study? wat study?

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! i got my psycho paper in less than 48 hrs...and i haven even got past my first chapter!!!! i'm soooooo dead!!!! pls hope and pray for mi dat i'll get past this first exam since my poly days :p

"should i drop my double major?"

yes...the depressed mi again...

true to word...i am indeed feeling a little downcast...my temper always gets the better of mi...and often the consequences are not something i would like face on my daily life...

example would be upsetting sleeping beauty becuz of my temper...sigh...every time i throw my temper...i regret it later...but i still do it...even now...sigh...i guess now no matter how many times i apologize wont do...but...nevertheless...sorry my sleeping beauty...hope you'll forgive mi...

"as i'm typing this...i'm watching meet joe black...this show juz always happens to be broadcasted at times when i'm good for a tear-jerker...and yes...i weep while watching this show...and its one of my fav...juz so u noe..."

the slackness has come~

one good reason/excuse for my lack updating is dat since my last outburst of anger and frustration...i have grown super lazy...not studying for my quizzes and procrastinating doing my portfolio and so on...

a psychological explanation would be that i was motivated by stress to work...and exerted an overloaded amount of energy...but the energy was exhausted and i finally gave in...hence...the slackness now...

bad news is...my portfolio is due in 4 days and i'm 4 reports short and i have to touch up on the current 4...i'm soooooooo dead......

"i got a feeling i'm going to be back to my old depressed self..."

out of steam and motivation~

i've lost all my motivation to do anything...my mid-term papers r finally back...although they aint too bad...it aint too good either...and the coming tests r onli harder...i juz wanna sleep...

why is it dat u guys like to compare results so much...juz becuz i got a little higher marks in earlier tests means i'm a smart ass? as if dats not enough...u wanna depend on mi to let u copy my ans, and later laugh at mi for getting lower grades than u? u despicable moronic arrogant biatch~

i swear the next person hu wans to compare grades with mi out of competition and not out of care will get his balls squeezed so tight all the little proteins inside called sperms will spurt out of his boner~

muz u guys be so competitive and realistic?

there are days when nothing u do can seem to go right...no matter what you do...this is one of those days...i do things without thinking and next moment i noe...i've upset people...sigh...tell mi wat can i do rite pls...

i felt soooooo bad...i went for a run...if onli i had run myself to the ground and stay there...leave my troubles behind...i'm truly sorri for being too insensitive...the run didnt work...i still feel lousy...

"maybe i should finally start on my Chivas...get myself damn wasted...juz cuz i feel sooooo lousy now...."

lucky boi

although last week has been quite a killer because of my 2 major mid-term papers Psycho and Comms, as well as handing in my first essay...not to 4get, i juz finished my maths mid-term today...

onli left English and Computer Science mid term on wed and 2nd part of Computer Science on fri...its relatively lite on mi this week...realli...though i have to catch up with my Comms portfolio and start on my 2nd essay's initial draft...sigh...no rest for the living...

y i gotta say i'm lucky...cuz i managed to get thru my 3 major papers knowing i wont perform miserably (unless i'm too confident..), managed to do well for my first essay...and still be in one piece...though i am running a fever now...

sigh...never ending tests and assignments...holidays never looked so worthwhile b4...

to my sleeping beauty...thanks for being there for the emo boi dat is mi :)

of changes in mi

since starting sch...i have honestly surprised myself...i have never been as hardworking my entire student life b4 as i am now...i willingly stay back in sch til nite juz to study...i drink essence of chicken, red bull, plus coffee with milk juz to stay awake thru the nite to revise, i can sit infront of the com for hrs, not playing games but typing, editing, re-doing my essay...i have lost my life...becuz...

in exchange, i have not stepped into the cinema since i started sch, i have not done any shopping for myself(wait a min...i seldom do anyway...), i'm more depressed than usual, i bite people more than i smile at them now, and i'm realli realli fat now (wait...no link...), ba!!~

and to top it off, its my mid-term exam, and i have to go injure myself on my RIGHT HAND!!! take a look...



looks more like a rotting wound than a cut...oh well...

"I NEED MY LIFE BACK!!!"