that i got a meeting to attend and still agreed to go for a seminar...well done i tell myself...

"gotta have a whole lot more self-discipline now!"

Monday, September 13, 2010

beginnings and endings...



many beginnings and endings since the last post...

i finally settled my future for the foreseeable future by committing to the job that i have waited for...thereby meaning i have also left my previous job...being there for only 3 weeks...but i've already made some good friends there...i wish them all the best...so my first job ended as quickly as it started...and i look forward to my first choice full time job now...

and on my last day of work...a life came to an end as well...my great grandmother has lived a long life...a long and fruitful life...having seen more than i can ever imagine..having gone through the tough samsui women era and survived the japanese occupation, all the while taking care of her children...and now...she finally rests eternally after finally succumbing to cancer, leaving behind 4 generations. I will never forget you grandma...

on another note...on sunday morning...i started a run which i had once done...and was convinced by another to do it again...i'm referring to the army half marathon :P i did finish the race, though not at a time i'm proud of...heh...and boy...did 21km seem so much easier before...now to look forward to 42km...sure die...

"i still dun see myself slimming down...die die die~ maybe i should change my desktop wallpaper to Zac Efron to motivate myself to work out..."

Thursday, September 02, 2010

of mornings and workings



If not for mother's wake up call earlier...i would still have been in bed...and i would have been late for work...and my boss and boss boss would then have their eyes on mi..and then its GG for mi...despite the fact that i reach office 30 mins earlier usually ever since i started work...nonetheless..here i am again..one of the earliest goons to reach office first...though big boss boss boss is always in office by 8am as well..

becuz we were pretty bored in office,
becuz we were pretty hungry,
becus my newly acquianted colleague who juz started work with mi had a craving for chee cheong fun...

we ended up sneaking out for breakfast yest...onli to get caught by one of our senior colleagues...so wat happen? we joined him and subsequently other colleagues hu came out for breakfast as well :) i like!!!

on another note, i'm finally learning stuff from work, as the newest staff has joined us, so i hope i can start doing what i signed up to do, and earn some bucks :P

i juz saw a veri famous/infamous person from my UB days have this as his MSN PM, "slow days in office like these are like virgins in Geylang...RARE!!!" yeah...HE would know :)

Saturday, August 21, 2010

of how time flies~



juz over 3 yrs ago, around this time, i was anticipating for a new start in Uni...and boy did i go through lots of ups and downs...enjoyed every second of my uni life nonetheless...but all things got to come to an end...and 3 years on...i am now a graduate...

so now as i look forward...i got the real world waiting for mi...as i attempt to make a mark in the world, to make a living for myself, and to support my family, who have been supporting me for the past 25 yrs...

First week into my job already...a step into the unknown...i hope i can do well, i hope i can thrive under it..and if it doesn't work out...i hope i'm strong enough to carry on relentlessly...

despite already working...i'm still apprehensive of what i realli want to do...and how i want to do it...still standing at the crossroads, with the possibility of having to make a career choice...if i have to...will i make the right choice?

once again, after a long time...Stinko ponders...

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Work, and work!



While i'm still suffering from withdrawal symptoms converting from a full-time student to a full-time corporate slave, i got a call, which has potentially added abit more options, yet complications...hmmm...

Work is alrite so far, people been treating mi good, though tough times are gonna come i'm sure...and hu knows...i might not be around long enough...the call is the reason...gotta see how things go now...hmmm...

Friday, August 06, 2010

the end of a journey, beginning of another




I guess one of the things that surprised me after all these years of education is that I have only realized the importance of it after I have graduated, ironic…I know. While many would argue that getting a degree is more of a necessity more than anything else, I would beg to differ. Studying in UB has opened up my narrow-mindedness and changed my perspectives, making me glad to say that with, I hope I can be a better person.

