of reflections and worries

no..its not that i'm stressed, perhaps later, when its closer to exam time or when i'm going to start work perhaps..think it'll come in useful, esp considering that its been my advice since eons to ppl hu wanna de-stress..bang ur head on the wall!

becuz i totally have no clue as to wat happened in my past 2 lectures...
becuz i already missed 1 extra credit assignment...
becuz i slacked the whole weekend playing FM instead of studying...
becuz i didnt feel like studying at home...

i decided to act hardworking and come to sch early in an attempt to study...so...progress? 0%...damn..

something interesting though...i tot i am the onli idiot in sch who go way too freaking early to sch juz to snooze on the wooden benches as though i'm a beggar in the street...but i was wrong! as i awoke from my slumber earlier from my own usual "private" corner wooden bench, a neighbouring bench was occupied by another idiot hu was in a more unglam position than i was...cool~ i like~

Of what happened and what's to happen

sometimes, people juz dun learn their lesson, and i am one of those idiots...why? because despte the fact that i've always had facial injuries while playing soccer or basketball with my glasses on, i still wear them while playing.

and so...the latest injury came a couple of days back when the soccer ball hit mi in the left eye area, where i had an injury before from my poly days...upon closer examination, the wound was exactly on the scar from my poly days...a wound upon a wound...cool~

while i was contemplating contact lenses, i decided not to when my optician told mi to change my lenses is onli 90 bucks...its so much cheaper can? and i still cant get the hang on putting on contacts...

on another note...

people have been asking mi wats next...my answer would usually be attempt to do well at my job, wont be surprised if i'm fired though, look forward to my first paycheck, but the most immediate concern would be to grad...which is in like.........2 weeks plus?

then ppl ask abt love life, and i reply "wat love life?", "dun have, dun wan", and "not looking forward to anything except job", which is the truth...after what i've heard from an animated female geomancer and a wise old man hu can crack jokes with a straight face while reading ur 8 characters, i think i need to realli wake up and do wat i need to, and romance juz isnt one of them...

i'm taking wat they said with a pinch of salt, but i gotta realise that with such coincidences with their description of mi and their similar readings, i should be more conscious of myself, even if not for believing in something that people are skeptical abt, but at least be conscious of how i seriously live my life now, cuz this is the real world i'm gonna step into...and it seems scary...

"inorite?"

of being annoyed

perhaps it was cuz i did not have enough sleep~
perhaps it was cuz i woke up on the wrong side of the bed~
perhaps it was cuz i had a morning class which caught nothing of it~
perhaps it was cuz i'm having a fair bit on my plate now..despite onli doing my 1 last module~

but i've been pretty annoyed about anything and everything this morning...angsty is the rite word to describe mi now..

Of running, lunch and haircuts

after a long long time...i ran Machritchie reservoir after dunno how many ages...with my fren, whom i'd like to refer to as the Tommy Gun~ it was good running with his company (no, i'm not going that way), and although we talked more than we walked and walked more than we ran, it was still a good run..i should run more...

had a good catch up lunch with the Malay, along with the one with the squinty eyes and the self-professed bimbo. Inception (2nd time for mi) was good...though the run earlier killed mi so i snoozed abit..but it was a good catch up with them :)

so finally after weeks of delaying, i finally cut my hair, which was overgrown, and unsightly...so as i walked into the hair saloon, my other regular hairstylist's first remark to mi was

"AIYO! soh long neber see you aledy! hair so long now, like poor old man like dat!"

that killed much of my esteem, knowing that i had b4 this walked around half the day in this poor old man look...it didnt help that i didnt shave...so while i cutting my hair, i chatted with my hairstylist while she was happily cutting my hair away..

"why your hair so long ah?"

"cuz i long time never cut?"

"aiyo, thats why la, your hair so thick! like ger hair like tat..."

"thanks ah..so help mi cut short short can?"

"can! i cut short short nice nice for u!"

30 mins later i saw a me that was reminiscent of my earlier army days...not that i minded honestly..at least it was neat...

and so with a renewed belief in my now easily maintained hair...i showed the world proudly...and these were wat i heard...

"eh, grow ur hair back la..u look better last time..."

"eeeee, ur hair so short! make u look fatter!"

"wah..u reservist ah?"

and the ultimate...

"eh...u look like Jack Neo..."

i sobbed...but it onli gives mi motivation to run more and lose weight...
i should, i must, i will!

You talk too much, will get u into trouble...so act like a clown, act blur, then u'll be safe...understand?
More wise words from the old man

Wise words

A wise old man, despite his veri serious tone, and deep weathered voice, said to me with a veri firm face...

"Young man, you want to drink milk, go outside and drink, but make sure you don't bring the cow back!"

I tried my best to keep a serious face to accomodate him...i was ROFL-ing in my heart..wise words nonetheless...thank you old man~

Of fortune telling and family bonding

Because my mother happens to be on a fairly long leave, and because she happened to have some free time, and because she was interested in consulting a geomancer, and because I happened to be with her, i got my 8 characters read as well...

and the geomancer said i was a weird person...she said...

1. I tend to daydream a lot...too much...so much so that i live in my own world (TRUE)
2. I tend to be alittle short of my temper (understatement...and TRUE)
3. I tend to not want to change for others, as a consequence from daydreaming in my own world too much (hmmm...quite true i guess...)
4. I tend to like to contradict myself all the time, so much so that I end up not knowing what i want...(SO TRUE~)
5. I'm too stubborn, too much for my own good at times...(TRUE...i'm a bull, wa-do-u-x-pek?)
6. And becuz i'm too stubborn, i tend to be loggerheads with some individuals, hence...not good PR (quite true too...)

As a result of all those characteristics of mine...i'm gonna have a pretty hard life...damn...

1. i'm gonna marry late, cuz it take a serious woman to take all my shit :P
2. i'm gonna be doing bad at work, becuz i'm juz too stubborn for my own good, and the heavens dun smile on mi...

oh well...shit happens...moving on...

spent a fair bit of time with family, which was good, movie and makan :) talked abit, joked abit, shopped abit...good family bonding :)

On a side note...i already got a job offer...should i take it?

"Stinko ponders...and ponders..."

confusion and perhaps frustration...

I'm a pretty confused...and maybe frustrated boy these days...why?

cuz no matter how much i study, i never seem to get things into my head
cuz no matter how i seem to know stuff, i never do get the grades to reflect it
cuz no matter how i seem to want to show how I feel, it never turns out that way
cuz no matter how i try to control my temper, i somehow lose it at the most critical of times
cuz no matter how i tell myself to find a good job asap, i somehow find myself procrastinating sending out my resume
cuz no matter how i want to train myself up again to be Trim And Fit (TAF!~),i end up watching tv and dozing off...
cuz no matter how i seem to know what i want...at the end of the day...i don't...

i guess i need to wake up my idea~ and soon...