future...bleak?

last nite...i was sitting outside my bunk with another 5 other guys...together with myself...we were the 6 outgoing personnal who would soon be ORD personnal! we were all in the mood...not wanting to do anything and eagerly awaiting the last 8 weeks to pass...

but while we were waiting for dat day to come...we discussed abt something pretty important...our future...to work or to study? i learnt quite abit of stuff dat nite...and b4 we know it...it was 2.45am...4 hrs from then would be our parade...crazy...

"Life can be so unpredictable...don't you think so?"

of new beginnings and coming endings...

while i'm realli looking forward to my ORD...when i can quite consider myself a free man...from all the green uniform and regimentation...it marks the end of a major step in my life...but the beginning of another...and i'm apprehensive...

come late august...i shall be pursuing further studies in SIM...Double Major in Communications and Psychology...true...its my interest...but the complexity of the course and the 2 semesters of chinese module...might get the better of mi...

fortunately...i have my sleeping beauty...realli glad she's around :) when she told mi dat i could look to her for help and we could even study together...u dun know how happy i was to hear dat :P

and talking abt my sleeping beauty, ever since she came back into my life...i've always had someone to look to...and someone i can pamper, someone to call my own :) to my sleeping beauty...if ur reading this...thanks for tolerating my temper and jealousy :P (i shall leave the mushy part out...)

and my biggest fear realli is the distant future...being a working adult...dunno why but have been thinking abt it for a while now...whether i can get to do something dat i like as a job...earn well...support my family(dat'll include sleeping beauty and her family too :P)...ohhhhh

"i think i'm thinking too much...pre-psychology student syndrome? thinking too much again..."

glad to be back...

So brunei has been an experience for mi...lotsa of things have happened...some good...some not good...but all memorable...imagine i never had to spend a nite in a swamp juz cuz i got lost of a couple of hrs...

anyway...didnt lose any weight as i'd have hoped...but never the less...shall try to work out on my own...in fact went for a nite run last nite :P shall go to the gym tomoro morn...

i really feel like sharing my exp on brunei...but laziness always gets the better of mi..and there are too many and too long to type anyway...but i do wanna blog...

recently, came across the topics of relationships...i've come to the point of questioning the point of a relationship in the first place...after wat has happened before and wat seems like happening...i dunno...trust...people advocate this all the time but does everyone give and provide the trust? LOL, i would like to think...

as negative as i might sound...i assure u dat i'm fine...realli...infact glad for one of my frens...winged feet he's nicknamed himself...he found his better half and is having a honeymoon in Tioman rite now...

Winged Feet is a real trash talker but he can talk sense when he wants to...and he did put some sense into mi once in a while...and he recommended the book "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"...i realli wanna read dat book too!!! shall steal the book from him once he's done with it...

"i realli missed my family and my sleeping beauty while i was away...so much that i acutally shed tears after talking to father on the phone...believe it...i'm a emo freak...sigh..."

and again i fly

once again, apologies for the lack of updates...being lazy, no time, got time also give my sleeping beauty, got time also meet my buddies, got time also take care of my terrapins(yes, they do take up my time...)!!!

i'll be flying off to brunei in abt say...24 hrs maybe? most prob i'll get lost for a long while in the thick thick rainforest of Brunei...get bitten by some undiscovered weird insect...have a snake crawl up my clothing while i'm sleeping...or even whoah surprise! be a mosquito feeding target...

so while i'm away...dun miss mi, be good! and pray i'll come back in one piece! dun bother asking mi to get souvenirs...the onli thing i'll bring back is brunei mud and stones...and to my sleeping beauty...MUACKZ!!!

"so i'm mushy...sue mi!"

being a pet owner...

i recently finally got my present from Mother(Crystal)...she told mi it would be something unexpected...and yup...it was realli unexpected...she had gotten mi a pair of terrapins...WOAH! i'm daddy now!

i used to have a pair of terrapins when i was a young brat...the amphibians gave up on mi after less than 2 months...lets juz hope this time round i'm a little lesser of a brat and take care of these 2 well enough eh?

on another note...i'm 2 weeks away from brunei...although its slowly itching closer...my initial anxiety is wearing out...maybe deep deep down in my heart i juz wanna quickly get it over and done with...or die trying! ;P

"anyone got any suggestions with naming the terrapins?"

of being shagged out

i have juz burnt last weekend becuz...

1. a big bunch of officer cadets(small fry!) had to go thru a test of ranging mortar bombs
2. my men have not had the chance to go thru a mortar live firing b4
3. no other unit wanted to accept the shit of taking up the task

so...mi and my men had to fire over 1000 bombs over 2 days and a nite...now firing dat many bombs ain't too much of a prob...but having to fire over the bloody hot sun especially around the 12-3pm timing is realli a killer!

some of my men fainted of heat exhaustion...one of them was sent home even...why wasn't i one of them...damn...anyway, glad its over now...but the repercussions of firing so many bombs seems to be taking its effect...

i can feel the heat within my body...gotta drink more herbal tea...thanks to Mummy for preparing that...and...my ever present backache has juz escalated to a body ache...ouch...

"someone pls recommend mi a good masseur..."

Of getting wasted and being happy abt it...

so it was my birthday yest! and how wasted i was...all thanks to my buddy ryan and brudder leon...they were the main culprits in causing mi to puke not once, not twice but thrice...including the last one at home when i couldnt make it in time to lift up the toilet bowl cover...i shant explain the details..........

u see...i decided to have a sort of a gathering at St James...and calling all my different grp of frens...turned out to be a little mistake as...i aint such a good host, i aint such a good drinker, and ultimately becuz of dat...i couldnt last til the end of the nite...i'm quite proud i lasted til 3 u noe...

i woke up this morn in my boxers and....with my mother in my room using the computer...weird...but i didnt get a hangover...thank goodness for that...oh well...alls well and ends well...

Thanks to everyone who came last nite and thanks to everyone hu rem my birthday! i realli enjoyed the nite despite puking and feeling like my world is spinning for half the nite...guess it pays back last yr's disappointment eh?

"so now i'm officially 22...damn i'm getting old...and to my sleeping beauty, 3 months aint a long time away :)"