Fast fast weekend...

And so the weekend has past...so fast...too fast...sigh...though i think i have made the most of it...i think...

From my bookout on fri nite(yes nite...), went to find the V6 gang at marina south for steamboat(Lim's bday)...followed by catching the World Cup opening game at Wei's place...because all the guys had a monetary purpose in watching the game...they were so much more into the game than i was...i was simply enjoying watching the beautiful game...(i think they still lost abit in the end...)

B4 the second game started, i was already on my way up to the bedroom heading for Lala land, but not b4 hearing them chanting abt betting odds and chances of winning...there went friday...

Sat was pretty eventful...got home since 8 plus am, onli to find my parents already up and ready to go out...so out i went with them for makan as well as some grocery shopping...

Rotted at home for awhile b4 going to visit my grandma...she's still in hospital...and easily a couple of kg lighter...she has lost so much weight...sigh...and seeing the suffering dat she's going thru...reminds mi of the time when my grandpa was about to leave us...

after dat met up with brudders leon, M.Y. and co...dunno why but i cheer up and open up to them everytime we meet...we all noe each other inside out...we're dat close...watched "silent hill" too...bloody good show...the guys kept complaining abt the ending...though i had no qualms...i was happy with the show...then it was back home...4 plus am le...

Sunday was sooooooooo short...cuz i onli woke up in the afternoon...the onli thing eventful was father's day dinner at Swa Garden in Macpherson road...go try...its bloody good! esp the teochew dessert "oni"...

though i wont say i had a bad weekend...i'm still sighing all the time...cuz of my grandma being in hospital...with father not recovered yet...he's temper as well...and my mother not making things any easier...they all got their reason to throw their temper...but wat has happened to all the compromise dat couples r supposed to give each other? sigh...i'll be booking into camp with a heavy heart...

"oh Adrian Mole, my mentor...enlighten mi...with your diaries"

Rediscovering myself...

So wat have i done during my rotting period at home these few days? quite abit actually, like wat my previous entry wrote, back into channel surfing...downloading/watching anime and movies(yes, i'm cheapo!)...playing online games(my younger sis has conned mi into playing neopets again! can u believe it??? and i'm hooked!!!), play around with websites like youtube or Grouper(its where i got this MTV...), tweak my blog template abit here and there...not to forget...do the house chores...yes...i do the house chores...

say for example...this morn...dad and younger sis decided to watch X-Men 3, so i drove them to westmall before proceeding home to wash the dishes, fold the clothing etc...BUT...not before blasting the bloody speakers to its max...i swear i could stand in any part of the house and still hear the music loud and clear! Now dat...is life...a bachelor's life :) i might juz be able to get used to it...juz might...

"so back i go to suffer in camp where i feel my bed shaking once again!"

A good break

rite now, instead of being in camp doing some pointless stuff or rotting in bunk, i'm in the comfort of my own home resting...why is dat? cuz.......i'm on MC! i got a good break til tomoro, which is a good thing...cuz i seriously think i need the break...

doc says i have an infection, and its going to the lungs, so...i dun think it'll be too dramatic to say i have lung infection rite? cuz dats wat i'm gonna say when i get back to camp...at least it can justify the long break :)

now i can enjoy the comfort of my own bed, own room...instead of always having to tolerate the guy who sleeps below mi(We sleep on double decker beds, and i sleep on top)...why tolerate him? cuz he seems to be masturbating every nite, as the bed shakes non stop way into the wee hrs of the nite, if not he would be talking on the phone and making sure the whole bunk can hear him...i'm not kidding...give u one good example..

"Hello, wat u doing?"*
"talking to u lor"
"ask u ah, where to buy laptop"*
"can go funan, or sim lim even better"
"oh, u soooo clever!!!"*
"No lah, i noe abit onli..."

*not accurate conversation dialogue

imagine i have been tolerating this type of conversation and bed-rocking sensation for the past week...still, going back tomoro le..sigh...juz glad i got this break...

And since i have been rotting at home, i've actually done something which i haven done in a long time, and dat is to sit infront of the tv aimlessly broswing channels...and caught a few good shows too...there was Grey's Anatomy, Desperate Housewifes and scrubs! while watching Grey's Anatomy, something which one of the characters said sounded so true...shall end off here for the time being...

"My boy, to be with someone whom u love with all your heart, yet he/she can't reciprocate the same feelings for you...its lonelier than being lonely"

Lady Luck has never shown her ass to mi as much as now...

sigh...i think this blog might get alittle too long...read my header...dats how i'm realli feeling rite now...ever since i enlisted as an NSF...every time i had to do some regimental duties...i would lose out more than usual...let mi explain...

In BMT, my first ever guard duty had to happen on a weekend...burning some of my precious time...

In Sispec BSLC, i was Company Duty Trainee...again on a weekend...do wat? sit in company office surfing tv channels and read newspaper 4 times over...

In Sispec Aslc, again guard duty while the rest of the company had night's out...

