lost and confused

eh...it might still be a little too early, but i dunno how celebrate my bday this yr...first of all, wat i wanna do, then i gotta decide hu to call...i def cant call everyone like last yr...where i realli compromised catching up with some of my frens...and i dun wanna get wasted again...soooo...sigh...i'm lost...damn...

dat aside..starting from today, for the next 3 weeks, i tell myself i'm gonna work out everyday...run twice a day if i could even...i seriously gotta lose some weight in order to fit back into my clothings...damn...

also...i gotta clear my room...again...as there's a new glass shelf to accomodate now...i try to clear my room when i can now...but there juz seems to be endless rubbish...damn...

oh yar! i wanna get a tan too!!! imp!!! i dunno wanna be the fair boy back in poly days!!~ sleeping beauty also wants mi to get a tan...so i shall...i'll make a point to bring a book down to read while tanning...and hope i dun fall asleep and burn myself...ouch...damn...

"saying is one thing...doing it is another..i need the determination to do it!!!!"

Exams over, wat now?

the past week has been pretty mentally draining for mi...seriously...juz glad that i'm through with my 2nd semester...well...another 10 more to go...

last sem, after our last paper...the usual gang had dinner and ktv session, and this sem, the same thing happened...i swear, it was not on purpose...might become a trend though...

upon reaching home...wasted no time with my "get fit in 3 weeks" plan by running a short distance with some light static exercises (its PROGRESSIVE TRAINING!)...

my weird mood did not stop there, as i started to clean up my room once again...to think i supposedly cleared during my last holidays, oh well...my room looks like a pig sty now...not dat i mind...

on a side note...as my desktop has decided to give up on mi...i can onli borrow my sis's lappy to log on net...sigh...sad...

"its been a while since i've been the philosophical mi...very long while...i miss the dreamy philosophical mi...damn..."

i rem the dayz when i first saw my men as recruits...and the variety of them...the "blur like sotong" kind, the "act garang but cry alot" kind, and the "do, do lor!" kind...those were the dayz

its been its been 6 months since i have ORD...and since the last i've seen them? my men have changed much...juz as i have...however, my men are soon approaching their ORD date too...but not without their "baptism of fire"

monday nite, they were gonna fly off to Taiwan for their inevitable ATEC, and Brigade Exercise...and mi, being the sentimental fool...made a trip down to the airport to see them off...as well as catch up with some of them...see how they were doing...i'm glad i made the long trip...

i managed to talk to not juz the men but also some of my fellow peers who had ORD-ed the same time as me...the sense of nostalgia... :) oh well, wish them the best for their trip to Taiwan...

"to console my men that going to taiwan is a good experience, i kept telling them dat compared to Brunei, Taiwan is a garden...and the gals there will leave u wanting more of course..."

of being called fat and doing something abt it~

Since today ended the traumatic mid-term period...i decided to go chill out for abit...since its always been straight home after sch nowadays...so i called vincmacky aka "dao yan" to go out chill...unfortunately...another guy decided to be a third party and tag along...

this guy...whom i seriously regret knowing as my acquaintance...i've known him since my army dayz...regretfully...and becuz of dat...i noe how big of a cannon his mouth is...when all he did during his army dayz was take leave half the time to go "see" specialist...another 1 quarter of the time on mc...and the final quarter of the time on light duty status...hence...cant do vigorous work...

miraculously...he didnt need to "see" the specialist anymore now dat he's ORD...woah...the wonders of the 3 letters...ORD...

becuz of the static evaluation and prejudice i have against him (maybe unfair...but i dun care)...i took it realli to heart when after some time not seeing him...his first words to mi were

"EH! U GROW ROUNDER AH!"

i seriously wanted to counter him by saying...

"eh, u of all people shouldnt call mi round...ur made up of a big blob of flabby meat u call muscle la...wake up ur stupid idea..."

but the logical part of mi decided against it...cuz the last time i offended him last sem in class...i called him a "mud"...and he almost punched mi...

nevertheless...i decided dat i shld realli do something abt my gaining of love handles (back to my poly days)...i decided to go for a run...dunno haven done dat in how many moons...

i changed to my running attire and told my dad i was going for a run...he gave mi the "Mas Selamat is out there and u wanna go and run!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!" kinda look...i gave him the "Yes, i know Mas Selamat is out there and i wanna go for a run" look...

my dad juz shook his head and said "come back early"...it was 12 midnite...dats early rite? early morning...

think i haven wrote such a long post in a long long while...

Of time management (or the lack of it)

i told my sleeping beauty recently...i realli gotta wake up my stupid idea...been slacking for toooooooo long...not been doing anything realli productive...and my mid-terms are juz days away...sigh...realli...

if i dun start learning how to manage my time and my stuff soon...i'm gonna be in ALOT of trouble...my sleeping beauty has already "warned" me b4hand to buck up~ oh no...

"To dao yan vincmacky...ur enlightening mi abt IPPT has lessened my burden!~"

Of much happening

so i have been lazy in updating...my bad...but things...well...happen...sch has been bad...veri bad...i cant catch up with my work, i dunno wats going on...things are moving too fast...i have a b*tch as one of grp mates...but the worst is...i aint motivated to get myself out of my predicament...i'm so doomed...

another thing...i aint fit anymore...i haven been doing any form of exercise for like...2 months? omg...sigh...and i gotta clear my annual IPPT in 3 months...i'm so so doomed...

on a lighter note, had a relatively peaceful CNY and a nice Valentine's Day dinner with my sleeping beauty :) truth be told...this is the first time i celebrated Valentine's Day...no joke~

"muz wake up my stupid idea!"

new class...new people...old mi~

so sch has started...and i'm unlucky enough to be separated from the old gang...which is bad...cuz this sem the modules do seem harder...and i aint exactly feeling veri sociable...which is bad...cuz this sem needs lotsa interaction as well...bad...

the lecturers this sem aint no more "i come from China" lecturer or "i have a doctorate...but i dun practice" Indian psychology lecturer...instead...i now get "i'm from Honolulu" and "I'm Chinese but American at heart" lecturers with heavy American accents...good luck to mi...

to top it off...English Writing lecturer happens to be a 40 yr old Singaporean widow who keeps emphasizing on "WRITE YOUR NAME AT THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER! IF YOU HAVE WRITTEN ANYWHERE ELSE, CANCEL IT!"....no wonder she's a widow...

"i'm running...but i aint losing no weight...damn..."