of disappointment and contempt

Since returning from wearing the green uniform to the corporate one...i realised much hasn't changed, and if there is any..it ain't for the better...

its really disheartening and disappointing that despite all that you have done, and what has been thrown upon you, leaving you at times overwhelmed...your superior does not recognise the effort, but instead throws more upon you and fault you for negligible matters...

its even more disheartening that the same negligible effects are of no concern when done by other personnels, or even more so at times...to add salt to the wound...they get the praise and "recognition"... *facepalm*

i am honestly disillusioned with work rite now...

wearing green and tasting grass and mud...again...

and so for the past 2 and a half weeks..i donned on the green uniform that helped me lose more than juz my weight...

4 years was the last time i touched the 120mm mortar artillary gun...and long gone was my knowledge...so it took a while to refresh everything...it didnt help that i got assigned to the most tiring detachment...but the guys helped...and i suspect i'm gonna be with this group of guys for the long run...i think thats a good thing...

while i more or less enjoyed myself during this reservist...i made some big boo boos...like almost losing my camp pass...giving wrong instructions more than once...and sunk a military vehicle into soft ground...heh...got stuck pretty badly there...but oh well..

now back to work...

of official closures and beginnings

tomorrow...i shall be officially graduating from Uni...heh...despite working for almost a year already...nonetheless...a form of closure for mi...of the times i've been thru...i would say it was fun :)

so much for the importance of convocation and graduation, i've gotta head back to work shortly after that...heh...at least its to plan for going to RWS and USS...then again...been there....done that...nonetheless...work is work...

after much procrastination, i'm finally settling the transfer of ownership for the car...its a expensive hassle...but gotta be done...sigh...hopefully can make it official by next week..not gonna be tinkering much with the car though...dun have the financial luxury now :(

Oh yeah..of another new beginning...i've finally picked up golf...heh...going thru some lessons now...managed to hit some decent shots...I"M SO HOOKED! but its an expensive sport...damn it...

perhaps to end off...i wanna officially tell myself to stop being such a pussy and get on with it...whatever it is...GO!

busy, depressing month

and so b4 we know it...we're entering the 2nd half of the year...damn it...and july doesnt seem to be a month i can slack off..sad :(

after various office commitments, i'll have to serve the nation, back to wearing green for awhile...lagi sad :(

something random...i'm quite the type who tend to have infatuations for a pretty long time~longest record i was infatuated with this gal in poly for 2 years (think 45..heh)...damn...i might fall into that again...though usually it means i'll end up nowhere...hmmm...bachelors' club anyone?

ill again~

juz when i tot i should realli get back to jogging again...i fall sick...so irritating...doesn't help that work juz starting to pile up again...disgusted that work juz gets thrown down so easily and irresponsibly, and unfairly...

been working despite running a fever since last nite til now..surviving on paracetamol..gonna knock out early tonite...in hope of feeling better tomoro...

first of more 21kms

and so lion king came and went, and i honestly enjoyed the show, for its costumes, props, theatrics. Its amazing how detailed and sophisticated the artwork and mechanism were invested into the whole production. so that wasn't a disappointment, in fact, enjoyed the show and the company.

this time yesterday (or rather last nite), i was huffing and puffing away cuz i was in the middle of my 21km run...sadly, 21km used to be easier...damn~ nonetheless, finished it...thanks to my running buddy...will be running 21km again in Sep...and then the dreaded 42km...still considering if i should do it again...seriously...

of jogging again, muscle aches, and an itching (potentially breaking) heart

becuz i haven ran for a freaking long time, and becuz i have put on a hell lot of weight, and and becuz my neighbourhood frenly army buddy psycho-ed mi, i signed up the sundown half-marathon...

so i have been jogging again recently with my army buddy...in a bid to survive 21km relatively unscathed...unfortunately becuz we were not as fit as b4 (at least i wasn't...) i could feel the aches in my hamstring, thigh, and calf muscles...

juz did a good 10km juz now...hope it'll be enough for us to survive our sundown...

on another note...tomoro (or rather, later), i'll be catching a musical which has had some raving reviews...hoping the nite will not be a disappointment, on more than 1 front...we shall see..if the nite ends well or not...

"There are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, "Yup, that was a mistake". So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you'll go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not."

Lily Aldrin of "How I Met Your Mother"