Now in my new unit, tuesday kanna guard duty again...the rest of them get the night off...

if dat's not enough...i have to go back tomoro again for weekend guard duty...tell mi..."tian li her zai"????? (where is the justice?????)

sigh...its times like these when its realli hard to pick urself up...esp whatever happen juz not long ago...u cant find the support u need sometimes...but!!! i'm a guy!!! muz face problems as a man!!!(if onli i really meant dat...)

anyway, though mi now at bukit panjang camp...might be posted back to pasir laba camp (back to where Sispec is) to undergo another training...to be a MG commander!!! its the ball dropping General purpose machine gun dat i get to play with...hehehe :)

recently got to chat with a good fren of mine...and learnt a very valuable lesson...

"its a good way to build up a good relationship, understanding of what you want, having trust, cherish more...basically less is more..."

eh...we were in the topic of how come she and her bf dun meet up veri often...dats when she came to say this...i think i still have alot to learn...i'm still a kid...

i've been calling home these past few days...things dun look good...grandma's still in hospital...dad's fallen sick too...cuz he's been going down everyday to look after her...sigh...and he's not young himself...sigh...if onli i can try to contribute to the family more...

everything seems to be in a stalemate now...emotionally, mentally...except maybe my fitness might go up juz a little tiny notch...the training there cant be taken lightly...hmmm...

"i dunno wat to do anymore...sigh...someone pls gimme some direction?"

Sense of anxiety...

so i have to report to my new camp in a couple of hours time...bukit panjang...its actually alot closer than i thought...went to recce the place juz now...dats beside the point...here i am back to square one...a new beginning...a new place...all over again...they better dun last min tell mi i'm re-posted to somewhere else again...or my heart wont be able to take it...

the truth is rite now...i got the same sense of anxiety and fear as when i departed for taiwan abt a month back...but dat time we all went together...this time round i'm all alone...damn...i'll be reporting alone while everyone inside would be giving mi those analytical eyes...waiting to pounce on any mistake i make(they wont have to wait long...), then making mi suffer...argh!!! hope its realli not so bad...realli hope things would go well and smooth...sigh...

things haven been exactly going pretty well since my break last wed...esp at home...my grandma's in hospital...juz suffered a stroke this morn...now half her body's paralysed...the best part is she onli suffered dat stroke juz hrs b4 her discharge...she was already hospitalised for awhile b4 the stroke hit her...sigh...and my dad...he's been throwing his temper quite freely these days...i don't see him controlling it as much as he used to...now he gets worked up for even small and insignificant stuff...sigh...dunno wat to do with him also...and he's back to his old "matchmaker" ways...juz heard from my elder sis dat he nearly wanted to intro a malay girl to mi...WTF!!! am i realli dat bad??? dat bad dat my old man wants mi to convert? omg...sigh...my father realli see mi no up liao...

even my mum gives up on my dad now...although i gotta say i think she's playing a part in my father's recent fiery temper...i see her coming to contradict alot of my father's decisions nowadays...putting my father off...u noe how it is when u dun like people to tell u off for making the wrong decisions and stuff...argh...realli hope things can onli turn for the better here...i guess i shld call home more le...gotta end off...wish mi all the best people...and where's all my presents??? (joking!!joking!!)

"thanx for the call earlier...i missed you...take care..."

So its the Stingrays dat i go to!!!

New posting for 3rd Sergeant Sean Koh...5th Singapore Infantry Regiment!!! Quite happy with my posting actually, although i have to continue bashing forest...at least its way closer to home, its 5 days week...and there's a chance might go overseas again! hehe...before this posting i was actually posted to...of all places...BMTC...which is all the way on the other side of singapore...and its 6 days week! so...my new posting is a good thing! gonna report to my new unit on mon...meanwhile mi gotta clear up alot of my shit...and its alot of shit! damn i'm so lazy...

so lazy dat i think i might juz skip posting the pics i took in taiwan...the pics i took weren't interesting anyway...so...yeah...see my mood la...

"no matter wat people say...i'll still be wearing this ring..."

I"M BACK!!!

dunno whether u'll be surprised if i tell u that i'm actually feeling a little nostalgic abt leaving taiwan...i'l actually sort of got used to the life there...its realli interesting there....things on the street aint as controlled as S'pore...so things get more radical and FUN!

i wont try to say all dat i've seen...it'll bore u to death and it'll take forever...its an experience u shld try out for urself...its a nice place to go for on a holiday...and dun think dat watever u can get at Taiwan, u can get it back at S'pore as well...cuz u cant...such as shoes...they have more variety there...i got myself one pair :) the shirts though r a little too radical for my liking...most of u guys wld think otherwise i think......

why i say i can get used to life in Taiwan(more particularly Taipei maybe...) is because transport is so convenient there!!! the mrt there is actually cleaner than in s'pore! and the commuters are so much more civilised as well! but one thing i prob wont do is drive...u think s'pore has the world's worst drivers? wait till u see taipei's traffic environment...

i'll try to post some of the pics dat i took...and try to recall as many of my experience there...share with u guys :)

despite saying how nice taipei is...i'm glad dat i'm back home after 3 weeks...see how's my family doing...get in contact with my frens...collect bday pressies! wahahaha! gotta sort something out which has been bugging around for too long as well...

"I once knew a man from brazil!
who swallowed an atomic pill!
His left ball corroded,
His right ball exploded,
His dick landed up on a hill!"
CPL(soon to be 3SG) Makoto Lai