Apart from the education aside, which by the way I think is awesome (honestly!), I think what I would like to remember and take away from my undergraduate life are my experiences and friends which I have come to treasure…the good……and the bad~ Being in a university is just like being anywhere else, because you’ll get to meet all sorts of people. I would like to think that my life in UB was simply a less dramatic version of any high school movie.

While people generally form their cliques pretty early from the get go, I strangely never really got to being permanently be streamed into any of those cliques, though I would like to think that I was on pretty good terms with many of these cliques, if not most. While I think I got to know most of the people I wished to know and be friends with, there are people whom I wished I had the pleasure to know better, and some people whom I wished I didn’t know them as well as I do. Heh.

To the “6 and a half women” gang, which includes my close guy buddy with the gift of being a real charmer, along with his blessed girlfriend, my cricket buddy who sometimes seems more manly than mi, the otaku girl, the angel with hands of a chef, the headphone girl, the ice queen, the k-queen, and the ang-moh power gal who taught me the word “siesta” in my first semester…you gals alone seem happening enough to keep me entertained :P

Then the gang of guys who only led me astray by teaching me how to gamble, and gamble, and gamble! There is the all-assured big-mouthed ringleader, the summer boys, the play boy, the everything-also-side-bet poker king, and finally THE MAN, who goes by many nicks, who shamelessly pisses me off all the time, but we still have supper…if I was out on a weeknite either having supper or gambling at soccer or mahjong, it’s with these guys…

Then there is the Malay, who technically isn’t even malay, there is also Barney who happens to be my neighbour, the wayang kia with his floppy hair, the aspiring zookeeper whom I seem to be able to talk to naturally, the sexually overcharged gamer who has humped me from behind many times in public, the gentle gaint who struggled Chinese, and the gal whom I can only talk to abt her eyebags :P I wish I knew you guys better, even if I already know some of u pretty well, I guess that’s where keeping in contact matters :)

Then there are these 2 gals who shared the unfortunate fate with me of having to have classes on a Saturday during our 2nd semester, and we have been buddies every since, the girl who seems to be perennially drunk and the girl whom I’d like to call “jui tang”, and likes to bring her BOB everywhere she goes…Then there is my buddy from Barker and lurves his camera and apple products, and the horny buddy who shares all his darkest “hum sap” secrets, the lilone who is also a fellow Taurus and more than once been on the same wavelength, the flower girl and his bf, whom I like to call the bull, and the many other people in uni who have one way or another made my UB journey complete. Thank you.

While there are regrets about who some events have turned out, there is no use crying over spilled milk (hint: scratched car?), and I hope that all these will only make all of us stronger. With this, I have come to the end of my journey as an undergrad, and finally face the real world. Lets go.

Friday, July 30, 2010

played...bruised...ate...talked...surprised



while today's futsal session was longer than usual, i honestly enjoyed the good run out...and for the first time ever, scored more than i could count or remember...super rarity~ but then was accompanied by the usual bruises...over-stretched muscles, loose creaking ankle joints, and the occasional fatal blow...last week was a blow to my glasses and eyes, this week was someone's precious jewels...ouch~

and so sent people to where they had to go,and headed home, if onli for awhile to drop off the food and rest alittle b4 dinner with the Tommy Gun and the NYP famous namesake girl :) had a good dinner and a good talk...and had a pleasant surprise when i saw a familiar face...

a face i last saw 3 yrs ago..my old unit's cookhouse uncle! random and weird perhaps, but we got on very well when i was back in the army, and was no different when we met at the interchange :) feelings of nostalgia flooded mi..felt realli pleasant...coincidentally took the same bus home, and promised each other coffee soon, perhaps with 1 or 2 more army guys..

"And now...i need to recuperate..to nurse the aching and bruising body mine...for i shall feel the full wrath of the pain tomoro..."

