much has happened...more to happen!

the posted clip above...was wat happened to mi during my mother's company's Family Day at Sentosa's Tanjong beach...dat was like 2 weeks ago...dun ask mi why i was doing it..."SABO-ED!!!!"

i've already started sch...can feel the stress coming in already...but the tot of having to book in one last time to finish off my NS makes mi wanna go back to class anytime!

recently, there have been a few issues on my mind...troubled...hmmm...gotta book in...for the last time!

"headache...big time..."

Anxiety over things

recently...i've had a little bit of fear and anxiety over my future...over alot of things actually...

1. i'm soooo looking forward to ORD...get out of camp...but worried abt lack of income...
2. scared of going back to studying...
3. scared of the distant future...career wise...

true...i can actually go into almost any field should i successfully complete this degree of mine...and along with my diploma...i believe i'm diversified enough to be considered employable...jack of all trades...master of none...sigh...some more with the lack of income...i gotta find a way to earn some pocket money for myself...and to spoil my sleeping beauty...

though with all these...i'm still glad i have someone to share my woes and happiness with...my sleeping beauty has been understanding enough to tolerate mi..and i realli enjoy the times we spent together...we actually played hide and seek inside a supermarket...believe it or not...

"i think b4 i ORD...i might juz lose my temper and give my understudies 1 times good wake up call and buy my men some prata for my last book in...weird rite?"

recent happenings...

lots have happened while i was too lazy, busy, or pissed to update...my bad~

i was supposed to work in SingFest for the 8th and 9th of aug...earning myself some dough so i could spoil my sleeping beauty better...its already bad enough i have to be working on her birthday...but do things go according to plan? NOOOOOOO!!!!

my OC has to be a S.O.B. and recall mi back cuz the battalion is on alert standby...now logic will ask...why do i need to be called back? i'm not involved in the standby, i no longer have any of my personal stores...i'm totally not ready with all the standby...the other ORD personnels who booked out did not book in...so why the hell did i? sigh...and so i had to forgo work and spend the whole of 9th aug in camp being a floating ghost...

i had to make it up to my sleeping beauty a couple of days later...managed to get her a pair of couple rings...brought her to a new dining experience...so that was a good thing i guess...

though last nite i sort of upset her...sigh...mi and my indecisiveness...onli hoping i can make it up to her...

i juz received my time table...bad...real bad...i have classes which are more than 4 hrs apart...can there are classes on thur and fri...which means i muz realli realli go find ways and means to excuse myself from camp to attend my classes....

"dark times lie ahead..."

Difference between doing ur job and bootlicking...

as i've been around in the company for a far longer time in the company...its onli natural dat i'm closer to my platoon commander, platoon sergeant and my men...compared to my understudies...but overtime we the older commanders thought they would slowly take over positions successfully...

alas...currently from the way i see it...it aint the case...my understudies dont understand the roles and sacrifices a commander has to make...onli whining their way thru everything and not doing anything...not bothering to get to know the men better...juz staying inside their bunk fixated on their PSP...sigh...

anyway...i believe some of them thinks i'm bootlicking my PC and PS too much as i spend too much time with them...and leaking info of them cutting corners and slacking...all i can say is despite mi being an ORD personnal...i still do make myself useful my helping my platoon...infact i daresay i have been more useful than my understudies during the last outfield exercise...

being a commander...its not juz giving commands and using eye power...its about doing with them as well...and getting to noe them personally...and providing welfare from them...to show them u care...so that when they noe u care for them...they will in return give their all to get the job done...

"if some people think i'm bootlicking..so be it...when the actual fact is dat i still do a better job..."

And so he lives~

Finally!!! i have finished reading the book...and thru certain blessings...i finished it in the comfort and privacy of my room cuz..........

some of u, some few of u guys might rem dat i'm a pretty sensitive person...and emotional at dat...when reading a touching story or watching a touching scene in a movie would make mi sob uncontrollably...yes...i'm dat weak...too much female hormones in mi i tell u...

anyway...i couldnt imagine if i was reading the book in my bunk...where all my rowdy and ill-disciplined understudies were...they would be first wondering y am i tearing...followed by spreading the news, then coming up with lame jokes and stories...and finally making fun of mi with those lame jokes...IF THEY DARE!~

by now anyone interested in Harry Potter would noe he survived...dun mean to be a spoiler but its even been published in the straits times...so dun blame mi...though i shant mention the rest unless u wan mi to spoil it for u...

"i can smell it! so near yet so far!!! my ORD date!!!"