dat parrot...has been my companion for the past 3 days...and will so be for another week...and...of course...its not real...its a toy...

these past 3 days at Toys'R'Us Paragon has been farely ok...one thing though...i'm actually one of the oldest there...and i'm onli 22...serious...the youngest punk is onli 15...oldest 19...and none of them expected mi to be over 20...

and becuz of dat...i aint on the same wavelength as them sometimes...but nevertheless...they seem a nice bunch of people...mostly :)

anyway...today's my last day at Paragon...after dat its back to OG Albert Complex...where i used to work...over there...i'm still the youngest punk...world of diff...

i guess at OG i'll see less jerks...becuz...at Paragon now...once in a while...an as*hole, usually a Army boi with the botak head...comes along and acts like he noes how to operate the parrot...while i stand at a corner...and using the control to make the parrot say things to make a fool out of him...dat guy'll be so pissed...he'll slap the parrot b4 walking off...talk abt hurting a guy's ego...

"i cant stand for 8 hrs a day straight like i could last time...wat happen???"

Worst experience ever..

juz a couple of hrs back...was the highly anticipated My Chemical Romance's concert in Singapore...sad to say...its gonna be one of the worst exp as an usher for mi...it was a case of Murphy's Law..."Whatever that can go wrong...will go wrong..."

having a overbearing, chauvinistic, egotistical and seriously overweight botak for an event organiser didnt help...as my temper reflected my boss's initally...bad...later followed a series of my "smart alec" moments...and voila...trouble for everyone...sigh...

seriously let boss down...and sorri to my 2 frens who had to have this concert as their first time exp...i'm so demoralised...even the job stint at hasbro aint working out for mi...i shld realli start flipping the classified pages now...

"The end of my stint as an usher?"

mugging...sure?

i'm actually realli mugging comfortably...lying on the living room's sofa, covered in blankets and cushioned by pillow and bolster...with the laptop in front of mi to go thru my softcopy notes...occasionally falling asleep...comfortable can???

Onli got past one paper and i'm thinking of wat to do already...

1. get a job...need some spare cash
2. lose weight...time to run again
3. acc sleeping beauty whenever i can...i realli realli miss her to bits~
4. shop for new clothes...but not b4 i lose weight...

"my dear sleeping beauty...pls let us meet soon...hehe"

study? wat study?

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! i got my psycho paper in less than 48 hrs...and i haven even got past my first chapter!!!! i'm soooooo dead!!!! pls hope and pray for mi dat i'll get past this first exam since my poly days :p

"should i drop my double major?"

yes...the depressed mi again...

true to word...i am indeed feeling a little downcast...my temper always gets the better of mi...and often the consequences are not something i would like face on my daily life...

example would be upsetting sleeping beauty becuz of my temper...sigh...every time i throw my temper...i regret it later...but i still do it...even now...sigh...i guess now no matter how many times i apologize wont do...but...nevertheless...sorry my sleeping beauty...hope you'll forgive mi...

"as i'm typing this...i'm watching meet joe black...this show juz always happens to be broadcasted at times when i'm good for a tear-jerker...and yes...i weep while watching this show...and its one of my fav...juz so u noe..."

the slackness has come~

one good reason/excuse for my lack updating is dat since my last outburst of anger and frustration...i have grown super lazy...not studying for my quizzes and procrastinating doing my portfolio and so on...

a psychological explanation would be that i was motivated by stress to work...and exerted an overloaded amount of energy...but the energy was exhausted and i finally gave in...hence...the slackness now...

bad news is...my portfolio is due in 4 days and i'm 4 reports short and i have to touch up on the current 4...i'm soooooooo dead......

"i got a feeling i'm going to be back to my old depressed self..."

out of steam and motivation~

i've lost all my motivation to do anything...my mid-term papers r finally back...although they aint too bad...it aint too good either...and the coming tests r onli harder...i juz wanna sleep...

why is it dat u guys like to compare results so much...juz becuz i got a little higher marks in earlier tests means i'm a smart ass? as if dats not enough...u wanna depend on mi to let u copy my ans, and later laugh at mi for getting lower grades than u? u despicable moronic arrogant biatch~

i swear the next person hu wans to compare grades with mi out of competition and not out of care will get his balls squeezed so tight all the little proteins inside called sperms will spurt out of his boner~

muz u guys be so competitive and realistic?