Monday, July 26, 2010

of reflections and worries



no..its not that i'm stressed, perhaps later, when its closer to exam time or when i'm going to start work perhaps..think it'll come in useful, esp considering that its been my advice since eons to ppl hu wanna de-stress..bang ur head on the wall!

becuz i totally have no clue as to wat happened in my past 2 lectures...
becuz i already missed 1 extra credit assignment...
becuz i slacked the whole weekend playing FM instead of studying...
becuz i didnt feel like studying at home...

i decided to act hardworking and come to sch early in an attempt to study...so...progress? 0%...damn..

something interesting though...i tot i am the onli idiot in sch who go way too freaking early to sch juz to snooze on the wooden benches as though i'm a beggar in the street...but i was wrong! as i awoke from my slumber earlier from my own usual "private" corner wooden bench, a neighbouring bench was occupied by another idiot hu was in a more unglam position than i was...cool~ i like~

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Of what happened and what's to happen



sometimes, people juz dun learn their lesson, and i am one of those idiots...why? because despte the fact that i've always had facial injuries while playing soccer or basketball with my glasses on, i still wear them while playing.

and so...the latest injury came a couple of days back when the soccer ball hit mi in the left eye area, where i had an injury before from my poly days...upon closer examination, the wound was exactly on the scar from my poly days...a wound upon a wound...cool~

while i was contemplating contact lenses, i decided not to when my optician told mi to change my lenses is onli 90 bucks...its so much cheaper can? and i still cant get the hang on putting on contacts...

on another note...

people have been asking mi wats next...my answer would usually be attempt to do well at my job, wont be surprised if i'm fired though, look forward to my first paycheck, but the most immediate concern would be to grad...which is in like.........2 weeks plus?

then ppl ask abt love life, and i reply "wat love life?", "dun have, dun wan", and "not looking forward to anything except job", which is the truth...after what i've heard from an animated female geomancer and a wise old man hu can crack jokes with a straight face while reading ur 8 characters, i think i need to realli wake up and do wat i need to, and romance juz isnt one of them...

i'm taking wat they said with a pinch of salt, but i gotta realise that with such coincidences with their description of mi and their similar readings, i should be more conscious of myself, even if not for believing in something that people are skeptical abt, but at least be conscious of how i seriously live my life now, cuz this is the real world i'm gonna step into...and it seems scary...

"inorite?"

Thursday, July 22, 2010

of being annoyed



perhaps it was cuz i did not have enough sleep~
perhaps it was cuz i woke up on the wrong side of the bed~
perhaps it was cuz i had a morning class which caught nothing of it~
perhaps it was cuz i'm having a fair bit on my plate now..despite onli doing my 1 last module~

but i've been pretty annoyed about anything and everything this morning...angsty is the rite word to describe mi now..

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Of running, lunch and haircuts



after a long long time...i ran Machritchie reservoir after dunno how many ages...with my fren, whom i'd like to refer to as the Tommy Gun~ it was good running with his company (no, i'm not going that way), and although we talked more than we walked and walked more than we ran, it was still a good run..i should run more...

had a good catch up lunch with the Malay, along with the one with the squinty eyes and the self-professed bimbo. Inception (2nd time for mi) was good...though the run earlier killed mi so i snoozed abit..but it was a good catch up with them :)

so finally after weeks of delaying, i finally cut my hair, which was overgrown, and unsightly...so as i walked into the hair saloon, my other regular hairstylist's first remark to mi was

"AIYO! soh long neber see you aledy! hair so long now, like poor old man like dat!"

that killed much of my esteem, knowing that i had b4 this walked around half the day in this poor old man look...it didnt help that i didnt shave...so while i cutting my hair, i chatted with my hairstylist while she was happily cutting my hair away..

"why your hair so long ah?"

"cuz i long time never cut?"

"aiyo, thats why la, your hair so thick! like ger hair like tat..."

"thanks ah..so help mi cut short short can?"

"can! i cut short short nice nice for u!"

30 mins later i saw a me that was reminiscent of my earlier army days...not that i minded honestly..at least it was neat...

and so with a renewed belief in my now easily maintained hair...i showed the world proudly...and these were wat i heard...

