Sense of anxiety...

so i have to report to my new camp in a couple of hours time...bukit panjang...its actually alot closer than i thought...went to recce the place juz now...dats beside the point...here i am back to square one...a new beginning...a new place...all over again...they better dun last min tell mi i'm re-posted to somewhere else again...or my heart wont be able to take it...

the truth is rite now...i got the same sense of anxiety and fear as when i departed for taiwan abt a month back...but dat time we all went together...this time round i'm all alone...damn...i'll be reporting alone while everyone inside would be giving mi those analytical eyes...waiting to pounce on any mistake i make(they wont have to wait long...), then making mi suffer...argh!!! hope its realli not so bad...realli hope things would go well and smooth...sigh...

things haven been exactly going pretty well since my break last wed...esp at home...my grandma's in hospital...juz suffered a stroke this morn...now half her body's paralysed...the best part is she onli suffered dat stroke juz hrs b4 her discharge...she was already hospitalised for awhile b4 the stroke hit her...sigh...and my dad...he's been throwing his temper quite freely these days...i don't see him controlling it as much as he used to...now he gets worked up for even small and insignificant stuff...sigh...dunno wat to do with him also...and he's back to his old "matchmaker" ways...juz heard from my elder sis dat he nearly wanted to intro a malay girl to mi...WTF!!! am i realli dat bad??? dat bad dat my old man wants mi to convert? omg...sigh...my father realli see mi no up liao...

even my mum gives up on my dad now...although i gotta say i think she's playing a part in my father's recent fiery temper...i see her coming to contradict alot of my father's decisions nowadays...putting my father off...u noe how it is when u dun like people to tell u off for making the wrong decisions and stuff...argh...realli hope things can onli turn for the better here...i guess i shld call home more le...gotta end off...wish mi all the best people...and where's all my presents??? (joking!!joking!!)

"thanx for the call earlier...i missed you...take care..."

So its the Stingrays dat i go to!!!

New posting for 3rd Sergeant Sean Koh...5th Singapore Infantry Regiment!!! Quite happy with my posting actually, although i have to continue bashing forest...at least its way closer to home, its 5 days week...and there's a chance might go overseas again! hehe...before this posting i was actually posted to...of all places...BMTC...which is all the way on the other side of singapore...and its 6 days week! so...my new posting is a good thing! gonna report to my new unit on mon...meanwhile mi gotta clear up alot of my shit...and its alot of shit! damn i'm so lazy...

so lazy dat i think i might juz skip posting the pics i took in taiwan...the pics i took weren't interesting anyway...so...yeah...see my mood la...

"no matter wat people say...i'll still be wearing this ring..."

I"M BACK!!!

dunno whether u'll be surprised if i tell u that i'm actually feeling a little nostalgic abt leaving taiwan...i'l actually sort of got used to the life there...its realli interesting there....things on the street aint as controlled as S'pore...so things get more radical and FUN!

i wont try to say all dat i've seen...it'll bore u to death and it'll take forever...its an experience u shld try out for urself...its a nice place to go for on a holiday...and dun think dat watever u can get at Taiwan, u can get it back at S'pore as well...cuz u cant...such as shoes...they have more variety there...i got myself one pair :) the shirts though r a little too radical for my liking...most of u guys wld think otherwise i think......

why i say i can get used to life in Taiwan(more particularly Taipei maybe...) is because transport is so convenient there!!! the mrt there is actually cleaner than in s'pore! and the commuters are so much more civilised as well! but one thing i prob wont do is drive...u think s'pore has the world's worst drivers? wait till u see taipei's traffic environment...

i'll try to post some of the pics dat i took...and try to recall as many of my experience there...share with u guys :)

despite saying how nice taipei is...i'm glad dat i'm back home after 3 weeks...see how's my family doing...get in contact with my frens...collect bday pressies! wahahaha! gotta sort something out which has been bugging around for too long as well...

"I once knew a man from brazil!
who swallowed an atomic pill!
His left ball corroded,
His right ball exploded,
His dick landed up on a hill!"
CPL(soon to be 3SG) Makoto Lai

signing off~

well...i'll be leaving for ROC(Republic of China aka Taiwan) in a couple of hrs time...got a sense of anxiety...even a tinge of fear...but i believe when i see the other guys at the airport...things shld get better(so my balls r shrinking as of now...got prob?)

actually got quite abit dat i wanted to blog abt...but always keep forgetting...i guess it'll depend on when i have more time bah

gotta go soon le, anyone last offer for mi to buy anything for u guys, juz msg mi, take care and good luck guys...wish mi a safe journey...

