do u rem wat it felt like as a kid when u were so anticipating for something to happen, such as your most precious birthday present? or a trip to the zoo? then suddenly at the 11th hour something happens...and whatever you were looking forward to suddenly dissappears...do u rem the feeling? yeah, dats how i'm feeling now...

long story and cant be bothered to go into details...y shld i? in the first place, things like this shldn't have happened...catch no ball? let mi explain...

In the first place, no one told you to be a smart alec and start counting the eggs in the basket before they hatched...you onli have urself to blame for being an idiot...dats y u have people who are pessimists! they are realistic, logical thinking people!!!

Secondly, while u r here still in ur own lala land, the real world is constantly and mercilessly piling up work for u to suffer with, wake up as*h*le!!! or else ur gonna drown urself in a pile of real world deep shit!

Thirdly, bachelors are bachelors for a reason, they are smart people! the real world is already so full of shit, u wanna go make things worse by adding agony to suffering? wat a recipe!!!

anyway, i was referring to myself :) anyone reading this dun go thinking "is it mi?" dat kind of stuff :) dun worry, its not u! LOLz

once again i think i've further proved to myself that i cant make decisions at all, big ones, small ones, emotional ones, financial ones, academic ones...all in all, life decisions...i'll somehow always come to regret it sooner or later...

like to end it off for all couples out there, Happy Valentine's Day! while u guys r enjoying each other's company, i'll be recuperating some much needed rest for the already tiring week ahead...til then, bye bye ppl!

whenever in doubt...seek the meditation way...ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzz