i'm feeling veri down...sian...i seem to be so unattached to the world...to everybody...let mi tell u wat happen to mi today(or rather yesterday)...

in the morning...woke up to do my JAVA...work work work til lunch time...then after lunch go sch lor...enthu to carry on mi work...then...there was something strange...none of mi classmates were to be seen...hmmm...funny rite??? dunno lah...mi grp gals were taking a rest..."father" and "mother" go out liao...then the other guys nowhere also...so call them lor...had to call them a few times b4 picking up mi call...seems like they had some plan to go to 1 of the guys place to carry on their work...so mi bo pian lor...come sch 5 min onli go out to find them again...

then at the guy's place...onli managed to do a veri tiny bit...sigh...as mi laptop spoil...veri bad...wanted to go back sch to do...but was feeling terrible (rem i told u i was gonna fall sick?)...so made mi way home lor...wanted to see a doc but father told mi to go tomoro morning...so ok lor...

then at night while staring mi JAVA codes away...mi chatted with another guy on msn...this guy...though he didnt go sch or anything...knew abt all the guys' plans...and even told mi something i didnt...dat the guys were gonna stay over at one of their places to do JAVA...i was with the guys whole afternoon and they didnt even tell mi abt it...sigh...tells u something bah...

sigh...mi felt so left out man...come to think of it...i dun think the guys wanted mi to follow them in the afternoon...shld have guessed...thinking too slow...nvm...i'll see wat i can do on my own bah...

somehow mi juz feel so used...sigh...during the period where the same batch of us guys had to do a job dat required alot of moving around driving...i was the one driving for 3 days straight...if not for the fact i was the onli one with the driving lesson...i doubt i would have been asked along for the job...sigh...now dat mi sux at JAVA...none of the guys care where i am...or watever i'm doing...

sigh...mi no mood to do mi java now...i dun realli care if i fail or not now...wat the hell...

"maybe staying detached from the world is a good thing...u wont be used...and be treated like a fool..."

PS: To those who know who i'm refering to...pls keep this to urself...thanx...i dun wanna talk abt this to the guys...they'll juz think i'm oversensitive(maybe i am...) and always gonna throw mi temper anytime at them...mi dun wan dat...