"eh, grow ur hair back la..u look better last time..."

"eeeee, ur hair so short! make u look fatter!"

"wah..u reservist ah?"

and the ultimate...

"eh...u look like Jack Neo..."

i sobbed...but it onli gives mi motivation to run more and lose weight...
i should, i must, i will!

You talk too much, will get u into trouble...so act like a clown, act blur, then u'll be safe...understand?
More wise words from the old man

Monday, July 19, 2010

Wise words



A wise old man, despite his veri serious tone, and deep weathered voice, said to me with a veri firm face...

"Young man, you want to drink milk, go outside and drink, but make sure you don't bring the cow back!"

I tried my best to keep a serious face to accomodate him...i was ROFL-ing in my heart..wise words nonetheless...thank you old man~

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Of fortune telling and family bonding



Because my mother happens to be on a fairly long leave, and because she happened to have some free time, and because she was interested in consulting a geomancer, and because I happened to be with her, i got my 8 characters read as well...

and the geomancer said i was a weird person...she said...

1. I tend to daydream a lot...too much...so much so that i live in my own world (TRUE)
2. I tend to be alittle short of my temper (understatement...and TRUE)
3. I tend to not want to change for others, as a consequence from daydreaming in my own world too much (hmmm...quite true i guess...)
4. I tend to like to contradict myself all the time, so much so that I end up not knowing what i want...(SO TRUE~)
5. I'm too stubborn, too much for my own good at times...(TRUE...i'm a bull, wa-do-u-x-pek?)
6. And becuz i'm too stubborn, i tend to be loggerheads with some individuals, hence...not good PR (quite true too...)

As a result of all those characteristics of mine...i'm gonna have a pretty hard life...damn...

1. i'm gonna marry late, cuz it take a serious woman to take all my shit :P
2. i'm gonna be doing bad at work, becuz i'm juz too stubborn for my own good, and the heavens dun smile on mi...

oh well...shit happens...moving on...

spent a fair bit of time with family, which was good, movie and makan :) talked abit, joked abit, shopped abit...good family bonding :)

On a side note...i already got a job offer...should i take it?

"Stinko ponders...and ponders..."

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

confusion and perhaps frustration...



I'm a pretty confused...and maybe frustrated boy these days...why?

cuz no matter how much i study, i never seem to get things into my head
cuz no matter how i seem to know stuff, i never do get the grades to reflect it
cuz no matter how i seem to want to show how I feel, it never turns out that way
cuz no matter how i try to control my temper, i somehow lose it at the most critical of times
cuz no matter how i tell myself to find a good job asap, i somehow find myself procrastinating sending out my resume
cuz no matter how i want to train myself up again to be Trim And Fit (TAF!~),i end up watching tv and dozing off...
cuz no matter how i seem to know what i want...at the end of the day...i don't...

i guess i need to wake up my idea~ and soon...

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Worries and worries



So i'm guilty of not blogging for a long time now..oh well..though recently the urge to blog again came up..partly cuz of some of the interesting stuff that i came across...some of the interesting conversations that i've had with people..

but being the absent-minded mi...i never do rem these stuff long enough til i finally get down to blogging it...so sue mi...

nevertheless...i think i've reached a crossroad in life where i've got some major decisions to make...such as the kind of job to hunt for...should i be idealistic? pragmatic? should i take a break b4 starting work? should i go on a holiday even? so many qns..and i dun have a qn to any of them...

meanwhile, i've got my last semester in sch...and its not been easy...i've never been the mugger type...and my psy courses require alot of mugging...i realli pretty much screwed myself..

food for thought: last nite..brudder Mao said something which Brudder Leo agreed..."whatever you do, don't regret it!" i think i can understand that..a matter of mind over matter...but sometimes the mind is not that strong..hmmm...food for thought....

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Lost and dazed



i wonder if i'm doing things wrong...i'm feeling lost and dazed too...i need to think things through...carefully...

something interesting though...read it online..

"Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.
P.S. Please dont do this, banging your head against a wall makes you lose brain cells and its unethical.
"

Monday, March 22, 2010

Monday, March 15, 2010

Of happiness and sadness



Many times we experience happiness and sadness. When we experience happiness, we take it for granted, but when we experience sadness, we think the whole world will crash down on us..

The human mind is so weak a thing...which i am the epitome of it..

Saturday, March 13, 2010

A bad week



This week hasnt been good...been doing poorly for exams...doing stupid things...upsetting people...nothing seemed to go right...sigh...

i'm sorri to anyone whom i hurt over this period, thru my insensitivity..sorri...forgive me...

please let this bad patch be over...the remorse...is unbearable...

Sunday, March 07, 2010

of idiots at the poker table...



been playing texas hold'em poker on FB for awhile...maybe i'm a noob, maybe i'm a bad loser...but i dun understand how people can all-in when the flop isn't even out on the table??? and its not juz for a game or 2...but they play like dat for every game! doesn't help dat every table i hopped to had an idiot like dat...sometimes more than 1...goodness

"A sucker is born every minute"
P.T. Barnum

which do u see?



This picture, which u might or might not have seen...is the rubin vase. Depending on the individual, one usually either sees the 2 faces first or the vase...though i guess most people can see both eventually...

this is juz one example of the things i'm studying for this sem...neurovision...bio...veri hard! oh well...

1 more sem after this, and i shall enter the working world! looking forward! meanwhile...i realli gotta buck up for my studies, haven been doing as well as i could have...

Monday, January 25, 2010

Of sch, people, funny dialogues, and self-motivation



And so today marks the third week of school...and already i've had tests, quizzes and assignments either done or due soon. I'm even supposed to have even finished reading a whole book by now...but...oh well...good book though..."Emotional Awareness" by Paul Eckman and the Dalai Lama. Its enlightening!

Met up with both my poly gang of guys and my sec sch buddies...certainly had some "interesting" conversations..

When with my sec sch buddies...

Stinko: What are all these bro?
Hanz: Stuff from my previous relationship...5 years ago...
Stinko: 5 years ago?!?!?!
Hanz: Yup, thats why i'm gonna burn them...
*starts burning the random stuff*
Stinko: ...if i followed ur mentality and burnt stuff from my last r/s...half my house would have been burnt down ;P

We ended up chatting the whole nite thru...the gang of sec sch brudders...enjoyed it thoroughly...

Even had an interesting conversation with my mother while i chauffeured her around...

Mother: you remember my colleague uncle ah beng? His son juz got accepted to be a government scholar! his son is the out-spoken kind, will go far one...most likely will be in politics...
Stinko: uh-huh...
Mother: then remember uncle ah seng? His son also very clever! got scholarship to study for phd...these people...are so smart...
Stinko: yupz...scary...mother...can i ask you a question?
Mother: Yar?
Stinko: What happened to your son?
*Mother chuckles*

If mother did not have a sense of humor, i would have essentially shot myself in the foot with dat qn... :P

Often times this year as i was stoning...i reminded myself that i was gonna be 25...reaching a quarter-life crisis...OMG! Gotta motivate myself to improve! to be better! GO!

"I need the spark in me to ignite!"

Friday, January 22, 2010

How Do I Love Thee?



Sonnet #43, From the Portuguese

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, - I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! - and, if God choose,
I shall but thee better after death.

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Monday, January 11, 2010

Of the New Year and New things



And so it is officially 2010, Happy New Year? Perhaps, though it means a new sch term which is gonna start in a couple of hours, new classes, new class mates, though close buddies still remain close, thankfully, and of course, my one true love :P

I gave up making resolutions because i never get to keep them...and because not keeping my resolutions make me feel bad...i've all the more given up on resolutions...so i wont feel so bad...

Nonetheless, a new year to look forward to, with my loved ones :)