out of steam and motivation~

i've lost all my motivation to do anything...my mid-term papers r finally back...although they aint too bad...it aint too good either...and the coming tests r onli harder...i juz wanna sleep...

why is it dat u guys like to compare results so much...juz becuz i got a little higher marks in earlier tests means i'm a smart ass? as if dats not enough...u wanna depend on mi to let u copy my ans, and later laugh at mi for getting lower grades than u? u despicable moronic arrogant biatch~

i swear the next person hu wans to compare grades with mi out of competition and not out of care will get his balls squeezed so tight all the little proteins inside called sperms will spurt out of his boner~

muz u guys be so competitive and realistic?

there are days when nothing u do can seem to go right...no matter what you do...this is one of those days...i do things without thinking and next moment i noe...i've upset people...sigh...tell mi wat can i do rite pls...

i felt soooooo bad...i went for a run...if onli i had run myself to the ground and stay there...leave my troubles behind...i'm truly sorri for being too insensitive...the run didnt work...i still feel lousy...

"maybe i should finally start on my Chivas...get myself damn wasted...juz cuz i feel sooooo lousy now...."

lucky boi

although last week has been quite a killer because of my 2 major mid-term papers Psycho and Comms, as well as handing in my first essay...not to 4get, i juz finished my maths mid-term today...

onli left English and Computer Science mid term on wed and 2nd part of Computer Science on fri...its relatively lite on mi this week...realli...though i have to catch up with my Comms portfolio and start on my 2nd essay's initial draft...sigh...no rest for the living...

y i gotta say i'm lucky...cuz i managed to get thru my 3 major papers knowing i wont perform miserably (unless i'm too confident..), managed to do well for my first essay...and still be in one piece...though i am running a fever now...

sigh...never ending tests and assignments...holidays never looked so worthwhile b4...

to my sleeping beauty...thanks for being there for the emo boi dat is mi :)

of changes in mi

since starting sch...i have honestly surprised myself...i have never been as hardworking my entire student life b4 as i am now...i willingly stay back in sch til nite juz to study...i drink essence of chicken, red bull, plus coffee with milk juz to stay awake thru the nite to revise, i can sit infront of the com for hrs, not playing games but typing, editing, re-doing my essay...i have lost my life...becuz...

in exchange, i have not stepped into the cinema since i started sch, i have not done any shopping for myself(wait a min...i seldom do anyway...), i'm more depressed than usual, i bite people more than i smile at them now, and i'm realli realli fat now (wait...no link...), ba!!~

and to top it off, its my mid-term exam, and i have to go injure myself on my RIGHT HAND!!! take a look...



looks more like a rotting wound than a cut...oh well...

"I NEED MY LIFE BACK!!!"

shagged out...

after last week's double killer of having Comms and Psycho test on the same day...and mugging those days b4 dat...i practically did nothing over the weekend...partly wanting to take a break...partly cuz i couldnt find the motivation to do anything related to studies.

but...homework is homework so i dragged my sorry arse out of bed in the wee hours of 4 am the finish them up...now that i'm done...here i am filling space...think i shld go for a run? (ate too much...too much input...not enough output...)

"sleeping beauty came up with some ideas for my Comms project...sweet!"

Miracles do happen~

becuz i noe i will onli rot my arse away if i went home straight after sch, and becuz i got 2 major tests...ON THE SAME DAY!!! and becuz i haven started revising on anything yet...i decided to stay back after sch today to do some revision...

so i actually realli realli realli sat down for a full 2 and a half hrs in the library to do my psycho revision...so now i know the diff btwn a methodological behaviorist and a radical behaviorist...or do i? damn...

anyway...after i got home...as expected...i did rot for awhile...with late dinner of course...but a sudden urge of craziness came over mi...b4 i knew it...i was in running attire...

i gotta admire myself for the stupid things i do sometimes...juz 2 nites back i had already tortured myself with 10km...and lagging my usual time by 8 mins...getting a weird feeling in my right knee joint...yet...yet i still went for a run...

so i did run a little better...so the weird knee feeling wasnt too bad...so i did feel juz a tiny winny bitsy bit better...still...doesnt change the fact tat i was still 1 min over short of my usual timing...and i was actually crazy enough to run when i got a morning class tomoro...omg...i'm so not gonna be able to wake up later...

"methodological behaviorists, radical behaviorists, biological psychologists...next thing they'll throw psychiatrists and social psychologists in my face..."

long delayed...

after weeks of countless procrastination...i've finally gone for my regular 10km run...and high time too...the fats r realli starting to pile up...and though i still clocked slightly under an hour...i was 8 minutes off my normal time...bad...shows how bad i've become...

i think becuz its been too long since i worked out...towards the last stretch of the run i felt something weird in my right knee joint...it feels weird even now...lagi bad...shall have to take it even slower now...damn...

talking abt long delayed...i've got 3 weeks worth of communications portfolio to be done, 1 english journal, 1 english exercise, 1 psycho yest, 1 comms test, and the realli realli mentally draining comms presentation content to think abt...sigh...how la how...

"controversy aside regarding vanessa hudgens...i realli think she and sleeping beauty look alike..oh how sweet they look!"