add 1 more gundam to the collection, i 4got that i had successfully bidded for a Wing gundam O ver.ka, its a special ed gundam...sigh...more burden, lighter wallet

feel damn guilty now...reason...for wat happen today...and yesterday...mi blew mi top at mi entre group members...without any valid reasons...still hate my temper...sorry guys...so very sorry...

again on today, our CC(Course Coordinator) came over to give us a "surprise" childrens' day gift, a box of Merci chocolates. dunno y but felt something in my heart, this lecturer really different lah, its my fortune dat she's our CC.

one more thing, got an internet marketing test on thur...luckily have the whole of tomoro to revise...sigh...even then...hope there's enough time...

"whatever we see in life now...there is something more to it...only the enlightened will see whats beyond life itself...it is something so profound...yet attainable by everyone...as long they are willing to open up and see"
A rough sketch of buddhism...interpreted by stinko

damn sian...because of all the mooncakes surrounding mi...i have put on more weight...die...sian...sigh...ARGH!!! finally done my entre report liao...sigh...

i juz realised that i have in all 7 gundam models to build...WTH!!!

1. 1/100 Kamper
2. 1/144 Gundam Astray Red Frame
3. 1/144 Gundam Astray Gold Frame
4. 1/100 Aegis Gundam
5. 1/100 Gundam Astray Red Frame
6. 1/100 Gundam Astray Blue Frame Second L
7. 1/60 Freedom Gundam

( -_-")

i think mi gonna sell off mi second item...too many to do le...oh damn...wat have i got myself into...i shouldnt even be thinking abt mi gundams...mi shld be thinking abt mi sch work!!! AHHHH!!!!

"there is a balance to everything, including us humans, that is why there is such a thing as karma..."
Stinko...your everyday philosopher~

there's gonna be something every week now...its either a test, a presentation or a project...this is so veri the bad news...considerering the slacker nature in mi...sigh...

-i gotta do a presentation on Biometrics(anybody got an idea wats daT?)
-prepare a brief assesment on my web service...
-another project on Internet Marketing...
-do up a financial report on my Entreprenuership final presentation...
-prepare for a test which is gonna be in say...8 more hrs time???

ohhh....it looks pretty bad...worse part is mi haven finish mi revision(haven even read thru the notes once...) and i already feel like i'm going to "meditate"...

"There is so much to life for us to explore...but knowing too much will burden yourself more often than not...hence...i believe that finding the balance between knowledge and ignorance is a true bliss..."
Stinko...drowsy philosopher on the verge of ~meditating~

i'm feeling veri down...sian...i seem to be so unattached to the world...to everybody...let mi tell u wat happen to mi today(or rather yesterday)...

in the morning...woke up to do my JAVA...work work work til lunch time...then after lunch go sch lor...enthu to carry on mi work...then...there was something strange...none of mi classmates were to be seen...hmmm...funny rite??? dunno lah...mi grp gals were taking a rest..."father" and "mother" go out liao...then the other guys nowhere also...so call them lor...had to call them a few times b4 picking up mi call...seems like they had some plan to go to 1 of the guys place to carry on their work...so mi bo pian lor...come sch 5 min onli go out to find them again...

then at the guy's place...onli managed to do a veri tiny bit...sigh...as mi laptop spoil...veri bad...wanted to go back sch to do...but was feeling terrible (rem i told u i was gonna fall sick?)...so made mi way home lor...wanted to see a doc but father told mi to go tomoro morning...so ok lor...

then at night while staring mi JAVA codes away...mi chatted with another guy on msn...this guy...though he didnt go sch or anything...knew abt all the guys' plans...and even told mi something i didnt...dat the guys were gonna stay over at one of their places to do JAVA...i was with the guys whole afternoon and they didnt even tell mi abt it...sigh...tells u something bah...

sigh...mi felt so left out man...come to think of it...i dun think the guys wanted mi to follow them in the afternoon...shld have guessed...thinking too slow...nvm...i'll see wat i can do on my own bah...

somehow mi juz feel so used...sigh...during the period where the same batch of us guys had to do a job dat required alot of moving around driving...i was the one driving for 3 days straight...if not for the fact i was the onli one with the driving lesson...i doubt i would have been asked along for the job...sigh...now dat mi sux at JAVA...none of the guys care where i am...or watever i'm doing...

sigh...mi no mood to do mi java now...i dun realli care if i fail or not now...wat the hell...

