so i have to report to my new camp in a couple of hours time...bukit panjang...its actually alot closer than i thought...went to recce the place juz now...dats beside the point...here i am back to square one...a new beginning...a new place...all over again...they better dun last min tell mi i'm re-posted to somewhere else again...or my heart wont be able to take it...
the truth is rite now...i got the same sense of anxiety and fear as when i departed for taiwan abt a month back...but dat time we all went together...this time round i'm all alone...damn...i'll be reporting alone while everyone inside would be giving mi those analytical eyes...waiting to pounce on any mistake i make(they wont have to wait long...), then making mi suffer...argh!!! hope its realli not so bad...realli hope things would go well and smooth...sigh...
things haven been exactly going pretty well since my break last wed...esp at home...my grandma's in hospital...juz suffered a stroke this morn...now half her body's paralysed...the best part is she onli suffered dat stroke juz hrs b4 her discharge...she was already hospitalised for awhile b4 the stroke hit her...sigh...and my dad...he's been throwing his temper quite freely these days...i don't see him controlling it as much as he used to...now he gets worked up for even small and insignificant stuff...sigh...dunno wat to do with him also...and he's back to his old "matchmaker" ways...juz heard from my elder sis dat he nearly wanted to intro a malay girl to mi...WTF!!! am i realli dat bad??? dat bad dat my old man wants mi to convert? omg...sigh...my father realli see mi no up liao...
even my mum gives up on my dad now...although i gotta say i think she's playing a part in my father's recent fiery temper...i see her coming to contradict alot of my father's decisions nowadays...putting my father off...u noe how it is when u dun like people to tell u off for making the wrong decisions and stuff...argh...realli hope things can onli turn for the better here...i guess i shld call home more le...gotta end off...wish mi all the best people...and where's all my presents??? (joking!!joking!!)
"thanx for the call earlier...i missed you...take care..."
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