when life is but a joke

juz a summary of watever happened since last post...i went to Bintan with sleeping beauty and family...got fatter...flunked my exam...watched the MUSICMAN, WANG LEE HOM!!! (HE is GOOOOOOOD!!!) and juz now cracked my head for a veri interesting but mentally draining module called Critical Thinking...

something random happened today...after sending my sleeping beauty home, as i was driving along the expressway...of all the unlikely places, i got an air bomb from an avian specie zero-ed in exactly in my view...(in a non-verbose term...a bird shitted and i got the shit smack rite in the centre of my view on the windscreen...)...the funny things that can happen to one at the most unlikely of times...

oh well..

of randomness...

so i have finally committed myself to the Bintan trip...make mother happy alittle...oh well..take it as a holiday...though i cant say i'm a very happy person rite now...cuz...

i haven had the time to catch up with some of the people i would have liked to catch up with..and starting to feel realli guilty over it..but sch is realli starting to get busy with work...hence it'll onli be harder to make time...

and i'm realli realli dreading sch nowadays, cuz not onli am i not doing very well..struggling actually..its cuz i realli realli dislike this particular lecturer of mine..who seems to think he is the KING OF THE WORLD with his "philosophical" mind...no one likes him, he doesnt care, he makes life difficult for everyone...and he has a SUPER BIG EGOCENTRIC PERSON!!! hence, i realli realli realli dun like him...i cant emphasize anymore...

on a lighter note, i took the chance to clean up the car with dad over the weekend...picked out the rubbish, cleaned the floor mats, vacuumed the car...took out the unnecessary stuff...been wanting to do dat for a while...

spent some quality time with my sleeping beauty too~ been awhile since she wanted to go ktv...hence sunday nite it was dat we went, could see the happiness on her face :) a just reward for her hardwork with her assignments...

and so i have juz passed monday...with the rest of the week still to come...i'm realli dreading sch...sobz...

to go...or not to go...

my family is generally run by the matriach system...and there was quite a bit discipline in the past...however, times have changed alittle...

in the past, whenever my mother said holiday, we go~ and that has always been the case until recently...since elder sis and myself legalised ourselves to watch R(21)movies...we had tiny bit of choice as to whether we would like to go on holiday as well..actually, its been more of a case of whether we can go or not...elder sis has her work commitments...i have my sch commitments...so the past 2 holidays excluded us...younger sis didnt have a choice either...neither did dad...

and this seems to have upset mother abit...she's looking forward to the time when the whole family could go on holiday together again...so came the latest holiday...Bintan...seems like this time, even elder sis can make it...dat makes onli mi...but...but...but...

i aint exactly trying to make excuses for myself...but...this sem aint exactly smooth sailing for mi...and its nearly the peak of the sem where many of the assignements and presentations r due...so....

told mother i'm a little apprehensive..and i could almost immediately hear her disappointment and slight annoyance...sigh...why la why...i'm seriously feeling guilty now...so should i go?

Moment of Truth

i think this sem shall see my grades truly reflect my intellectual abilities...ever since sch started, i got off easy many times on most modules, and scrapped thru a good grade...

this sem...things arent the same...seems like lady luck has finally given up on mi...i aint getting my grades anymore...i realli realli need to buck up~

u noe...it realli doesnt help that there are people around u whose definition of "did poorly" is totally on a different level...there the person goes whining abt getting 28 out of 30, while i'm here destined to get 22 perhaps? sigh...not helping...

shall realli try to help myself now...even if it means losing abit of myself~

time...how fast and how slow it can be...

when i submitted my final exam paper on friday almost 3 weeks back...i was thinking abt all the things i wanted to do~ and fair enough, the veri same day i packed my bags and headed for Redang, the famous beach in Malaysia, fantastic time, but other than dat...did nothing more than clean up my room a little... and b4 i know it...sch has started again...omg!!!!!!! Time passes tooooooooo fast!!!!

then...time has to show mi that it can pass freakingly slow, as my first lesson would show...i had to, by all of my worse luck, get the kind of lecturer i LURVVVVVVEEE to hate!~

*High pitched heavy ethnic accent*"I have Masters in Communications from Purdue University!"

*stinko's thoughts* "but u cant teach nor communicate effectively for nuts!"

i'm gonna have a hard time for this module i'm sure...lets hope the other modules are slightly better~

angsty me

ever since yesterday's major dissapointment in my biopsychology exam...i've been pretty angsty...bad...

doesnt help that the next 2 weeks r gonna be a killer as the 20 page research paper is due, along with a presentation to go along with it...and another 2 papers from biopsy...sigh...

if i keep being angsty...i might seriously develop high blood pressure...

its TGIF...mugging nite...

i'm not far from looking like dat at the moment...sigh...its friday..but here i am in sch at 9pm in the evening...trying to cram stuff into my already saturated brain...i'm a simple person person(i think...), but what ever i'm studying abt the human body rite now is nothing but simple...the bloody brain alone has enough info to make studying difficult...

to make things worse...i gotta mug for my mass communication module as well...great...so its biopsychology and mass communications...there goes my weekend...save mi...

"times like these i realli wish i wasnt studying..."