sigh...i think this blog might get alittle too long...read my header...dats how i'm realli feeling rite now...ever since i enlisted as an NSF...every time i had to do some regimental duties...i would lose out more than usual...let mi explain...
In BMT, my first ever guard duty had to happen on a weekend...burning some of my precious time...
In Sispec BSLC, i was Company Duty Trainee...again on a weekend...do wat? sit in company office surfing tv channels and read newspaper 4 times over...
In Sispec Aslc, again guard duty while the rest of the company had night's out...
Now in my new unit, tuesday kanna guard duty again...the rest of them get the night off...
if dat's not enough...i have to go back tomoro again for weekend guard duty...tell mi..."tian li her zai"????? (where is the justice?????)
sigh...its times like these when its realli hard to pick urself up...esp whatever happen juz not long ago...u cant find the support u need sometimes...but!!! i'm a guy!!! muz face problems as a man!!!(if onli i really meant dat...)
anyway, though mi now at bukit panjang camp...might be posted back to pasir laba camp (back to where Sispec is) to undergo another training...to be a MG commander!!! its the ball dropping General purpose machine gun dat i get to play with...hehehe :)
recently got to chat with a good fren of mine...and learnt a very valuable lesson...
"its a good way to build up a good relationship, understanding of what you want, having trust, cherish more...basically less is more..."
eh...we were in the topic of how come she and her bf dun meet up veri often...dats when she came to say this...i think i still have alot to learn...i'm still a kid...
i've been calling home these past few days...things dun look good...grandma's still in hospital...dad's fallen sick too...cuz he's been going down everyday to look after her...sigh...and he's not young himself...sigh...if onli i can try to contribute to the family more...
everything seems to be in a stalemate now...emotionally, mentally...except maybe my fitness might go up juz a little tiny notch...the training there cant be taken lightly...hmmm...
"i dunno wat to do anymore...sigh...someone pls gimme some direction?"
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