"I wonder how the stars in Taiwan is like?"
Stinko

So many things...

Juz in case ur wondering wats the song being played in the background is? it's "Far Away" by Nickelback...bloody good song~ if u cant hear it, its either ur not using internet explorer(maybe ur using Mozilla or Opera?) or...ur IE izzint up to date...so go do the rite thing!

March, April and May has a hell lot of birthdays...its getting a little overwhelming...makes mi all the more determind not to do anything abt mine(i dun have a choice actually, taiwan rem?)...

anyway...i'll decided dat come the Great Singapore Sale...i'm gonna spend quite abit on updating my wardrobe! i realli need to do something abt it as i dont see anything presentable dat i can wear anymore...wats more, i would have by then earnt myself a higher allowance of 200 bucks more! wahahahaha...anyone interested in going for a shopping spree can call mi along anytime!

i'll be flying off to Taiwan next weekend le...seems like everyone's looking forward to it...i guess i am too...not the exercises but the last 3-4 days where we get to be free and easy...imagine the things we can see and do! wahahaha, gonna bring my digital camera along...maybe even sneak it into our outfield exercises...can take pictures at our worst!

Anyone who wants to buy anything from taiwan pls leave a note behind in my comments so i can take note :) anything too big or too ex and u can 4get abt even hoping i'll get it for u though(unless ur a bloody ravishing beauty...i might consider)...

"Ur a disgrace to the Whozzy Core!!!"
Watever dat means...1SG Yeo

fate realli plays pranks on u!

"Any fool can accomplish failure...
But a fiasco...
A fiasco is a disaster of mythic proportions
A fiasco is a folktale told to others,
That makes other people feel more...alive
Because it didn't happen to them..."

couple of weeks back i was pretty looking forward to the weekend that has juz passed and the coming weekend...as i bookout earlier than usual(long weekend!!!)...i was esp cracking my head for next week as it would have been one of the best days of my life...what to do? where to go? where and what to eat?

anyway...doesn't matter now...got onli myself to blame...hence...since i had quite abit of free time...and my father decided to enrol himself in a hypnotherapy class, i became the family's temporary chauffer...i think it was a good chance for mi from stoning my time away...though i think the car needs a little servicing from the abuse it juz received...

from this free time, i got to play alittle with my new toy...and it juz came in time...realli~ an Ipod Nano...now i can drown myself in agony music in camp...

i dunno if its juz mi or heaven is realli playing pranks on mi...everything dat i come across has to refer to the topic of breaking up...

i switch on the tv and i see MTV asia playing the song "so sad",
i switch to HBO and the scene is exactly the part where a gal leaves a guy,
i turn on the radio and the song on is "superman"
i wanna call my fren out and the reply is "i'm so sorri...i'm still coping with my recent breakup..."

( -_-") uh-huh...

i rest my case...

"i'm still wearing this ring everywhere i go...and i dunno why..."
Stinko...on depression mode

So that's that then...

And so it comes to it that stinko the philosopher once again lives the true life of a real philosopher of being a lonesome and pathetic old man who onli knows how to blabber his time away :)

truth be told...i guess some of u might know wat has happened...while the rest of u will know sooner or later(go guess if u still dun...)i wont say i didnt see it coming...onli the time it came...oh well...

anyway(as i always like to start off, if u haven noticed)...some of my newly acquainted buddies from my platoon saw the unusual quiet mi stoning away...and dragged mi to Zouk...dat was last nite...i can tell u...i didnt stone there...got intro-ed to a new drink...B52...it was GOOOOD!

reached home onli at 4 plus in the morning, onli to catch 2 hrs of sleep b4 being sent to do chauffer work...think gonna try to catch a nap...

"i might not sound sad or act like it...but i think this scar will take a long while to recover...maybe it'll be good to use this time to reflect how much of a bastard i was..."
Philosopher de xtrodina're~

PS:oh yeah...this yr's bday supposed to be us year 85 babies' big day rite? hence the grandeur of some of our bday parties...but pls dun expect mi to hold any k? not in the mood...and i'll be in the middle of a taiwan forest when i turn 21 this yr anyway...so no point...i still veri much welcome gifts though...many many come come!