"maybe staying detached from the world is a good thing...u wont be used...and be treated like a fool..."

PS: To those who know who i'm refering to...pls keep this to urself...thanx...i dun wanna talk abt this to the guys...they'll juz think i'm oversensitive(maybe i am...) and always gonna throw mi temper anytime at them...mi dun wan dat...

Though there are blogging competitions here and there...i believe the trend is gonna die out soon...hmmm...there were times when things happened and i wanna blog it...but somehow laziness played its part...so nothing...hehe!!!

i doubt i'll be blogging on a consistent basis now...realli getting lazier and lazier...also...the critical part of mi sch semester is here...so not much time to do anything else...(not dat i do everything dat i shld be doing all the time...slacking...)

need to do alittle updating...congrats to Hanz for finding Manda...wish you 2 luv birds the best!~
mi gonna end off now...hope this period goes fine for mi...cu i feel dat i'm falling sick...serious...

"people will follow you not because of the things you do for them, they follow you because of the way you make them feel..."
Dexter Yager (no idea who...maybe a fellow philosopher... )

A fren sent mi this article...veri meaning...gonna rip abit of it and post it here, it might be a little long but i believe its worth ur time...the original is way longer :)


Regarding Maturity…

In this society that emphasizes on the packaging, we would sometimes inevitably envy other people’s good looks, and lament about our own imperfection.

But in my years of experience, I have discovered that there’s no one life that is perfect, everyone has a lack of something.

Some couples are very loving, monthly salary of 10K+, but they could have problems bearing child.

Some people have the looks and talent, but could have a rough time in relationships.
Some people have lots of money, but they don’t have filial children.
Some people look to have a good life, but their brain could be empty all their life.

Everyone’s life has been designed with imperfections, you may not want it, but it will follow you. I used to hate my imperfection, but now I have learnt to accept it with open arms.

Because I understand that the flaw in life is like a spike on our backs, reminding us to be humble and to emphatise with others.

If there are no hardships, we will be complacent. If there is no depression, we cannot emphatize and console those who are less fortunate.

I also believe that life cannot be too perfect, having a crack to let happiness flow to others is a beautiful thing.

"You don’t have to have everything.
If you have everything, what’s left for the others?
Also recognise that life has flaws,
that I will not compare myself with others,
instead cherish what you already have."

So, don’t go around envying others, count the blessings that Heaven has bestowed upon you, you will find that there are more things that you have than things that you don’t have.

And what you do not have, although not lovable, is very much part of your life,
accept and appreciate it, and your life will be much happier.

Find someone who understands you…
and also hope you are that someone who understands him/her...

The intelligent like to guess people’s heart…
Although everytime they get it right, they will lose their own...

The innocent and naive love to give their hearts…
Although they get laughed at everytime but they would have won over other people’s hearts...


dunno abt u...but i hope i can live my life after these words of wisdom...
sobz sobz~~

more often than not...i've been throwing my temper(as some of my closer friends would noe...) like no one's business...disliking almost anything dat doesnt go my way...pretty stupid rite? i agree...but i realli used to be dat...(in fact...i still am...) but i realli hope to try and accept things as they are and not recklessly get pissed for nothing...stop my foolish ideas and childish acts...sigh...

Sigh, i think quite a few of my blogs start off with a sigh, rite? shows u much i like to sigh...got thing sigh...nothing also sigh...even my parents say i sigh too much...

juz now...mi ah pa(Derrick san)chatted with mi abt 45...haha...i tot i was a bad failure...after listening to his gd fren's story...mi feel so sad for dat guy...spend so much money and time for a gal...still end up still nothing...realli poor guy...

mi still haven done much revision for my 2 tests...last nite slept at 7pm...onli to wake up at 5 am next day...wah...a full 10 hrs of sleep...SHIOK AH!!!~ hope i got some motivation to do some revision later...cuz i certainly have none rite now...

"Sometimes, there is only so much you can do until you either bear the fruits of your labour or realise its all for naught..."
temperamental philosopher, Stinko